It seems I’ve only been a graduate and nothing much else. I haven’t got a job even if I studied a lot of things. I see patterns here. Maybe I’m just meant to be a graduate. I’m not getting any younger and soon no one definitely doesn’t want to hire me. The last time I was a graduate was two years ago in web design. It’s really sad people only recognize you if you have job experience. I have at least done something. Maybe people think I’m just lazy and useless. I don’t feel that myself. I studied because I want to learn new things and because finding a job in this country is impossible if you’re an introvert. You’re not appreciated either if you haven’t been to a certain school. If it’s not an official qualification that has been approved by the Finnish National Agency for education, it’s not a real education. It shouldn’t matter because it’s what you can do that count. Especially if it’s a creative occupation.
There is a lot of bias against certain schools and one of them is Helsinki Design School. Next time I graduate is in June which is soon. Just because it’s not an official qualifying, employers don’t appreciate it at all. I don’t think it won’t change this time either. I studied photography there in 2014-2015. One of my fellow students went to a job interview once and was laughed off. Some attitude from that employer. It’s a private school which isn’t very common in Finland. It’s still an education where you learn things. People in Finland probably think creative jobs are science fiction where you need to be a professor to succeed. But it’s actually not that hard. It’s a real shame you’re not given a chance to prove yourself if you’re not highly educated. If someone has the time and money to get a master’s degree (or whatever), then let them but I don’t want to learn the same things several times. I already studied a 2-year qualification and educations longer than that are too long.
I’m not made for a job that doesn’t require creative thinking. I’ve tried office jobs but they bore me to tears. My aim has always been on the creative side. When I read about people suggesting to other people to find a new occupation I scream inside. I haven’t even started the current one. Some people can stay at their current jobs as long as they wish but I will rather be without one. At least I can be myself and not having to be in a workplace where you don’t even fit in. A lot of people have jobs they don’t like but need to stay to earn money. They don’t have time to study new things because life gets in the way. I might have been in many graduations but I also not stuck in my ways. Studying in general is good for your mind. When you graduate from something you feel you’ve achieved something. That’s the biggest award you can ever get.
Creativity is not only about how artistic you are. Everyone can be creative at some level. Some people are good at drawing. Some have the ability to play an instrument and write good songs. But also people who are good with kids and they know how to teach them. Release the creative beast even if you don’t think you are. There’s no such thing as being bored. You can always do things. It’s only the laziness that gets in the way. You don’t need to be a pro to be creative. It’s also about everyday life.
I’m creative most in the evening and sometimes at night. It depends on what mood I’m in. Sometimes I’m not creative at all and it feels empty. Creativity is my way of expressing myself. Writing fiction is one. I usually create ideas and plots in my head. Sometimes it becomes a story and sometimes I make up something new. I also read other people’s stories to find inspiration. When I can’t find a story I’m looking for, I write my own. I don’t expect others to read them when I post them online. Of course, it’s always nice to see likes and comments but I write to myself. I have to get ideas out of my head one way or another. Since I write in English, it’s also good practice. Writing is just a hobby so I’m not planning to make a money out of it.
I like to do different things so I don’t stick to one subject only. One day I write and the next I might play with Adobe programs on the laptop. Pinterest is a great place to find inspiration. Also, Instagram (@liuzzia5) got good ideas when it comes to photography. I wish my tablet would have a better camera so I could post on my account more often. I can post photos I’ve posted online but that takes time so I don’t want to bother. I also don’t like the touch the screen thing on the tablet.
My style of creativity is doing things on the computer. I can’t draw very well to save my life but with a mouse, it’s easier. I can doodle something but I’ll never become an artist. I leave that to the real masters.
Some are good in Math. Some are good at singing. Some can write music. Some can drive a Formula 1 car. Some are good at sports. But I’m good at creative things. Being creative doesn’t only mean drawing or painting very well. I can’t do any of those. You can be creative in a lot of things.
On Discover the subject is, why do you create? I could concentrate on why I write or why I photograph but since I can do more than just that, I’ll mix them up. Writing and photography do go hand in hand when it comes to blogging. Those are not the reasons why I do it. I’m only not writing a blog but I also write fan fiction. Will come to that later. Writing is my way of expressive myself and also write down things I think about. It’s easier to write than talk. If you talk to a person there might be things you forget to say but when you write, you have time to think. That’s one the reasons why I write. Other reason is that it’s fun. You get creative when you think about different things. It starts with a thought and when you write it down it comes reality. Writing has taught me about story telling. There’s a start, a middle and an ending. I’ve also studied journalism and screen play writing which has also helped me. I’ve written since I was 7 years old. I used to have diaries where I wrote about my thoughts and what I’ve been through. Even about crushes I had. It’s kind of funny to read them now.
I’ve been writing fan fiction for years in English. Sometimes I also read them. It’s a great way to learn the language. I mostly write RPF (real person fiction) but I’ve tried a couple of other genres to. I write them because it’s fun and you learn how to write fiction. I only do it as a hobby. I don’t want to become an author. I’ve got so many ideas in my head so have to write them down. Like in blogging, it’s a way to express myself and get thoughts written down. Some read books, some write them. I read fan fiction and I write them. If I wouldn’t write down my imagination, I would go mad.
I mostly read RPF because that’s what I write. I’m not a fan of slash fiction because it’s just weird to read them.
Sometimes I post my fics online if I think they’re good enough. Sometimes I just write for myself. Don’t ask me where I get my inspiration from because that’s a bit private. I can tell you it’s about the person I’m writing about. Enough said. If someone doesn’t know who the person I’m writing about is, begins to get interest in them after reading my fics, then I’ve done something right. It has happened to me recently. I’ve read some fan fiction about an actor I have never paid that much attention to before. But now I see them in a totally different light after reading those. And the fics are made up and has nothing to do with the real person. Which can be a bit strange since it’s not really them.
Photography used to be something I did when I was on vacation or on events. It was never my hobby. I only started it as a hobby in later years. The first photo I took was when I was 6 years old. We were on holiday in Europe after my sister passed away. The 2 photos I took were taken in Switzerland or maybe it was Austria. It was a film camera so one of them was a bit blurry.
In 1990 I got my first own film camera. One of the first photos I took was only test photos but later I took it with me on holidays. Then it broke so the only camera I had was a video camera (which I also know how to use). The quality wasn’t the best. I became more interested in photography in 2001. I even went to school to study it but I quit because it wasn’t as I expected it to be. One of the teacher’s was old-school and refused to have anything to do with digital photography. Film was the one and only for him. That was one of the reason why I didn’t think photography was my thing after all. I wanted to become pro but this school just spoiled it all.
I only took up photography as a hobby in 2007 and 2008 I bought a DSLR because that’s what was recommended to me. People have also liked my photography but if the photo are professional enough, it’s a different matter. I don’t only want to take photos to my blog but also more professional one’s. I don’t know if I want to become a pro anymore because then you should photograph all the time. But something with photography would be nice.
When I haven’t photographed in ages, I can feel it in my bones. If I don’t have a camera then I use my tablet even if the quality in that isn’t the best. I would never had thought photography would be so important to me. Digital photography really has opened a lot of opportunities. Without that I would probably not be as eager as I am now. It gives you freedom to move around and make other people happy with your photos. So even if I don’t get paid to do it, photography will always be my main priority.
I always wanted to have a creative job so I’ve had problems finding my niche. Maybe I’m too picky but other kind of jobs bore me. I couldn’t do non-creative things for very long. I’ve studied graphic design but I can’t draw and I’m not very good at planning things either. I’m a creative person but not as creative as I liked. If I was, I would probably have a job by now. Creativity is not about getting your bills paid, it’s about the feeling you get when you create something. So I create because I can.