An abandon plan opens a new one

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When you’re young you think you need to make final decisions about your future and stick with it. But in life, you never know. Sometimes you have to abandon a plan and start all over. It’s fine to change your mind. I’ve started a lot of things over again. If it’s about choosing an occupation or even starting a blog. A lot of people made bucket lists and if they don’t achieve them they feel they have failed. Life is not gonna be over. You can achieve them at any age. You don’t need to do everything before you’re 20 or 30. Not even in your life. Some things are impossible to achieve anyway. For example, everyone won’t invent something that still doesn’t exist. Your goals should be little things.

An abandon plan opens a new one and it can be something much better. I have many times abandoned my fanfictions and starting a new one. So I have quite a lot of unfinished stories I’ve posted online. I get new ideas and then I forget the old ones. It’s either boredom of the stories or my interests have changed. It can also be because I feel people aren’t reading them anymore. I don’t know if the new ideas are better though. I post them on AO3 (Archive of our own) and some older stories still get kudos even if I finished them ages ago. I use to post them on my fanfiction blog here on WordPress but it’s a bit difficult because my stories are quite long. I just can’t seem to write short stories. I plan it to be short but then when I get ideas, they keep on coming.

Before I started this blog I had a few but they didn’t pay off. You know what they say (or William Edward Hickson said), if you don’t first succeed, try try and again. So I did and here I am, still. I also have two on Tumblr but the whole place has gone downhill. I can’t find anything to post there. I had to start the main blog all over again so the old stuff I had there is gone. So no more pics of Tom Hiddleston. Not that I reblogged that very often. Now nothing interesting is coming on the Explore. It’s a place where you can find what is trending and recommendations for you. Since all the old things are gone on my blog the rest is gone too. I reblogged quite a lot but now there’s only boring stuff. I don’t bother searching for things to post myself either. Besides, Tumblr has always been a place for weird stuff. It was fun when I started to use it but now I’m quite bored with it. At least they banned pornographic stuff there. I hated it when people with half-naked photos of themselves started to follow my blog. I’m no prude but my blog wasn’t for people like that. The only thing I post there is this blog post but it’s probably going to deaf ears over there.

I wish I could make easy decisions with other things like I do with writing. I shouldn’t be worried about failing but I still do. With writing it doesn’t matter if I fail because it’s just a hobby but if I fail in life decisions things can go worse. Running out of money or end up on the street. That’s quite a radical example but it could happen. I think that’s one of the reasons why I keep thinking about becoming an entrepreneur or not. It’s easy to think about things in your head but the reality is much harder. I go back and forth with my thoughts but I can’t make a decision. As an unemployed, it’s not easy to start something because if you do, you get in trouble with the job centre. And other things could happen which I won’t get into. Some impatient person would probably be fed up with my indecisiveness already. No one should be hurried with deciding things. You should do them in your own time. Plans take time to fulfil. I wish I would have thought like this when I was younger. It would have saved a lot of time and less stress. Even though I don’t regret my past I wish I could have abandoned some things a bit faster than I did. What done is done.

If you can’t find a story to read, write your own

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What indulgence means to me is making up stories for my own pleasure. I love writing fan fiction. In English only. I have a lot of ideas but they all don’t become stories. I used to read other people’s stories but sometimes I didn’t find any interesting enough. So I began writing them myself. If you can’t find a story to read, write your own. I guess the same goes for blogging. I wanted to write things I like. It’s just a bonus someone else likes them too.

Most of my fiction is about people who exist. But I don’t write about them. It’s a made-up story. It’s just the names that are the same. Maybe some fact too but it’s nothing personal. I’ve written fanfiction about movie characters but my main interest is real person fiction. If someone finds them offensive it’s not really my problem. It’s just harmless fun. You should do things that make you happy and writing fanfiction is mine. I haven’t had any complains so far. I only write them for fun and I won’t make a profit of them. Sometimes you just need an escape from the real world.

I also write fiction because they have improved my English. I’m not a book reader so reading other people’s fan fiction is my thing. Writing is something I enjoy so why stop? I have quite a vivid imagination. I’ve noticed I don’t really know how to write nice characters. They always have some kind of anger issue, if you can call it that. Or telling others what to do. But that’s because my muses usually give me thoughts like that. Oops, revealed too much 😀 You know a writer never tells their secrets to others. At least not me. If I don’t write fanfiction, I write poems. Ideas just come naturally to me when it comes to imagination. I wish I could use that skill in other things in life.

I can find inspiration from anywhere or anything. Like yesterday I saw a title on a forum and it gave me ideas for a story. An idea only though. I got so much inspiration so it feels like there is no time to write them all down. I have to think about the real life too, you know. I hardly end the stories I write because I get bored and then I make up new stories. There needs to be a special feeling when I write and when there isn’t I get writer’s block. I guess it’s the same with blogging. If I don’t have the feeling to write something then I don’t write at all. Or then I’m just tired and I don’t want to think. That’s why writing will remain a hobby for me. And what a fun hobby it is.