I have no clue what to tell you. I’m sorry to bother you with this text. There is no apparition in the present situation. I’m not sure what to say about this word. It’s a word I didn’t know about. I can’t even pronounce it. I hope I don’t need to speak it. The word is one of those English words you don’t remember when it’s not your first language. You use some other, an easier word, to say. Searching on Google about what the word means helps like it does when looking for words and their meanings. It’s pretty challenging to put this word into a sentence. I’m more into being invisible than being an apparition. Maybe I’m embarrassing myself with using it wrong. Or perhaps it’s right. That’s all I got.
I shall now disappear, like a phantom into the night.
Nothing in life is written in stone. Things don’t go the way you planned. You are allowed to change your mind. Things that you wanted in the past doesn’t mean you want them today. Nothing last forever. Life is about learning things and moving on. If you don’t grow as a person and get stuck in the past, you don’t want to give the future a chance. The world changes too, so you can’t dwell in the past and do the same things you always have. Learning something new keeps your mind clearer. For example, if you have got your driver’s license, it doesn’t mean you can drive perfectly. You always learn something new. Like for me yesterday when I noticed I didn’t have the car lights on. I thought they went on automatically, but the car is older, so you must put them on yourself. An oops moment there. No wonder I didn’t see that clearly. You learn from your mistakes. If you learn from the first time or fifth time. The main thing is that you learn. The only thing that is written in stone is death. No one will survive from it and tell the tale.
The world is full of lies. It’s up to you if you believe them or not. One of the lies is about education. If you study this, you have to do it for the rest of your life. But that is not the case. You can study one thing, but then you realize that’s not what you want to do. It’s not written in stone what you want to become. Knowing many different things doesn’t do anyone any harm. Many people have changed occupations several times during their lives. They might have suffered from health issues, or their interest has changed. If they get a job in their new occupation, is a different matter. That is not written in stone either.
Nothing in life is written in stone. You can’t promise to love someone forever. The band you loved when you were a teen doesn’t necessarily mean the same to you anymore. The same goes with friends in school. You can’t be friends with your best friend forever. Well, you can, but that’s rare. You meet new people, and new things happen. Your feelings change. We are all human, and we have different ways to do things. One day you can love a certain food, and the next you don’t like it anymore. We should respect each other and not write everything in stone. We have the right to change views and interests. If we do everything we have always done, nothing will change. You don’t need to follow traditions all the time. Sometimes you need to do different things. Life would be dull if we didn’t leave our comfort zones once in a while. That should be written in stone.
Learning new things is part of life. You need to be curious, or it will get you bored. You need to be motivated to learn, or it will all be useless. Sometimes learning is so hard you want to give up. I have now had 4 driving lessons, but it seems I’m still not ready for the driving test. In the 2nd lesson, I remembered why I didn’t finish it the first time. There is so much to think about. I actually dread the lessons a bit because I’m afraid to make a mistake. I thought I’m a fast learner, but not when it comes to driving a car. The biggest problem is changing gears. All my energy goes to that. Then there is the pressure from other drivers on the road. It feels like I never learn. At least I’m a bit better. I need to learn the gears better so I can think about other things. One lesson left, but I think the teacher will suggest some more. It was 26 years ago, the last time I drove a car, it takes time to learn again.
Being curious about learning new things hasn’t made my life any better. I’m still unemployed, and I’m turning 44 in June. Apparently, 40-year-olds don’t learn new things anymore. That’s not the reason I haven’t got hired, though. It’s the lack of experience. Maybe I’m not good enough. It’s silly to switch careers when you haven’t even been in the current one. Why would I want to switch when I have finally decided what I want to do? I don’t know what I could do. No matter what I study, I still won’t get a job. Whenever I search for a job, it always requires experience. I have no chance to get any because someone will always have more. I like to learn, so I still do no matter what. It’s the curious me that want to continue. I do it for myself and my own mental health. It’s good for the mind to study things. No one is perfect in anything. Unless you’re a superhuman which I think no one is. Learning new things is not enough. Also, knowing how to do things better. Learning a new computer program and then get better at it, that’s what pays for your efforts.
I used to dislike Adobe Illustrator, but after studied web design, I learned to like it. Our teacher was very good at teaching it, so that must be it. Now I use it daily. I’m still learning it on Behance. You always learn something new every time. Practice makes you better, and you get used to things. But only if you’re motivated. If you’re not curious enough, nothing will make you want to continue. You can’t force yourself to do things that don’t interest you. There are things I want to learn, but I don’t have enough patience to do it. I don’t like difficult things. There isn’t enough time to learn a lot of things. The brain doesn’t have enough memory capacity to handle so much information. Only concentrating on learning what interests you and focus on becoming better at it is more important. I want to learn a lot of different things, because I get bored otherwise. That’s what the curious me want to do.
In my world 