Calm down, it’s my birthday

birthday cake
My birthday cake I made myself in 2018.

Today it’s my birthday 🥳 49 of them.

Next year it’s going to be 50. Yikes. So from now on, I’m 38 years old until I die, OK?

It’s not that I’m afraid that I’m getting older. It’s what others see when you’re 50. You’re too old for a lot of things. Some see you as a failure because you don’t have a life they have. You know a job, a family, and those things.

But I don’t care. I just dodged a bullet. Not everyone wants a life like everyone else. You don’t need to ask anyone for permission, and you save money, too.

Birthdays haven’t been important for years, and they get less important. I have no one to celebrate it with, either. I never liked parties anyway. And I hate alcohol and people who drink too much. I don’t care about presents either. I have too much stuff anyway.

I already got a present.

So calm down, it’s my birthday. It’s just one step closer to death, as I put it.

The opposite of rambunctious

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I’ve always been the opposite of rambunctious. As a child, I was calm, and it hasn’t changed. I had a second cousin who was rambunctious as a child. Once, we visited the family, and I didn’t want to go there again because of him. I was a child myself then too. The boy was younger than me. When my late mother was worried, I took it easy. Rambunctious people stress me out. Certain people raise their voices to say something. I only raise my voice when I’m upset. My temper is not to be messed up with. I also calm down quickly. Why stay mad for a longer time than necessary. If you do things calmly, you get them done better.

Someone needs to be calm. If everyone was rambunctious, there would be even more chaos in the world. To be peaceful is only an advantage. Maybe sometimes I’m a little too cautious, and it has stopped me from doing things. Whatever happens in life, I will always be the opposite of rambunctious.

Thunderous before the calm

dark clouds on the sky
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Thunderous before the calm

Feeling thunderous inside and you want to scream
But you don't want to make people wonder
Thunderous before the calm
You try not to say it out loud
Keep it inside and hope the feeling goes away
So many things can make you mad
Thunderous before the calm

You can write down your thunderous feels
It's better than keep it all inside
Thunderous before the calm
Some things are just there
Be calm and let the thunderous go by