Passed the test

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I started in February, and now in July, I passed the driving test. I didn’t leave it halfway as I did about 26 years ago. The actual learning starts now. I had a lot of problems with the gears. In the driving test, the test person (or whatever they’re called) said I had used gear one on the motorway. I didn’t notice. I thought it was the 3rd gear. I didn’t have problems with them the last time I went to driving school. The parking wasn’t easy either. I am surprised I passed. It didn’t feel I deserved it. I felt numb, actually. The main thing was to get a drivers license, and I did. Now I have to learn how to drive my dad’s car. At least I know how the windows work. I opened them by mistake in the driving test, and I didn’t know how to close them—darn buttons. I had only driven the car and never used buttons on the vehicle. The vehicle of the school was newer than my dad’s. It’s more manual. If you want to drive an automatic, then you need to take a course on that separately. That means more expense. I already paid over 1000 euro for this course, so that should be enough.

I will still walk and use a bike. You can’t become lazy because you have a driver’s license. You need to keep in shape somehow. If I want to go somewhere further, then I can take the car. Especially if the weather is hot as it has been for ages now. Cycling is not fun when it’s like that. A car also has air conditioning, so it’s good too. I’m glad I achieved this. I also don’t need to go to driving lessons anymore. I have to learn to drive all by myself. It’s a bit unsettling since I haven’t driven alone before. It does help a bit for having driven a car before. When I had driving lessons, it was the teacher who said which way to go. I want to know where I’m going beforehand. I didn’t stop halfway like I do in most things. I’m really proud of myself for getting that license. I wish I didn’t stop halfway with other things. It usually ends before it even starts. I rather bump into trouble with life things than bumping into something with a car. Then the damage would cause true problems.

Laughter is the best

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Laughter is one of my favourite things. Without that, life would be dull. It’s better than crying, right? Yesterday I wasn’t laughing. I still need to take driving lessons, so the goal to get a driver’s license for my birthday is not gonna happen. Better to practice than going the driving test several times. That’s the bad news. The good one is that I sighed up for a UX/UI design beginners course. It’s not free, so I hope it’s worth it. It’s about designing layouts of website, mobile and that kind of things. There are assignments, videos and a mentor who gives you feedback. It happens online, so I don’t need to go anywhere. If it’s too hard, laughter won’t happen. I hope I learn something.

Laughter is the best. I keep watching the same comedies shows over and over again. They never get old. I don’t know how many times I watched, e.g. Friends or Frasier. A shame you can’t watch full episodes online. There are some, but that’s like searching for a needle in a haystack. You can’t buy every DVD out there, or there would be nothing else to do. On Youtube, there are short clips, so that’s better than nothing. Laughter doesn’t only mean made up comedies. It can also be in daily life where someone says something funny, and people laugh at that. Laughing makes you feel better too. If you had a bad day or you feel sad, then laughter is a good cure. The best is when you can’t stop laughing at something, and you feel you’re about to burst. I don’t know if you can die laughing, but that’s how it feels like.

Laughter brings joy to others. The best laugh is kids laughter. When I was a kid, I laughed a lot. But after my sister died in 1983, the laughter disappeared. My mother used to say I was much happier when I was younger. When you experience something sad at a very young age, laughing and smiling isn’t on the agenda. Bad experiences change a person. But laughter saves you from getting sadder. You can’t live in the past and think you can’t laugh again. Watching something that makes you laugh or whatever you do to fill your life with laughter. You don’t even need to feel down. Laughter is good for any mood. I don’t know about you, but I’m gonna head for Youtube and find something to laugh at. Until to the next laughter.

Blow my dreams away

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Blow my dreams away

I give up my big dreams

What is the point working for it

Blow my dreams away, you’re good at that

I’m tired of trying, it’s all in vain

Maybe it works for some, but not for me

I don’t have what it takes

Blow my dreams away

I tried many times, but nothing works

I will only think about small dreams

Blow my dreams of finding work

I never get what I want in life, so I won’t bother

“You will find something too” won’t help the cause

The only dream you won’t blow away is the driver’s license I know I get