Crossing the bridge

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The Railway Bridge, Riga, Latvia

There’s a saying “crossing the bridge when we get there” which means you handle a problem when you get there if there will be any. But I always think about what could go wrong before it happens. I think what if I do something wrong or say something wrong. Before I say anything to someone I think before I speak and sometimes I leave it at that. I never do anything spontaneous. I couldn’t organise an event for someone else. My plans usually goes wrong so I stopped planning. I live the day as they come. I couldn’t cross a line in any circumstances. I don’t like hurting people’s feelings so I hold my tongue with my thoughts. I feel guilty if I hurt someone I know. When I was angry at my parents I always regretted it later.

I try to do things even if I think of the worse. They usually end up alright and wonder why I was worried in the first place. Some things I do worry when I get there. For example when I apply to schools I just cross my fingers and hope for the best. I’ve been lucky to have got in to school’s I applied to. When you’re young it’s very important to get an education or you fall through the cracks. There’s a lot of youngsters who become outcasts because they don’t get that stability from a young age. If I hadn’t got anything after I left primary school, who knows where I would be now. I just wish I could get a job as easily as becoming a student. When I graduate from this education I’m on now this spring, I don’t know what I’ll do next. But I’m crossing the bridge when I get there. That’s the only time I do that. Other times I worry too much.

Sometimes I don’t even bother my mind with how things will go. Blogging is one of them. I don’t worry about what people might think of me. It’s easier to write about yourself and your thoughts through a blog. People still won’t get to know me completely. There are things I keep to myself. You might know what I’m about but no one won’t get to know me. That goes for anyone. You know who you are and that’s what important. On the internet you can’t tell everything about yourself. You should really worry what you put online because there’s a lot of people who tries to take advantage of you. “Crossing the bridge when you get there” doesn’t apply here. Once you put things online, it stays there and it’s too late to take it back. Every photo of yourself is out there for anyone to use. It’s worrying to see people posting selfies of themselves and photos of where they live. It can be a dangerous game. You think there’s no harm of showing yourself. You can always take it offline but it’s already out there. That’s one of the reasons why I don’t post photos of myself more than I have. No one knows where it will end up. I don’t want that much attention. Especially posting photos of your children can lead to anything bad. I don’t even want to think where those photos will end up. People are so careless and they should really think the worse first before posting anything online.

Like in an American police series ‘Hills street blues’ once said, “Let’s be careful out there”

 

 

When I realized

snickersbarcoverSometimes things doesn’t go the way you plan it. I’ve had dreams and ideas about what I want to do for a living. But there’s always something else happening. For me thoughts and ideas have changed through the years. What I wanted to do when I was a teen, doesn’t apply anymore. For example, I wanted to move abroad but I never got that far. I realized how much you have to do before you do. It was just too complicated and things are just so much better over here. I’m never been brave enough either. I guess the love for my country has got me to stay here.

There was a long time I wanted to become a pro photographer but after I studied photography in Helsinki Design School last year, I realized that’s probably not for me after all. It’s also a very competitive profession. There’s so many of them and I don’t have that much patience try to become a better photographer. You really have to have a very strong will to succeed in that business. You don’t photograph for yourself, you photograph for the client which is the downside. But don’t get me wrong, I still want to do something with photography but not as a professional. I don’t even think I’m that good. To become good, you need to practise but I’m not that enthusiastic. I’m a so-called “mood photographer” I only photograph when I feel like it. I don’t go around carrying the camera wherever I go. I take it with me if I’m going somewhere special. That’s one of the reasons why photography should only be a part of a job.

I’ve realized I can’t write or blog everyday because there’s always something wrong with the internet connection in the dorm where I live on weekdays. It keeps cutting off which is so annoying. I couldn’t write the blog about my studying in web design and I can’t take part in #everydayinspiration either because of slow or no connection at all. It feels like I’ve been without internet for a week when it’s actually only been one or 2 days. Things moves so fast over there so if you’re out of it for a while, you’ll miss quite a lot what goes on in the world. There’s too much information so you don’t really need to know everything. I only use internet at home. Some people seem to have the urge to be online wherever they go. Luckily I’m not one of those people. It’s no big deal if the internet is off. Sometimes you need a break from it. It’s like meeting a friend. It’s good to have but it’s also good to be a part for a while. That way things doesn’t get boring. That’s something people need to realize. Internet is not the whole world, it’s just a part of one.

 

 

Tallenna

Tallenna

No, please don’t leave

Don’t you just hate it when the page you want to see keeps loading and loading. And loading and loading. Sigh. Don’t worry, this page is not slow. It’s just me supporting net neutrality. Why don’t you too.

I especially hate it when you want to watch an online video and it takes ages to load. Imagine that on every site you go to. It feels like you’re still on dial-up. I really don’t miss those days. Now they’re trying to slow internet down. Only the “important” people get fast internet. Cable companies and those greedy idiots. That’s unheard off. Internet is for everyone.

So make a difference.