Looking for a freedom

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If you didn’t know the blog title is a song with David Hasselhoff. Actually, he was my hero when I was a kid. As Michael Knight mostly in Knight Rider. I loved the car K.I.T.T. He was once in Finland when he was in the TV show. There was also the replica of the car. Everyone is looking for a freedom. Free to be whoever they want to be. Unfortunately, not everyone has the same rights. That’s totally another story that I won’t get into. In a way, I’ve been lucky my parents didn’t tell me what to do or what to become. I could be whatever I felt like. I also live in a country where you’re allowed to be yourself. There are rules of course so it’s not complete freedom. Here we have choices but it’s up to you how you handle things. No country is perfect.

Unemployment is a big issue. They say it has got better but I think that’s just propaganda. Maybe in some occupations but everyone can’t become nurses or work in construction. No employer wants to hire someone with no work experience. If you’re not young, internships are under a rock. Some say that is not even work experience. But that’s all I have so my chances are thin. Life experience doesn’t seem to mean anything in working life. A lot of people are frustrated with not getting hired no matter what they do. They can have years of experience and yet they get nowhere. That’s far from freedom. If you have a job, be happy you have one. Everyone needs a purpose in life. It’s even harder for an unemployed to find work because there are those with jobs that also wants to find a new job. It seems unemployed is a second citizen. The longer you’re out of work, fewer chances you have. That isn’t right. Do we forget how to work? Maybe some don’t even bother learning something new but there are those who have educated themselves. Unemployed are not made of the same mould as politicians seem to think. Not everyone can be entrepreneurs either.

For me, freedom is one of the most important things. Especially after I studied web design and had a few clients. The thought of not having to go and work for someone else sounded so tempting. I’m still in the should I or should I not- stage. I can’t decide. My cousin started her nail art business this year and she already got clients. She’s a bit like my dad. She didn’t hesitate to start her own. That’s what I lack. I think and think but I don’t do anything. It’s been over a year since I did anything in web design so maybe I forgot all about it. Her line of work is different from mine and she already had a job. I’ve got too many hang-ups. I think too much about what I could lose than thinking what I could gain. When I look at what’s out there in the job world, the requirements they want is someone with 2-5 years or 5-10 years of experiences. And a web developer. I just don’t have it. The competition in the design world is though too so there’s so much you need to do. I’m just too introverted for that. The easiest way would be just to accept my faith that I’ll never find a job. Or have the courage to start a business of my own. Making decisions shouldn’t be this hard. I wish I had the courage to just start things because that’s freedom and that’s what I’m looking for.

“And I thought you were the killer”

Since I was a child, I always been fascinated with crime solving television shows. Since I saw MacGyver and Knight Rider in the 80’s. There were also Matlock, Columbo and Murder, She Wrote. For me they were more than just entertainment. They were mind games. They made me use my imagination. I wanted to solve the problems as much as the characters did. Sometimes the criminals irritated me. Especially when they were thinking they would get away with murder or any other crime. Most times I was wrong about the guilty one. The victim became the guilty or the other way around. The unreliable narrator really got me fooled.

But after seeing a lot of different crime solving shows during the years, I’ve learned to be more sceptic. I’ve also studied screen play writing and drama which has made me look at television and movies a different way. Human behaviour has been interesting to me for years. That’s probably one of the reasons why I watch them.

I’ve noticed I’m getting better at seeing the guilty one. I give you an example. I watched an episode of CSI: NY called Unwrapped. It was about a woman’s husband being killed in a robbery. To make it short. First the suspect was an old boyfriend of the woman. Then they interviewed her sister and her male neighbour was in the same room. A little later in the episode when the detectives had gone through the evidence, I thought “what about the neighbour?” And in the end, he really was the killer.
‘I’m really getting good at this’, was my thought. And who said watching TV is not good for you. I live for shows like Sherlock (mostly the Jeremy Renner one), CSI, True Detective, Legends and Law and Order, just to mention a few. They feed my mind and imagination.

Then there are shows like Twin Peaks where the viewers mind are intentionally fooled. That’s one of the fascinations about the series. Mysterious and creepy at the same time. Now they’re planning 9 more episodes in 2016. I doubt it will have the same effect. I think they shouldn’t do it. A classic should remain classic. How long can Bob kill anyways? He should just be put to rest, I’ll say.

Just had to mention this. This post is about unreliable narrator after all. I still haven’t watched it. But one day I will.

The Fall plays some fun games with this trope. It is a film of two levels, stories within stories – a girl in a hospital listens to stories told by a bedridden man, and we see her visualisations of the stories he tells. Trouble is, they don’t share identical internal dictionaries. One great example is that he talks about an Indian and his squaw, but the girl, who was friends with a Sikh, imagines a bearded subcontinental man in a turban. The Fall also features a classic example of In-Universe Creator Breakdown.

Weekly Writing Challenge: My Lists on TV


Lists, lists and more lists. Sounds a bit boring but here I am, making one. Lists can be fun to write though.

To the point. Here’s a top 20 list of TV shows I watched through the years. I excluded comedy shows. That’s a list for another day. Want to know what they are all about, just click on the links.

Every episode is a nerve-wracking experience. It ends with a cliffhanger every time. I’ve loved it since the first episode. The series continues with 24:Live another day which starts here June 1. Jack Bauer is da man.

Game of Thrones
I heard about the praise about this show so I decided to watch an episode to see what the fuss was all about. The first episode was a bit confusing. So many characters so it was difficult to know which was which. I always (well almost) give a new TV show a 2 or 3 views before I decide to watch it or not. Same with this. Then it went to the next episode. After that, on and on. Now it’s already season 4. I found it online so now I’m up to date. The real season why I actually started to watch it, was because Sean Bean was in it. Of course he dies there too. What a surprise 😀 Great show except all the hanky panky going on, which is a bit over the top at times.

Blue bloods
The shows is about the daily life of the Reagan family. This a show that has taken a slow start on Finnish TV. In the States it’s already on its 4th season and here it’s only 2nd. The reason I like it is because it’s more laid-back and not so much violence. It has serious issues as well. It’s about family values and it’s not everyday you see families eating dinner at the same table. It also good because Tom Selleck and Donnie Wahlberg is in it. It’s great chemistry between the other actors. If I could be a part of any family on TV, they would be it.

Person of interest
The Machine that gives the number who’s in danger or not. Mr Finch does the thinking while Mr Reese does the action. This is one of the shows that you fall in love from the 1st episode. And of course Jim Caviezel is easy on the eye too. He’s one of the reasons I started to watch it. Also because you never know who’s bad or who’s good.

This was a show I used to watch with my mother. It’s about Adrian Monk, a detective, whose wife Trudy gets killed and he goes all weird. But he’s a genius. He gets the work done. I think there’s a little bit of Adrian Monk in me too. Not as neurotic as him though. They’re showing reruns at the moment over here.

BBC Sherlock
I’ve mentioned about this before on this blog so I make it short. I never thought I would become a fan of this show but that’s all because of Benedict Cumberbatch and Martin Freeman.

CSI Las Vegas
Nothing is better than the original. Every episode is different. There’s a lot of TV shows that are based on detectives or lawyers but not so much about those that follow the evidence. I’ve seen this show since the 1st episode and it’s still great. Actors might change but the show itself continues like always. Grissom has always been my favorite character and always will be.

This is the same kind of show but it’s based in New York. I wasn’t sceptic about this one. I just started watching it and never stopped. It really has grown on me.

CSI Miami
Same as above but it’s based in Miami. A shame it had to end. David “H” Caruso will always be the coolest man in television history.

Knight Rider
This was my favorite show when I was a kid. I loved it so much so I even named my soft toy chimp, K.I.T.T, after the car. With one “T” though. I will never understand why they bothered making a new version of the show. There always will be only one Michael Knight and that’s David “Looking for freedom” Hasselhoff no matter what people think about him now.

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