The yada yada yada post

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Having a job does take a lot of energy. Especially the waking up thing. Being a night owl and trying to get to bed early is a lot of yada yada yada. I haven’t had the time or the energy to blog. I should actually take a nap and yada yada yada. I’m so much in front of a computer at work so I rather stay away from it at home. I write this now so you don’t think I forget about you. Or some other yada yada yada thing.

There are still 48 days left of my job contract and honestly, I’m already counting the days. It’s not that I don’t like being there. A job is a job, like my mother used to say. If the people I’m working with wasn’t as nice and yada yada yada I wouldn’t want to go there at all. I just want more or at least not this. I feel the job is holding me back. I’m not able to be as creative as I want to be. There are certain looks and rules to follow. Is this really what I’ve studied, I think. Sometimes there is nothing to do. Those days I wonder is it really worth going. I could just stay home and sit there. At least I can talk to my colleagues which makes the days go faster. Then other days are busy. Today was one of the slow days. I made a piece of notification for an event for the bulletin board and yada yada yada.

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I actually miss the days when I didn’t have to wake up early. I wish I could have a job where I could have an own schedule and yada yada yada. I don’t want to think about anything serious now.

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Most people probably write on their blogs about this coronavirus but I will only say. I’m free from work until March 30 because the workplace is closed. Unless it changes. So in a way, it’s the same when I didn’t have a job. I could do something useful but why bother. Sleep is what I need and I wake up when I feel like it. I still get paid. I’m just gonna take advantage of this break. I’m glad I don’t need to wake up early for a while.

I didn’t have anything else to say in this post so stay safe and stay healthy.

Green with envy

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Envy is one of the seven sins but it’s also something you feel when you see someone succeeding better than you. There is good envy and there’s bad envy. I don’t think I’ve ever had that bad envy feeling. I can be happy for another person. There is no point of fighting against something you know you’ll never win. It’s better to concentrate on your own things. You should stop comparing yourself to others no matter how hard it might be. Some things are not meant to happen and some things might happen later.

What makes me most green of envy is creative talents like illustrators and graphic designers. Even professional photographers. They make it look so easy even if it’s not. If I practised more I could get better at it but there are so many other things to do so I don’t have time. At the job I’m right now in, there isn’t any photography. We use photos from Pixabay or any other photography place. Maybe I get to do that someday. I’m not that excited about taking photos like I was a few years ago. On boring days at work, I wish I was somewhere else. Mondays and Tuesdays are quiet so I could be doing something else. I wonder why I even bother waking up early.

I’m green with envy when I read about how someone has started a creative business after their education. Like in Helsinki Design School. I’m both envious and admiring their courage. Their work is good too. I feel like an amateur when it comes to coming up with ideas and how to make them a reality. I haven’t really done any graphic design since school in 2019. I don’t have enough confidence to start something on my own. Instead, I have to work somewhere else. But maybe this is a learning process. I get used to working with others and maybe learn something new on this journey. But right now it feels like I won’t make it 8 months in this current job. Especially when I have to wake up early. I would rather stay in bed and start working when I feel like it. I made my bed and now I have to lie in it.

Some might be green with envy of me but they shouldn’t because we all got our strengths and we should use them to help those who don’t have the same skills. Everyone can’t do everything and it’s meant to be that way.