Bloganuary: Last time I left my comfort zone

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Day 3. As an introvert, the comfort zone is a familiar concept. Brave and ambitious people might not understand how difficult it is for a person to do something they’re not used to. It won’t help if you say what could happen because that won’t help. It takes time to get out of your comfort zone. You might be nervous or anxious. You rather not do it because you don’t like that feeling.

The first time I got out of my comfort zone was when I was 17. I moved to another town to study health care. It was an education I didn’t want to study. But my mother said I had to start somewhere, and she was right. It was right after school, and if I hadn’t got anything, who knows how my life would have been. The first week was awful. Everything was new, and I didn’t know anyone. It was a small town, and there was nothing to do. I was very homesick, so I called my mother and cried on the phone. But when I got to know my classmates and my roommate, I felt much better. The education was only one year which was all I could have taken.

As I got older, I have had been braver to step out of my comfort zone. I still like being there. In life, you need to grow; otherwise, you get nothing done. I’ve never been good at making decisions. I’m very indecisive, so it takes ages to get things done. Even if I know what I want to do, the comfort zone keeps holding me back. I’ve been thinking about entrepreneurship for a few years now, but I don’t get anything done. Instead, I’ve been lazy and tried to do something else besides looking for something to do. It will probably continue the same this year. I always tell myself I will start something at the beginning of the year, but I keep putting it off. I tried to search for a job, but I haven’t found anything to apply to. The last time I had a job was in 2020, and even that was only part-time.

The last time I left my comfort zone was last year when I got my driver’s licence and went to a carwash. When I was a child, I was scared of them. I never wanted to be in the car, so I waited outside. It was the big brushes I was afraid of. Now when I went, it didn’t go very well. I didn’t know how to drive inside the car wash. Luckily there was a man helping me. I had to reverse the car and drive back in again. It was a bit embarrassing, but it was the first I drove the car myself. It was my dad’s car, so I wasn’t familiar with it at that point. I wouldn’t want to use a car wash that often, but fortunately, you only need to do that once a year. Every time I drive in traffic, it’s always outside my comfort zone. I went to driving school 26 years ago, but I didn’t finish it. Now I know why. I didn’t like driving, among others. I feel nervous, and I don’t trust other drivers. I haven’t driven the car alone yet. My dad has been with me. I don’t drive the car very often anyway because you can go by bike or walk to get to places in my city.

This summer, I’m going to leave my comfort zone to go to two concerts. I first went to a real concert in 2018 when Robbie Williams was here. I had never been to a show before because I didn’t like big crowds. I’ve only been to free concerts where more than one performer has been there. I guess I got the ‘bug’ from that first concert because I didn’t hesitate to go to the next ones. I only hope they won’t be postponed because of covid. The Elton John one was moved because of that. When you can’t wait to get out of your comfort zone, that means you’re ready to do it more often. But it’s always nice to go back.

Here comes March and I haven’t accomplished a thing

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Here we are, in March and I haven’t accomplished a thing. The only thing I’ve done is school assignments and that interview for the internship. I thought I would have started things in January but I haven’t. I don’t know where my life is going. A stand-still is not an option. Sure it’s still a lot of 2019 left but it feels like I’m missing something. I’m a slow starter but the world seem to be in a hurry. I’m not expecting my life to be excited but it shouldn’t go around in circles either. Other people seem to have this fabulous life with great experiences but I’m like, wonder what time I’m gonna wake up tomorrow. 12 am or 2 pm? Soon I’m too stuck in my ways that I don’t even bother to do anything. It’s not like my life is boring. I do go to places like the movies. Next Thursday I’m gonna see Captain Marvel, for example. I shouldn’t compare my life with others. I just envy people who actually do things to make their dreams come true. I wish I could be braver and less lazy.

There are people who’ve done the impossible. Something someone said to them they couldn’t do. For me, it’s too hard to start anything. I’m not confident enough to do anything drastic. I’m only complaining about how boring my life is when I could actually do something about it. Maybe I should have someone who pushes me out of the door, so to speak. I never do what I plan. The motivation quotes you find on the internet doesn’t help. I agree with them but then I’m just, meh won’t be bothered. Which is totally the wrong attitude. What can you do when you’re afraid of the unknown. It’s difficult to get out of your comfort zone. You know you should get out of it once in a while but something stops you. Maybe it’s the warm and comfortable feeling in your zone. But then again why do you have to leave it? You should do things that make you most comfortable. At least I get out of my flat and that’s an accomplishment itself. I don’t always walk the same street. I go on adventures on my bike in the summer. I can do thing by myself and that’s something some people can’t do. I even travel to Helsinki by myself. So you can’t blame me for staying in my comfort zone. You don’t need to do big things to feel you achieved something.

Even if it is March already, there is still time. You can start a new chapter of your life in January or you can do it in June. It’s more important that you do at least something. Maybe someone wants to be something special in their life. We can’t all have a luxurious life you can brag about on social media. Most of us don’t even want that kind of life. And I don’t mean becoming a celebrity because that’s a totally different world. There is nothing wrong about being ordinary. Do things you like to do and not what people expect you to. I have a goal to achieve and that is getting past the graphic design education I’m on. Not having accomplished a thing this year is not entirely true. I have got through my school assignments with good grades. I’ve also written this blog even if I do other things too. If that isn’t an achievement, I don’t know what it.