Going around like the carousel

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My life seems to go around like a carousel—a slow one. At least when it comes to jobs. My birthday was on Wednesday. I only got three congrats on Facebook. But it’s no big deal. I only turned 44. Birthdays are no big deal for me anyway. Unfortunately, age seems to be an issue for some people. I say to those people, talk to the hand. Age is a state of mind.

I have things to do that keeps me occupied, so I don’t have time to think that my life is going around like a carousel. I have that driving lesson thing and the UX/UI design thing. The summer weather is also here, so who has the time to look for a career. I won’t find one either. You can have all the educations in the world, but that doesn’t mean you will find a job. No matter what people claim. You need to have job experiences and a college degree, which I don’t have. Then LinkedIn suggests jobs that I’m certainly not suitable for. Like marketing. I’m not any good at that. Why should I waste time on writing applications to places I won’t get anyway? Am I not taking someone else’s job, someone who has studied the subject? I don’t believe in applying for jobs that I don’t have an education for. They said you should apply for any job, but that’s a waste of time for the applicant and the one who reads the applications. I just become something where there are jobs. I need experience from the occupations I have studied and not experiences from working. I know the rules of working in general.

At the moment I want to concentrate on the current things. Taking baby steps is better than trying to hurry. I don’t mind being in the current carousel of life. Sometimes I wish there could be more, but that feeling is just passing.

Welcome Tom to the 40s club

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©Mia Salminen 2021

Today British actor Tom Hiddleston turns the big 40. It feels a bit weird that someone you don’t know personally is in the same age as you. Well, I’m still older, though. I turn 44 in June. When I turned 40, I thought, wasn’t I just 35. At 40, you realise how fast the time has gone. You have a history behind you, but also a future in front of you. My 40s is different from he’s 40. For one, he’s male and a famous actor. Actually, anyone else in their 40s has more experience than me. In everything in life. So age doesn’t really matter. It’s just that when a woman is 40, they’re old. But when a man is 40, it’s no big deal. You hear men get better with age. But you never hear that about women. It’s better to be a woman though because, well, you get to like men like Tom. Someone like me will never get someone like him though. Life is like high school where the popular person wouldn’t look at the shy and ‘ugly’ one that way.

Getting older is not always a good thing. Especially when you’re a woman, and you’re single without a job. Other people probably wonder why. Maybe there is something wrong with you. Well, no one is perfect. Even those who you think are, but everyone does have flaws. If you’re famous or just an ordinary person. When you’re young, you don’t think about age. Not until you become older. Age seems to be a problem for some people. You’re either too young or too old. The older you get, the less you care what others think. Answering the question, maybe there is something wrong with you. Yes, there is. I don’t have enough job experience, and I have never been popular among boys/men. But I don’t really see that as a problem. There are a lot of things I missed, but you can’t go back. You can’t miss something you never had. There is just so much more in life than trying to impress other people. Some people have goals to have a family one day, but it’s not my life. Other people’s personal lives are no concern of mine. Even famous ones. I have other things to think about. If I kept thinking about other things than my own life, I wouldn’t have time to do anything else. I don’t like drama. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I can’t even say to a person when they act wrongly without shaking inside.

That was enough about me.

Welcome Tom Hiddleston to the 40s club. I still love you no matter what age 😉 Have some cake 🙂

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Advent calendar Box 2

advent calendar 2What Christmas means depends on what age you are. When I was a child, it was very important. My parents, my grandmother, me and my sister were all there on the Christmas Eve. Presents and the Santa Claus was part of it. Everything then was a mystery. But as the older I got, the less important it was. Our family decreased and the whole holiday became just like another day. Even though it’s not quite like that since I’ll be going abroad this year too.

I still think Christmas is time to relax. I like the whole spirit of it. But I think it’s more of a family with kids celebration. When I get old, I don’t think I’ll celebrate it. I’m just gonna enjoy the silence when the neighbours are away. At least I hope they will. Unless I move to the country where they’re miles away. I don’t think loneliness will be a problem. I always find something to do. Of course, I hope there will be someone to celebrate it with but if not, that’s alright too.

I’m not that into Christmas food. First of all, the only thing I ate when I was younger was ham, different fishes, rutabaga casserole and Finnish beetroot salad. The other thing is, I’m too lazy to do any of these foods. Doing all this alone is too much work. Store bought doesn’t taste that good. I’m picky about food and that goes with the Christmas dishes too. Unless it’s chocolate. Then it’s more than welcome. No matter what I age I become, that will never change.