Living without a sidekick

I’ve never had a “sidekick” I’ve had friends but it always ended in tears. Not actual tears. I’m too strong for that. They only pretended to be friends. The only real friend I’ve had moved to another city after 1st grade. We went to the same preschool. She could have been my sidekick. I was so upset she left so when she called me, I didn’t want to talk to her. Maybe we wouldn’t have kept in touch anyway.

In Elementary school I had a friend who I spent time with after school. But she always wanted me to take money to school so we could buy candy. At the time I didn’t realise that she was just using me. She also talked behind my back to another school mate. Our class was quite close so I did have other friends. But no sidekick there either.

When I had to repeat 4th grade, I lost touch with my old class but I got new friends. Or so I thought. In 6th grade everything changed for some reason. I become an outcast. No one wanted to be my friend. Group assignments were the worst. I hated them. At the same time school become more reluctant. I learned, I better be off without friends. They just deceive you anyway.

But I did get new friends when I got to Secondary school. The class was much smaller and my class mates were much nicer. There was boy I became friends with but I wouldn’t call him a sidekick.

Having friends and having a sidekick is different things. I’ve never had the latter and I don’t think I’ll ever find someone like that anyway. I’m used to being a loner. It might sound sad to some people but I’m no people person anyway. You could say, I’m my own sidekick. I don’t need a sidekick to feel better about myself. So far I haven’t needed one either. I’m not Sherlock or Batman after all.

You “smelly cat”

This is my biggest pet peeve, SMOKING.

Smoking is the most disgusting habit there is. You can’t go anywhere in peace without meeting these stick sucking addicts. You can’t even sit on your own balcony when they come out to pollute the air. Worst are hot summers when you want to sit outside. They don’t even seem to know what the smell is like. But how could they, they’ve become immune to it. They think they have the right to smoke where ever they go. They’re the most selfish people on this earth. Because of them, non-smokers have to live on their terms. Then smokers dare to complain that it’s the non-smokers that complain about smoking. Excuse me but it’s not our fault that you’re stupid enough to start smoking in the first place.
Smokers complain why they can’t smoke where they want. They think they’re being unfairly treated in their own country. But what to expect from nicotine addicts anyway. All they care about is where to get their next fix. It’s a drug but the effect is milder. Then they throw their butts everywhere. They don’t seem to know or care how much poison a cigarette has. Nice to take a walk in the park (or forest) and see these butts on the ground. Disgusting.

The worst smokers are parents. It’s seems smoking are more important than their kids health. If you’re having kids, smoking should be stopped for good. It won’t help if you keep that stick away from the kids. They will still be affected. When I see parents smoking in front of they’re kids, I feel sorry for them. They will become addicted the same way their parents have. Not to mention having health problems. Being a passive smoker is more unhealthy than smoking.

I’ve heard and read many excuses why not quit the habit. One say, it’s socializing. Other say it’s fun. The 3rd say, they’re too old to quit. Then there are those that are afraid there gonna get addicted to something else. Any excuse so they don’t have to do anything about it. It’s just laziness. There is help so why not seek it. I’ve known people who have stopped smoking and they have said, they had felt much better. If they have started again, that I don’t know. Some won’t stop no matter how sick they are.
There are people who doesn’t want to stop smoking. They’re too addicted. They rather suffer from illness than live a smoke free life. They have no respect for life whatsoever. If that’s not selfish, I don’t know what is. If they don’t care about their own health, why would they care for others.

There’s so many good things being a non-smoker. You save money. You’re teeth doesn’t become yellow. You smell better. You don’t have to go out when it’s cold or raining. You can taste food better. You’re healthy. You’re clothes doesn’t smell. You’re not chained to an addiction. You’re free. There’s a lot of good things.

If you really need a bad habit why not try something that doesn’t smell bad. How about something healthy for a change? Maybe start a hobby. Or maybe you do want cancer or any other illness. Maybe that’s fun to have. We all gonna die but I rather live a healthy life then a life with a smoke in my mouth. Quitting something is never easy but what is.

You only live once and I want to make the most of it without having to suffer from other people’s bad-smelling habits. If you want to quit, don’t be a quitter.

God, the serial killer that never gets caught (part 3)

Writing 101 has ended ages ago. But this was very difficult to write so that’s the reason I haven’t written this earlier. Since I didn’t finish this 3 part story, I decided to mix it with this weekly writing challenge. It’s was the saddest time of my life. This is quite a long post!


Last but not least, the sorrow continues. When my sister died, I don’t remember much about it. And my grandmothers were old so it was no surprise they passed away. Everybody dies one day. Losing a parent is always different. Those are the people who are most close to you.

Read More »