Bloganuary: Last time I left my comfort zone

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Day 3. As an introvert, the comfort zone is a familiar concept. Brave and ambitious people might not understand how difficult it is for a person to do something they’re not used to. It won’t help if you say what could happen because that won’t help. It takes time to get out of your comfort zone. You might be nervous or anxious. You rather not do it because you don’t like that feeling.

The first time I got out of my comfort zone was when I was 17. I moved to another town to study health care. It was an education I didn’t want to study. But my mother said I had to start somewhere, and she was right. It was right after school, and if I hadn’t got anything, who knows how my life would have been. The first week was awful. Everything was new, and I didn’t know anyone. It was a small town, and there was nothing to do. I was very homesick, so I called my mother and cried on the phone. But when I got to know my classmates and my roommate, I felt much better. The education was only one year which was all I could have taken.

As I got older, I have had been braver to step out of my comfort zone. I still like being there. In life, you need to grow; otherwise, you get nothing done. I’ve never been good at making decisions. I’m very indecisive, so it takes ages to get things done. Even if I know what I want to do, the comfort zone keeps holding me back. I’ve been thinking about entrepreneurship for a few years now, but I don’t get anything done. Instead, I’ve been lazy and tried to do something else besides looking for something to do. It will probably continue the same this year. I always tell myself I will start something at the beginning of the year, but I keep putting it off. I tried to search for a job, but I haven’t found anything to apply to. The last time I had a job was in 2020, and even that was only part-time.

The last time I left my comfort zone was last year when I got my driver’s licence and went to a carwash. When I was a child, I was scared of them. I never wanted to be in the car, so I waited outside. It was the big brushes I was afraid of. Now when I went, it didn’t go very well. I didn’t know how to drive inside the car wash. Luckily there was a man helping me. I had to reverse the car and drive back in again. It was a bit embarrassing, but it was the first I drove the car myself. It was my dad’s car, so I wasn’t familiar with it at that point. I wouldn’t want to use a car wash that often, but fortunately, you only need to do that once a year. Every time I drive in traffic, it’s always outside my comfort zone. I went to driving school 26 years ago, but I didn’t finish it. Now I know why. I didn’t like driving, among others. I feel nervous, and I don’t trust other drivers. I haven’t driven the car alone yet. My dad has been with me. I don’t drive the car very often anyway because you can go by bike or walk to get to places in my city.

This summer, I’m going to leave my comfort zone to go to two concerts. I first went to a real concert in 2018 when Robbie Williams was here. I had never been to a show before because I didn’t like big crowds. I’ve only been to free concerts where more than one performer has been there. I guess I got the ‘bug’ from that first concert because I didn’t hesitate to go to the next ones. I only hope they won’t be postponed because of covid. The Elton John one was moved because of that. When you can’t wait to get out of your comfort zone, that means you’re ready to do it more often. But it’s always nice to go back.

Show me the light

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Show me the light

Show me the light for the year 2022
The light gives me hope to find a way
Lost is the word I’ll describe my feeling
Show me the light that I lost last year
The New Year is for a new beginning
Show me the light to be brave
I have dreams I want to fulfil
Show me the light in the darkness
It’s not desperation, I can handle it
Show me the light because I need it
The light is the answer for this year

No change here but this

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I didn’t realize it’s been a month since I wrote a blog post. How time flies. No change here, but I have had other things to do. So much to watch on TV and online, so blogging hasn’t been on my mind lately. First of all, I have been watching ’24’ on Disney plus. It only cost 1.99 euros (2,24 dollars) for a month. It’s over soon, but I didn’t know they’ve had so many other TV shows to watch, so I think I won’t be cancelling it. They have many old shows like ‘The Golden girls’, ‘Bones’ and ‘The Muppets show’. Then there are new ones, like ‘Loki’ (I already watched that) and ‘WandaVision’. The problem with the channel is that it buffers a lot on the laptop, even if I have a fast connection. I don’t think I want to pay for something that gives me problems. I have the app, too, but the screen is too small to watch for a longer time. I prefer a bigger screen. I usually wouldn’t pay for a channel because most of them only have one or two contents that interest me. It’s the reason why Netflix has never interested me.

What comes to other things, there is no change. If there was something, I probably already forgot about it, or it’s not worth mentioning. Until next time.