Nothing unexpected ever happens

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This is another boring post. Nothing unexpected ever happens anyway. The only thing that has happened is that this blog now has over 800 likes. Small yay. Sometimes I wonder if I’m a weirdos magnet. I don’t mean this blog. It’s more about social media. I don’t know if I bother to use it as much anymore. I rarely get any reactions to my tweets. It depends on the subject, though. I never get decent followers. Maybe I’m being chased by bots. I’m not even sure my followers on Twitter are real people. The same with Instagram. Some of them are real people. But they’re just there. Using social media as a hobby isn’t a big deal. I have no luck in the business one either.

I don’t know why I write this blog post. I have nothing to say. I could have only let it be. I’m so boring, and no one truly cares. No one is maybe a tad extreme, though. Sometimes only writing to myself isn’t enough. Why bother to do anything? Everything is so boring. They were boring long before covid. Nothing unexpected happens to me anyway. If my life was a TV series, it would the most boring ever. I’m so untalented too. My work never gets mentioned on someone’s Instagram. It makes me feel down every time this place (Helsinki Design School) shows their current students work on their account. My assignment wasn’t that good, and I still blow at it. I will never become a graphic designer—any designer for that matter. Many of my former schoolmates have probably moved on, and who knows what kind of great achievements they already have. I’m mostly disappointed in myself for being such a lazy person. I can only blame myself for not being brave enough. I also have awful ideas. Or no ideas at all, so I don’t feel like practising it either.

I don’t feel like writing this post anymore. I only want to watch videos on Youtube or something else online. So nothing unexpected ever happens. Well, I don’t want drama anyway.

Boring job interview

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Maybe people find my blog posts about job search boring or uninteresting, but I write them anyway. This is not really about a job search. It’s about job interviews that I only get one every 5 years. I never know what to say in the questions they ask. I wish I had a fast mind, so I could answer questions without having a pause. I want to do a boring job interview that you can’t do in a real interview. These are questions they might ask. The answers are not what I would say in a real interview. Just wanted to repeat that.

Question: Tell me about yourself
Answer: Um, well, I’m human. I breathe, I eat, I sleep, I fart, I hear, I smell. And meh, I’m bored—next question.

Q: Why are you interested in working for this company?
A: I don’t know. I won’t get it anyway. You’re probably already bored with me.

Q: Can you describe your strengths?
A: No, I should think about it for a few weeks. Can I get back to you? 

Q: What are some of your weaknesses?
A: Answering these questions. Only finding my weaknesses.

Q: Where do you see yourself in five years?
A: Alive, hopefully. I don’t even know what I do after this interview.

Q: Why should we hire you?
A: I don’t know. I’m nice. I do my work as good as I can.

Q: What do you consider to be your biggest professional achievement?
A: Have you seen my resume? I don’t even have a career, thanks to employers who don’t want to hire me because I don’t have enough experience.

Q: Why are there gaps in your resume?
A: I’ve studied duh. It’s none your business why the reason is. I haven’t been lazy, that’s for sure.

Q: What are your salary expectations?
A: As long as I don’t become poor. How much do you want to pay me?

Q: What is your greatest achievement?
A: Getting this interview for starters. I’m still alive.

These are tough questions. You never know what they interviewers want to hear. That’s the reason why I fail at job interviews. Not knowing what to say. If the interviews were written down, it could be easier to answer them. But the companies are too busy to find an employee, so they don’t have time for a “slow” person like me. I already fail at cover letters and even finding something to apply to. I would be fortunate if I even got a job interview. I wouldn’t get the job anyway.

Surviving the week

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Another workweek is done. Now I’ve been at the job for a month. Because of the coronavirus, it hasn’t been longer than that. Now it’s about 2 months left of the contract. I’m already counting the days. It’s been surviving the week. If it wasn’t from the nice colleagues I wouldn’t want to be there. There is not much to do. At least not this week. It’s always quiet at the beginning of the week. A lot of events have been cancelled so there isn’t much to report. The job is internal and external communication. One of the tools is WordPress so at least I get to use the block thing. Not having nothing to do is another thing but the worse part is waking up early. It has never been my thing. I also don’t like going to places. There are days I wish I didn’t have to go anywhere. At least not early in the morning. When you have to make up early, you have to go to bed early which is the bad part. Then you get confused when the weekend comes. Last Saturday I woke up and saw the time being over 7 am so I thought I’ll be late for work. But then realised it’s the weekend and went back to bed. Then on Sunday, you have to go to bed early so the weekend feels really short. Sometimes I wonder if this job really is worth it. At least you get paid something. I also get job experience even though it’s not in the field I want to be in. It hasn’t really been what I wrote about the job.

Days shouldn’t be trying surviving the week at work. Many people stay in their jobs for years which I don’t want to. I want to move on from things I don’t feel motivated to do. Is your life really worth it if you stay at something that bores you? Unfortunately, some people don’t have a choice and they have to be in a job if they like it or not. They don’t have a safety net and get help to their money troubles. I’m glad I don’t live in the States, for example. I would probably be homeless or something. You shouldn’t settle to your destiny. People who have worked where I am now haven’t found a job so they come back. That’s something I want to avoid. I don’t know if I even want to work for someone because then you have to go by their schedule. Working from home has entered my mind. I just hate hurrying. When I was studying web design and we had on the job learning. I could choose my own schedule and the freedom of not having to go anywhere was much more fun. Now it just feels forced and routined. It just isn’t for me. Now I will get through the months that are left of the contract and then we’ll see what will happen after that. At least we get free coffee and something sweet or salty to eat on Fridays at work. The best part is though the people you meet and the great people you work with. Without the atmosphere there, the surviving the week would be much harder to handle.