Been here before

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Some disappointing news first. The Elton John concert was supposed to be this year in Helsinki, but now it’s been postponed to 2023. No new date yet. This is some kind of déjà-vu. Some years ago, a concert was postponed that I was going to attend. Then there were no new dates added, so I didn’t get my money back because I waited too long. The concert was only 50 euros though. Now it’s happened again. I’m not sure I want to go to see Elton John after all. I’m not that big of a fan. He’s just one of my favourite artists. It’s gonna take ages to the concert, and maybe it won’t happen at all. Then it might be too late to get the money back. No one knows what gonna happen until 2023. You can get very ill and die. Maybe I don’t feel like going at all. The ticket wasn’t that cheap, so it would be a shame if I can’t get the money back. At first, I thought, I won’t go after all, but I’m not sure now. If I decided not to go or something else comes up, I hope I get a refund. It would be nice to see him live, though. It’s his farewell tour, after all.

The UX/UI course ended. Every time I study something, and it ends, it feels like I’ve been on the same page before. I have to start things over again. I never get anywhere, job-wise. What is the point of all of this studying if it never pays off? It only gives me something to do, and learning something new is always nice. It feels I repeat things. If it comes to writing this blog or fan fiction. I try to do things differently, but I get the deja vu feeling. It seems that same feeling comes when I see job suggestions on LinkedIn. I don’t why I get things like teaching jobs. Do my profile show I have any education about that? No, the same with some expert jobs. You can’t even stop those suggestions from coming. I wouldn’t be a very good teacher anyway. Also, the tips people share about how a resume should be like are coming out of my ears. If you have nothing interesting to add, it doesn’t matter how they look like. It’s only repeating the same old things.

I can’t think of anything else to say about deja vu.

I can’t think of anything else to say about deja vu. Oh, there it was again 😀

First post of the year 2021

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Since I started this blog in 2014, I have posted on January 1 and this year is no exception. It’s time for a fresh start in 2021. Or where we left off. There is nothing much to look forward to for me. Except for the Elton John concert in September. Let’s hope so anyway. It was postponed last year because of the covid thing. Which is still going on, by the way. Some people seem to have forgotten. So wash your hands, stay away from crowds, wear a mask and so on. You should know the drill by now.

I never make new years resolutions. I don’t know what’s gonna happen. I usually start doing things in March. In January and February, I only think about what to do but I never seem to get things started. I don’t know about the driver’s license thing. There are times when I think I might need it but then again not. I’m most concerned about passing the tests. I don’t I get passed the first time. The money might go to that the most. That’s what happened over 20 years ago. I also live in a city where places are close by so I don’t really need a licence. If I want to go somewhere I can ask dad for a lift. I don’t go to places where I need a car in the first place. I don’t know if it’s worth paying for. I have gone without a license for this long. I was more thinking about my dad getting older and he doesn’t want to drive long trips. I don’t want to own a car but you can still have a license. I really have to think about it.

I didn’t think about writing about this but there is no harm in saying it. I have written about becoming an entrepreneur many times on this blog. I wouldn’t want to do it full time yet but there is something called light entrepreneurship. I already registered up for one last year. I also have a business Instagram and a Facebook page in the making. But the problem is what kind of services I want to provide. So far I thought about graphic design and photography. I thought about web design too but it’s not what I’ve studied. Sure, I did but the real world web design is too technical for me. I don’t have enough of the material of my work. At least nothing good enough to get clients. There are people who have done it for years and I have only school material to show. It’s just so much work you have to do to become an entrepreneur. The marketing and all that. I don’t know if I want to bother. But then I have to do all the job search things and that’s not easy either. There are monsters in both ways. I wish I didn’t need to do anything. But I don’t want to be one of those who are afraid to work.

We’ll see what 2021 will bring. It’s still early days. So happy new year and that was my first post of the year.

Music makes my heart flutter

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There are a lot of ways to add the word ‘music‘ to sentences. Thank you for the music. Music for my ears. Music makes the people come together. We all have our favourites when it comes to music taste. You don’t need to listen to what others are listening to. It doesn’t matter what age you are. You can still listen to classical music even if you’re a teen. For me, music is a part of life. It’s an escape or it can be something that inspired you. It helps you through your sorrow. It makes your heart flutter with joy. I don’t what I would do without music. It would be very silent for sure.

I’ve written about music on this blog before. Here are a couple. I don’t want to repeat things so you have to read it yourself if you want.

I’ve only been once in a live concert and that was Robbie Williams in 2017. I don’t know how that Elton John concert in September will go so I’m not gonna add that yet. That would be my second. I’ve been to performances but I think they were playbacks. Live music is totally different. It should because if it isn’t live, it’s better to stay home and listen to a record instead. Or places like Spotify. I loved the Robbie Williams concert and I wish I could experience the live concert feeling again. Fingers crossed for the Elton John concert that it won’t be cancelled because of this coronavirus thing.

I always have the radio on or listening to lists I created on Spotify. I have the paid version since last December because I couldn’t stand the ads. I listen to all kinds but pop and rock are the best. I especially love 80’s music. On Spotify, you can find songs you haven’t heard for years. I mostly listen to classics but sometimes I like new songs too. A lot of bands and artists I like are still active. I still buy CD’s so not all music is online. I love singing to tunes I really love. When I’m alone though. There is no place for a live audience. Even if I haven’t listened to a song for years, I still remember the lyrics. The songs still flutter my heart years later. I think I never get tired of them.

You hear the names of new artists and bands but you don’t listen to their music. But I’m not that interested to follow the music industry the way I did when I was a teenager. There are so many older bands and artists to care about so there is no time for anything new. Unless it’s a new song for a movie. Like the new James Bond song sang by Billie Eilish. ‘No time to die‘ A lot of people complained about it before it was even released. Then when they heard it, they got on the bandwagon and saying it’s the best Bond tune ever. I don’t get how people judge music before they even heard it. I don’t usually find new songs I like by new artists but this one I liked it from the start. It really got that Bond feels to it. Her voice suits it very well too.

So music flutters my heart when it’s something I like. If I didn’t have Spotify on my mobile, I would probably only listen at home. Trips without music would be a very boring one. Then you would have to listen to other people chatting about things you don’t want to hear about. Sometimes when I’ve travelled by bus, the internet connection has failed so I couldn’t listen to music but at least my mobile (old and newer) has a radio. Once I forgot the headphones at home so I couldn’t listen to anything and it was hell. The trip felt forever. Music does make time go faster. I can even concentrate better if there is music in the background. It’s talking that disturbs me the most. Hearing neighbours talking or the noise outside, makes me lose focus. Music is better than having to listen to things that make you upset. Music will always be a part of me and that’s how I keep going.