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Someday that did not happen

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big treeWhen I was younger, I used to have dreams about things. Someday I would move abroad. Someday I would become something. Someday I would find someone to love. Someday I would find a career I’m comfortable with. Someday I’ll become a Formula 1 photographer. But that someday never came. Things never turned the way I wanted them to be. I learned to accept the way things were. Now I wouldn’t have the same goals as I did then. My priorities changed as I got older. I began to take the days as they came and I still do. I don’t plan far ahead because I know they won’t become true. No matter what others say, it won’t happen to me. If it would, it would have happened ages ago. I’ll never meet people I want. I never get satisfaction in anything I do. I’m pleased with things but I never feel 100% sure. I live in a world where everything is good. I don’t want to the worlds problems on my shoulders. There are things I care about but I wouldn’t spend my time by following them for very long. Things will never be fine in the world. I can feel empathy but it doesn’t make me lose my sleep over it. I’ve got enough of my own problems to solve. I would be a very bad psychologist because I found other people’s problems uninteresting. Even if I’m interested in human behaviour, I still wouldn’t care less. It might have sounded bad about what I just wrote but other people’s problems are no concern of mine. I don’t expect others to care about mine either.

I might be pessimistic here but I don’t believe in someday. There won’t be a cure for cancer someday. There won’t be peace in the world someday. We can only hope there is a cure but it doesn’t mean it will come true. There’s always been bad things in the world. Things can get better but it will never be over. You can’t get rid of hate and you can’t spread love to everyone. Idiots of the world has always been and always will be around. You can make the world a better place by spreading love but it won’t have any affect on certain people. It’s no use to think someday a miracle would happen when that someday will never come no matter how much you wish for it. Still it doesn’t mean you have to give up on the someday. Maybe it will come or it might not.

That someday only happen to other people than yourself. Someday someone wins the lottery but that won’t be me. Someday a little child hugs you for no reason at all but that ain’t gonna be me. Someone else will meet a famous person they look up to someday but not me. I’ll never be that lucky. I will not find love someday because I’m not even looking. If I did, he’s probably taken or wouldn’t even care. I did think someday I would change the subjects on this blog to more personal but that never happened. Someday is not really my friend. On the contrary, it’s a pain in the behind. The only certainty that someday will happen is death. It comes to all of us one way or another.

 

Tallenna

Tallenna

I’m listening

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frasier listening

“The Dwarf breathes so loud, we could have shot him in the dark.“

People never listen. Especially extroverts. They keep talking so much you would think they love their own voice. It’s a skill to know how to listen. I’m very good at it. That’s my superpower. I may not be good at giving advice but I can listen. Introverts in general are good listeners. I’m not into chit-chat. I rather be quiet than talk nonsense. People who doesn’t know me think I’m always quiet, even at home. But at home I’m a totally different person. There you can be yourself completely. I say what I think and when I get angry, you don’t want to be around. Other times I’m a calm person and I don’t make a lot of noise of myself. When you’re around people you must have a cool head. If you start to act like a crazy person, people look strangely at you.

I’m no expert on relationship but if you don’t listen to what the other person is saying, it will cause problems. People should talk more to each other and not take things for granted. No one is a mind reader. It’s no wonder there are divorces and break-ups because people doesn’t talk about their problems. Listening to others solves a lot of things. If you really listen to others, you learn something and you understand the other person a bit better. Interrupting someone is not only rude but it makes the person feel like they don’t want to be heard.

You think introverts doesn’t pay attention when their doing something else. I don’t know about others but I’m good in multitasking, I can both concentrate and listen at the same time. Someone could have a conversation and they think I might not be listening but I actually am. You can learn a lot from listening to conversations even if it’s unintentionally. Sometimes people talk about things you don’t want to hear which makes listening disturbing. Especially in public transport. Who wants to listen to how drunk they were at the weekend or what kind of decease some have? That kind of talk should be talked about somewhere else. They think no one is listening. Sometimes though listening can be amusing. It’s mostly ridiculous things people talk about.

The superpower of listening is both a blessing and a curse. I would rather be listening than keep on talking though. Conversations should make sense and not a reason to talk like some people practise. There are those who think silence is awkward but if everyone kept talking, there wouldn’t be anything else but noise. Listening is a skill that anyone can learn but for some it’s a natural thing.

Tallenna

Tallenna

Tallenna

Tallenna

Advent Calendar, Day 23

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©Mia Salminen, Kamppi shopping center, Helsinki 2014

Today it’s Christmas Eve Eve and this advent calendar is coming to an end. First of all, thank you all for the likes and comments. I really appreciate them all. Secondly, there’s not much left of the year 2016. Personally my year has been quite eventful which is something that doesn’t happen every year. I’ve also discovered things I didn’t expect I would. I made a list of what I discovered this year.

Learn new things
I started studying web design. At first I was really exited but as the year passed, I notices coding is a pain for me. No matter how many times I tried to practise, I didn’t learn it. I’ve been so frustrated and wanted to quit so many times. My teacher said if I practise and practise, I learn but what’s the point when it only makes me upset. You should like to practise what you do. On the job learning I told my client about my troubles with coding but luckily he fully understood. I did what I could. The client was satisfied with all the work I did do. The planing is something I’m better at. I did a logo and a banner so I used my graphic design knowledge. Sometimes things you’ve learned in the past do come in handy.

Winning a fear
It’s not really a fear but I’ve never been brave. In school I was always a listening student. As an introvert, speaking up in class was never easy. Even if I did know the answer, I still wasn’t brave enough to speak. In the school I’m studying right now, I’m been much more talkative. I’ve asked questions and so on. I think I’m not afraid to speak up is because we’re only about 7 students so it’s easier. I always liked small groups. The older I get, less I think about what others might think. If I screw up something, I just move on. It always wasn’t so. I wouldn’t want to go back in time and live my teens again. I lacked confidence and unsecure around other people. It’s much easier now and it has taken a lot of time to get here.

Blogging
I made a new blog about my web design studies. At first I thought I could handle two blogs but I was wrong. I haven’t had the energy to write so it has been rejected for a while now. I can’t spend my time blogging all day so something must give. The reason I started that blog was to keep up with my studies. More of a diary thing. It’s interesting to know what I was thinking and went through. Usually there’s a lot of things stored in my brain but like computers, you need to empty the hard drive from time to time. I will still have that blog even if I only post there less than in this blog.

Movies
I’m a very late bloomer when it comes to Marvel movies. I haven’t really been interested in those before. Movies like ‘Thor’ and ‘The Avengers’. I loved ‘Guardians of the galaxy’ but that as far as it goes. I’m still not interested in Marvel movies in general. I don’t care about ‘X-men’, ‘Superman’ and whatever the names are. Even if I did see ‘Superman vs Batman’ but that was only because of the latter and I wanted to see how Ben Affleck did his version of him.
There’s reason why my sudden interest in certain Marvel movies has arisen and the reason is Tom Hiddleston. I never thought I would watch Thor and actually liking them. The first one was a bit lame but it did have great special effects. The second was better but you should watch ‘The Avengers’ first because then you understand it better. That’s the problem with Marvel movies, there’s too many characters you have to keep up with. Then they make different movies of them too. ‘The Avengers’ is actually the 2nd ‘Thor’ movie. Damn Loki, his everywhere. But ooh so sexy.

A new crush
What a difference a TV series makes. I’ve never seen anything with Tom Hiddleston before until now. I didn’t think much of him since I didn’t watch those movies. To make a long story short, I watched ‘The Night manager’ and boom, I was ‘in love’ You know when you’re a kid and the parents tell you not to touch the stove or put your tongue on an icy surface but you still do it. The same when someone says, don’t look at him/her for too long or you might fall for them. Maybe I’m a bit superficial here but he’s just so pretty it hurts. Plus those amazing eyes and that voice. Is it getting hot in here? 😀 He’s not just a pretty face though.

Icehockey
I loved ice hockey as long as I remember. I usually watch world champion and big tournaments like that. But this year I discovered I love it even more. I went to a few matches in the Finnish league. One of the tickets I won in an Instagram competition. Nothing is better than seeing it live. It’s not a cheap thrill and I’m not really crazy about the travel to the matches. Being there supporting your team in person and feeling the atmosphere is one of the best feelings in the world.

Tallenna

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