It’s you, not me

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Some might think I suffer from some kind of encephalopathy. But it’s you and not me. My brain works just fine. I’m not the one who leaves things lying around in the street. I don’t litter in nature either. So who has something wrong with their minds? Sometimes you would think some piece is missing from their brains. How difficult is it to put trash in a bin? Especially now when people need to wear a mask. Some people don’t care and throw them everywhere. It’s disgusting to see those things on the street. The same goes for cigarette stubs. Even if the bin is near, they throw them on the ground. Littering in the first place is so uncivilised. What are people, animals? Even animals are cleaner than humans. It’s a disgrace. Adults teach kids to live around trash. No wonder oceans and seas are full of all kind of crap. Kids are our future, they say. I have no hope in them if they act the way they do now. It won’t help if only some youngsters care about the environment. We all should do something about it, or the future world will become a big trash can.

I like learning new things, but sometimes it can be something you didn’t expect. Yesterday, I had a driving lesson with a real car. It was quite difficult to drive it because it’s a new model. The handbrake is only a switch, and there is no key to start it. That’s only a button. To make the car move, you should lift the clutch up slowly. If you do it too fast, the car moves faster too. The same with the break. If you push it too hard, it jerks. When you have to use the clutch so much, your left leg gets tired. The whole lesson went to learn about the car and how to use the clutch. I drove around the block in a quiet street. There wasn’t any time to drive longer than that. I’m worried I might crash because the car wasn’t the same as I have driven before. I let the teacher drive back to the driving school. So I have to take at least 4 hours more of lessons because I won’t get past the test with only one drive. It’s a bit weird to learn to drive a newer car when you have a totally different one. Driving any car isn’t as easy as it looks. You need to know the gear by heart because you need to see where you are going. It’s not easy to see from your driving seat to the other side. Especially when you’re not experienced enough. When you’re driving, there is so much to do and see. I don’t know how someone can look on their mobile when they drive. It’s really dangerous to do so anyway.

At least I use my brain. Unlike certain others. You would think employers have a brain shortage of some kind because finding a job is like trying to make sense of something that is obvious to you but not to them. Having educations and good health doesn’t mean you will get hired. I’ve applied for a job, but I won’t get it because I don’t have experience. I don’t want it now anyway. It’s useless to use your brain cells to search for a job. It makes me go round a twist. Not as much as littering and people who don’t care about anything but themselves, though. They should have their brain checked. Maybe you can find some kind of encephalopathy in them. At least it’s not me; it’s you.

Have a little patience, yeah

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First, some good news. I passed the driving theory test yesterday. After Easter, I’ll get in touch with the teacher to schedule the driving lessons. There are 4 hours of it, and one part is in a simulator. I haven’t driven a car in 26 years, so I think I start with that one. I’m a bit nervous about that because I’ve never been in one. Maybe driving a real car can be the same. When those are done. Then the only one left is the driving test. I hope I’ll pass that the first try, but I doubt it. If I’m lucky, I will have a drivers license before my birthday in June. What a great birthday present that would be. If you have a little patience, things will follow. I wish I had it in other things too. Patience that is.

Since I was a child, I’ve been a bit impatient. It’s not. Get me things at this right moment. It’s more about giving up too easily. I wasn’t the best student in school. I had issues with certain subjects. Math was one of them. I had tutoring lessons in it. If you’re not good at something, you don’t like doing it. They say you can learn to become better at Math, but I’m not that excited to learn. You must like it to have enough motivation. I rather learn something else instead. As long as you know the basics and understand the value of money, you don’t need to learn all these Y plus X things. Unless you want to become a scientist or something like that. I never understood why you should learn other than how to count this plus this. The same with calculating things in your head. That’s what calculators are for. Math is like coding; I hate both of them. I make many mistakes, and then I just want to give up because things are too difficult.

I don’t know why I bother, but I’ve yet again applied for education. This time for an education called Code Academy. They teach you, that’s right, coding. I probably won’t get in. It’s a recruitment training program. There is a job-learning part where you can work for a company, either a workplace they find or a place the student can find. Only if someone wants the student to work for them, then you get chosen for the education. The problem with education is that you get your hopes up and search for information about the occupation. Then you won’t get chosen anyway. Even if you do get in, you still won’t find a job. So what is the point with educating yourself, besides learning something new? You get no job experience in your field no matter how much you study. It’s silly to start a new career when you haven’t even got anything from your current one. I want to do so many things, and most of them are connected somehow. I always studied creative things, so changing the path to another direction is needless. If it’s neither writing a job application or applying to a school, I’m never good at explaining in words about me and why I want things. I won’t expect too much about this education I applied to. The same with the job application for an IT support person. I don’t know enough of the technical stuff when it comes to computers. I’m not a a novice, but I’m no expert either. In coding things are different. I have studied it and used it too, but it doesn’t mean they will pick me for the education.

I don’t make goals at a certain time. For example, with the driving school. I can only hope I get the license before summer, but I won’t promise the exact date. It depends on so many things. I don’t know when I will get a driving lesson. The teacher said when she called last week that their schedule will become busy after two weeks. Then there is the driving test. The driving school is far from over. I have enough patience to get the licence in my own time. At least I’m closer to achieve it.

Soon I can drive your car

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You read it right. I am now going to driving school. I didn’t need to start all over, though. I only need to go to the risk recognition training program. It’s online. Then I need to take the theory test. When I pass that, it’s driving in a simulator and then with a real car. Then it’s only the driving test left. Soon I can drive your car. Sounds easy but it’s not really. I have to pass the tests too and I don’t know if I do them on the first try. 26 years ago I had to take the theory test at least 10 times, and the driver’s test 3 times. It was different then. It was all done on paper and the driving lessons were only with a real car. We also had a book to read. The driving school was also in two parts. Now it’s only one. You had to sit on a bench (a chair more like it) in a class and listen to the teacher. Now you can study in your own time. There are 4 hours of theory, 2 hours of driving in a simulator and 2 hours with a real car. I’ve now done 3 theory lessons. Before driving, I need to pass the theory test. Fortunately, you can test your knowledge online before going to the real test. I’ve tested it once and I got 66% right. That’s far from passing a test. In multiple-choice questions, you need 11/15, the picture questions 43/50 and risk recognition 4/5. The driving test is not as nerve-wracking as the theory test, because I’ve done it before so I know what to expect.

There is a lot of driver’s who thinks they own every road. They break rules and they think they’re racing drivers. Being someone who has seen the other side of the road, so to speak. The one’s who use public transport, cyclists and pedestrians. I know what kind of driver I don’t want to be. I can see things from their perspective. I’m an ideal driver. I don’t drink, do drugs, I’m not a risk-taker and selfless. I also don’t use my mobile while driving either.

When I get my license, I don’t need to buy a car. I can use my dad’s. He’s not allowed to drive anymore. He’s given me lifts all my life, so now it’s my turn to return the favour.