Bloganuary: Don’t let me be misunderstood

prove them wrong
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Day 9. All the people do is assume wrongly about me. Especially when I meet new people. They think I’m quiet because I don’t start talking to strangers. They don’t even bother getting to know me. It’s their problem and not mine. It’s an introvert thing. I only speak when I have something to say. If people would only bother to ask me something. Why must I be the first one to start anyway. I’m not good at starting conversations. I’ve tried to be more outgoing, but it feels weird. It’s not in my nature to do so. No one knows how it is to be me. If people knew me, they would see I’m not what they think I am. Don’t assume you know me because I’m more than meets the eye.

When I was younger, people thought I was quiet at home too. I was shy around other people, but I was totally the opposite at home. The people I’m close to know I have my own opinions. I’m not afraid to say what is on my mind. Out in public, you need to think about other people’s feelings. You can’t act the same as you do at home. I don’t hurt other people’s feelings on purpose. People think I don’t have opinions, but I do. I just don’t say anything because I don’t like conflicts. Sometimes I have nothing to say, period. I don’t know why I should talk all the time. I don’t like my voice that much.

It’s a shame the world is made for extroverts. If you’re not talkative, they overlook you. If it’s about finding friends or jobs. One of the reasons I’m not good at job interviews is that my answers are short. It doesn’t matter how much I prepare. I always forget to say what I’ve planned. Once when I was an intern in a newspaper, they said I wasn’t social enough. So because I didn’t babble nonsense at work, I’m not social? You can be that even if you don’t talk a lot. I’m an observer, and if I have things to say, I say it. I’m an introvert and not mute.

They say you should be yourself, but then when you are, they think you’re weird. Nothing is ever good enough. I’ve learned through the years that you can’t please other people. They will understand you if they want to, but if they misunderstand you, they will. You can only be the person you know you are. You should focus on the people who do understand you. At least a little.

Boring job interview

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Maybe people find my blog posts about job search boring or uninteresting, but I write them anyway. This is not really about a job search. It’s about job interviews that I only get one every 5 years. I never know what to say in the questions they ask. I wish I had a fast mind, so I could answer questions without having a pause. I want to do a boring job interview that you can’t do in a real interview. These are questions they might ask. The answers are not what I would say in a real interview. Just wanted to repeat that.

Question: Tell me about yourself
Answer: Um, well, I’m human. I breathe, I eat, I sleep, I fart, I hear, I smell. And meh, I’m bored—next question.

Q: Why are you interested in working for this company?
A: I don’t know. I won’t get it anyway. You’re probably already bored with me.

Q: Can you describe your strengths?
A: No, I should think about it for a few weeks. Can I get back to you? 

Q: What are some of your weaknesses?
A: Answering these questions. Only finding my weaknesses.

Q: Where do you see yourself in five years?
A: Alive, hopefully. I don’t even know what I do after this interview.

Q: Why should we hire you?
A: I don’t know. I’m nice. I do my work as good as I can.

Q: What do you consider to be your biggest professional achievement?
A: Have you seen my resume? I don’t even have a career, thanks to employers who don’t want to hire me because I don’t have enough experience.

Q: Why are there gaps in your resume?
A: I’ve studied duh. It’s none your business why the reason is. I haven’t been lazy, that’s for sure.

Q: What are your salary expectations?
A: As long as I don’t become poor. How much do you want to pay me?

Q: What is your greatest achievement?
A: Getting this interview for starters. I’m still alive.

These are tough questions. You never know what they interviewers want to hear. That’s the reason why I fail at job interviews. Not knowing what to say. If the interviews were written down, it could be easier to answer them. But the companies are too busy to find an employee, so they don’t have time for a “slow” person like me. I already fail at cover letters and even finding something to apply to. I would be fortunate if I even got a job interview. I wouldn’t get the job anyway.

The Pivot Questionnaire

I always wanted to answer these questions. Mostly famous from Inside the Actor’s Studio with James Lipton. Feel free to answer them too.

The Pivot Questionnaire

What is your favorite word?
Love. If there were more love in the world, this place would be better than it is right now.

What is your least favorite word?
The Finnish word, periaatteessa (trans. in principle) I don’t really know what it means. E.g. in principle you could get paid. So is it or is it not. I like straight answers and not in principle 😛

What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
Kindness. Respect others no matter where they’re from, the color of their skin or their sexuality. You don’t have to like everyone but kindness never gets old.

What turns you off?
Smoking. Even worse if the guy is good-looking. Also drunk people. People that have no respect for nature, animals and other people. Violence in general.

What is your favorite curse word?
Perkele or jumalauta. Finnish swear words. Swearing should only be allowed if you’re really angry. Using foul language in a daily basis is not acceptable.

What sound or noise do you love?
Male voices like Lee Pace, Benedict Cumberbatch and Richard Armitage. Is it getting hot in here? 😀

What sound or noise do you hate?
That awful continuous noise young people play in their cars while driving. You hear them miles away. Also drilling noises is the worse.

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
I don’t have a profession but interviewing racing drivers would be an interesting job.

What profession would you not like to do?
Anything with needles and blood. Doctor, nurse etc.

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
You could have done it better.

(WWC: Interview)