If I could turn back time

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Some things you can’t control. Like a death in the family. No one should go through that. Especially if you’re still a child. A childhood should be happy without sorrow. Mine was happy until that day when my sister died. I was only 6 years old and death is something you don’t think about. I don’t remember much about it. In a way it was good I was so young. I didn’t have to go through the same thing as my parents. All those hospital visits and coping with the illness. I don’t really know what she had but it was something to do with her immune system. It was rare at the time. Her death did affect my life in many ways.

I’ve thought a lot of times how my life would have been if she wouldn’t have gotten sick. We were quite close. I don’t think our relationship would have changed much. She would have been my rock. If I had problems I could talk to her. She would be a great comfort. Especially now when mother have passed away. If I had lived my life with my sister in it, I would probably be more outgoing and have more confidence.

If I could turn back time and live my childhood all over again, I would wish my sister would be healthy and see adulthood. The holidays would be much better if she would still be around.
I don’t know how it is to have siblings nor being the only child. I’ve experienced both. When I hear or read how people complain about having a sibling, I just think “at least they have someone” They can be a pain but that’s a small prize to pay. Living alone without one is not that much fun either.

Losing a sister at a young age has helped me understand other people who have lost a loved one. I don’t see death as a scary thing. I don’t even cry at the movies because it’s all fake anyway. For some death is something they don’t want to think about. They don’t know how to take other people’s sorrow. Only people who have gone through the same thing can understand.

It’s not only what you go through in your childhood that molds you. It’s what you experience through life. If I hadn’t gone through what I have been through I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I am what I am and nobody can tell me to be something I’m not. That’s something everybody should remember.

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Screw Halloween, It’s All Saints Day to you.

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Halloween? No thank you.

It’s that day again, Halloween. What is it anyway?! In Finland it’s All Saints Day, a day you remember those who are no longer with us. It’s not a day where you dress up in silly costumes and act like idiots. It’s only in recent years Halloween has been celebrated over here. Not the same way like in America though. Thank God for that. But it wouldn’t be surprising if the same custom would get here as well. I really hope it doesn’t. We already have Easter where kids dress up and that should be enough.

It’s just another reason for companies to make money. The real reason has been forgotten. Now it’s only worship for witches, ghosts, skeletons and other dark side things. Dressing up kids and making them go and beg for candy. Trick or Treating is another word for it. If parents wants their kids to become overweight and have bad teeth, just go a head. It’s just a shame kids won’t be taught the real reason behind Halloween. People are forced to buy candy so those greedy parents can teach their kids bad manners. Just the word Halloween makes me ill. All Saints Day is a much better word for it.

Here we go to the cemetery and put candles on the graves. Some go to church. It’s a religious celebration where Saints are remembered and people who has passed away. Death shouldn’t be a scary thing. That seems to be the point with Halloween. Death is bad and it shouldn’t be taken lightly. When it’s on the contrary.

So I’m not wishing you a Happy Halloween. I’m wishing you a Happy All Saints Day.

 

*Remembering my sister, my mother and grandparents.