I don’t see dead people


This is not a Halloween post. I don’t like Halloween. You must be ghoulish if you do. Finland doesn’t have Halloween. We got All Saint’s Day. We remember the loved ones who have passed away. We don’t do trick or treating. That has nothing to do with death. It’s not about scaring people either. Death shouldn’t be scary. What should be scary is seeing real dead people. I can’t look at dead bodies.

When my mother’s mother died, there was a photo of her dead body. I just couldn’t look at it. I found it creepy. When my mother died, I didn’t want to see her body. I didn’t want to remember her like that. Seeing your loved ones dead corpse is different from seeing one on the news. I rather not look at those either but I don’t freak out. Dead bodies on movies and in TV shows doesn’t bother me that much since I know it’s all fake. I still don’t watch anything with zombies or other unnatural things. It’s all make-up but it’s really impressively done. It’s too disgusting for my taste. I still can’t watch the whole “Thriller’ music video by Michael Jackson. I always look away when that zombie part comes.

I don’t see dead people and if I did, I would totally freak out. Apparently, there are people who actually can. I do believe there are ghosts but they’re not evil like you see in some movies. They don’t want to scare you. It would be nice if you could come back as a ghost and scare the people who have done you wrong. When I die I hope I can become one so I can haunt people for fun. Sometimes it feels like someone is watching over me since I haven’t been a terrible accident. It’s not a ghost, it’s more like a guardian angel. When I was younger I thought it could be my sister from beyond. Now it could be anyone. I think there is some kind of higher power that looks over us. It can be a ghost or a guardian angel. But like life is, you live and you die. Nothing lasts forever on earth but after death, it will.




Remember, remember the 5th of November


It’s a quote from the movie ‘V for Vendetta’ but it’s also the date of today. It’s not only that but it’s also All Saint’s Day and in other places Guy Fawkes Night. Those are totally different though. Here we remember people who have passed away. People go the cemetery to put candles on the graves. We usually do it at Christmas so we don’t do it now. There’s only been death in our family it seems. We don’t have much contact with other relatives anymore. They can be a pain sometimes so I don’t really care either. Why keep in touch with people who doesn’t bother keep in touch with us? We’re better off and it’s not a hyperbole.

Christmases are not the same anymore because there’s only me and my dad left. We always spent the holidays with our closest family members. I had a great childhood. I never knew my grandfathers since they passed away when my parents were young. I had a close bond with both of my grandmothers. They were always there when you needed them. I can’t understand why some people doesn’t have any contact with their grandparents. You can teach your kids to respect elders and you also get great memories. I’ll cherish every moment I had with them. Nothing lasts forever but memories will never die.

On this All Saint’s Day, I light a candle for my sister, my mother and grandmothers. Family has always been very important to me. They’re the ones who you feel most secure with. You can have a family of your own but they’re not the people your birth family was. There will never be another person like them. If I was born again, I wouldn’t change a thing when it comes to family. I wished they could have stayed a little longer on this earth but those are things you can’t control.

Remembering family members on the 5th of November.

Nina (sister) 1983
Suoma (Father’s mother) 1989
Anne (Mother’s mother) 2003
Ann-Marie (my mother) 2013