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Things that bother me

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What bothers you and why?

Daily Writing Prompt

First, an older post that the subject still bothers me.

Spray some popularity around me
Originally posted on March 11, 2019

Other things that bother me are that people don’t seem to care much about my latest post about the Bryan Adams concert and the summer of 24. I had to like my own, but I did that only to make myself feel better. OK, I can’t expect people to like every post I make. But sometimes I feel it’s all a waste of time. Spending time writing in a language that isn’t my own. I don’t know if this post will get much attention. It’s alright; at least I can get my thoughts down. People reading or not. July is probably a slow month anyway, so people are outside of everything.

What bothers me the most is employers’ not replying to applications. I sent one over a week ago through email, and still nothing. I guess there is no chance this time either. Using the time and energy of a job search wastes time. They can keep their jobs. I didn’t want to work there anyway. I’m too tired to wake up early. Being unemployed is much better than trying to fit in. I don’t feel like doing anything anymore. I don’t want to do a job that I don’t want to do. I only get offered jobs that aren’t for me. Thinking about job search spoils the mood.

Kudos to those who bother reading this blog post. If you don’t, it’s OK. It won’t bother me. There is more to life than writing and reading blogs. It’s only one part of it. When things bother me, they go away after a while. I think about the good stuff and try to think positively. Things can’t stay bad forever. At least I can have faith in that thought.

Dreams and goals are two different things

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Last subject in the Filmmaking course

How do you plan your goals?

Daily Prompt

As it happens, we talked about dreams and goals on the last day of the filmmaking course. Listening to my classmates’ goals, I felt like a pirate on land. My goals aren’t anything cool. I wish I could be brave and do something about it, but I’m stuck in a moment. If I was younger, I could start all over again. I feel like a loser compared to my classmates. They weren’t interested in me anyway. Maybe I’m a boring person or something. They were friendly to me, but only a ship passed by. Or a pirate ship, arrr. I was sad when they didn’t even ask if I wanted to accompany them after the day. I wouldn’t have gone anyway, but it would have been nice to be asked. They probably wouldn’t even hear me or even care. I won’t see them again, so it’s bygone.

My goal wasn’t to get into the movie business. It was only something I was interested in. Education is never wrong. Getting into a film school is too complicated. I don’t want to study for several years. Maybe the diploma is not a big deal for others, but I’m glad I went. Dreams and goals are two different things. I don’t plan goals too far ahead because my mind is indecisive. Big goals have never come true, so I have small goals. It won’t dream big either for the same reasons. This filmmaking diploma is a completed goal. I finished all the assignments on time, and I took part in every school day. Here’s another feather in my pirate hat.

Diploma

My next goal begins in October when I start an education about digital marketing. I hope to find something else to do too, but that’s uncertain. I don’t feel optimistic about getting a job. Even internships are hard to find. No one is looking for one, it seems. My goals and dreams are dashed once again. But you manage somehow because you’ll be wasting your life if you give up. If people gave up their dreams and goals, many things wouldn’t happen. You need to keep the faith.