Things I (probably) never hear or experience

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I’m probably the least fortuitous person in this world. Well, one of them. There are people who have it worse than me. I have a roof over my head and I can afford to buy things. But sometimes I wish I could have more luck in certain things. Here’s a list of things I (probably) never hear or experience.

Get hired because I’m an awesome and talented person
This is the first one on the list because this is something I’ve never been lucky in. I’m never been in the right place at the right time. You need to have some luck with the job search. Another thing is the skill. Especially in the design business, it’s very important. It’s also about who you know. Even though I’ve studied doesn’t mean I’ll get a job in it. It doesn’t help to have an online portfolio. Profile on LinkedIn and how active I am on social media. I’m no dream for employers when it comes to personality either. I’ll never hear, “I saw your portfolio and we want to hire you” Maybe not with those words but something like that. Job search is a circus where you have to be a clown to get noticed. As an introvert, this is not right. I think that’s one of the reasons why I never get a job. I’m not good at marketing myself. The whole concept of branding yourself is weird. I’ve got too many gaps in my resume so employers probably think I’ve been lazy or have some mental problems. I could have the latter by now but I don’t. Luck just hasn’t been on my side when it comes to this.

Getting best friends forever
I’ve never been good with finding friends. A lot of so-called friends were rotten. One pretended to be my friend but then talked bad things about me to someone else. I never found a best friend that I would still be in contact with. I had a friend in preschool but she moved to another city. I met a lot of people since childhood but I never found someone that ‘clicked’ with me. I’ve learned to be alone and that’s better than having fake friends.

Meeting someone of the opposite sex
This is the same as with the friendship thing. This subject goes to the private thing so I won’t go into detail. I’ll never meet (name should go here) If I did, he wouldn’t like me the way I like him. Because why should he? No one has ever been interested in my like that in real life anyway. I don’t fall easily for anyone either. I always want someone I can’t have. Let’s just leave it at that.

Dreaming and make it real
I’ve read a lot of stories about how someone has followed their dream and made it come true. But I’m not that ambitious. When things don’t work out I give up and do something else. I’m also too indecisive. I get an idea but then change my mind. No wonder I never achieve anything. I’m too much of a coward so I blame it on bad luck. If not that, the lazy person I am. Other success stories should motivate me but the fear is in the way so I just dream. Even the most successful people have fears but I don’t get over them. Saying get over it is like saying to a person who has broken their leg to walk it off. Failure is also a thing that can make a person not to do anything about their dream. I’ve always had a doubt in my mind that I’m the failing one because I’m not fortuitous in a lot of things.

Meeting someone or experience something by chance
Last but not least. I believe only other people meet people by chance. I never found new friends on holidays. Not when I was a child nor as an adult. I don’t travel much but when I do, I never talk to anyone by chance and not the other way around. At least nothing good ever comes out the little chances I get. I’ve seen Finnish celebrities in places I’ve been to and once bumped into one but that’s not the chances I mean. Chances like meeting someone you didn’t accept to meet and it would change your life. If it had I wouldn’t be where I am now. Nowhere special. I never accidentally ended up somewhere by chance. If it’s career choice or something personal. Not everyone will meet someone or experience something by chance. Sometimes you need to work on it yourself. If it’s meant to happen it will. Or it might not. You never know.

So there you have it. Never say never which is the reason I wrote (probably) Life is full of surprises. For example, a year ago I found out I had 2 cousins. I always thought I only had one. We should think more about the things we got. You need to accept that some things you can’t have no matter how much you want it. If you’re fortuitous or not.

A snippet or two about me

paper slicesToday it’s all about me. It’s not about selfishness. If I posted selfie’s about myself every day of the week, that’s would be selfish. This post contains snippets of moi. That’s me in French. This post is 20 facts about me.

  1. I’m bilingual. My mother tongue is Swedish. It’s Finnish-Swedish so don’t mix it with Sweden.
  2. I never had a pet. Bunnies are my favourite animal
  3. I can play the recorder and piano. I have a good musical ear so I can make tunes on the top of my head. I can even read simple notes that I taught myself
  4. I can speak a few words of German, Italian, French, Spanish and Russian
  5. I rather be alone than having friends disturbing me all the time
  6. I like watching sports. Especially ice hockey
  7. I’ve only watch Marvel movies because of Loki. If he’s not in it, I don’t care
  8. I use social media all the time but sometimes it feels like no one really cares what I post there
  9. I don’t like the taste of alcohol. I don’t like drunk people because you can’t have a decent conversation with them
  10. I’ve never been abroad alone
  11. I like filling quizzes, doing tests and fill forms
  12. I love chocolate but I also eat other candy/sweets
  13. Friday 13 has never brought me bad luck. Maybe because I have no luck other days either
  14. I change my mind all the time which has caused me problems of finding a career.  I really have difficulties starting things.
  15. I hate shopping so I buy things online instead. Sometimes I do go to a store but only if it’s really necessary
  16. I got chased by a dog when I was 6 so I was dead scared for years. But I faced my fear and now I’m over it. As long as they’re on a leach though
  17. I’ve seen Lord of the rings so many times I’ve lost count. The same with The Hobbit. Extended versions included
  18. I’ve tried a lot of different sports and one of them is golf
  19. I think better when the music is on
  20. I’ve only travelled in Europe. Latest trip was to Stockholm this year

What I prefer

orange post-it

I used to make a list to me about which one I prefer the most. It could be a colour, a person or just about anything really. I did it for fun. I drew 3 boxes on a paper. The middle was neither way or both. A bit like the one on the photo above. This time I’ll do it differently so here we go.

Blue or White

Blue. White makes me look pale. Blue is also my favourite colour. When I was a child I used to stay in the swimming pool until my lips were blue. I liked it that much. But that’s just a fact about me so that’s not the reason why I like the colour the best. My eyes are blue too.

Comedies or Romantic movies

Comedies definitely. The only romantic movie I like is ‘Sleepless in Seattle’ I think romantic movies are too boring for my taste.

Loki or Thor

This is a difficult but maybe Thor. I have this love/hate feelings towards Loki. I find him irritated but yet if he wasn’t in the Marvel movies, I wouldn’t care much. It’s also because of Tom Hiddleston. Later on that.

Instagram or Pinterest

Pinterest because it’s more versatile and you can use it better on the computer. Instagram is kind of new to me. I’ve only had it a couple of years. The problem with it is that you can’t post there from a computer. I use it more for looking at other people’s photos than posting my own.

Dark hair or Blonde on men

Tall, dark and handsome. Cliché but so true. I’ve always fancied men with dark hair. In the end, it doesn’t really matter what hair colour they have. It’s about the person anyway.

Cat or Dog

Neither but if I had to choose it would be a cat. I used to be terrified of dogs but I guess time heals. Cats are more independent so you don’t have to take time out for a walk few times a day. I’m actually a bunny person. Those were to only ones I dared to touch. Even though when I see photos of both on Instagram, I could almost get one. I don’t have the time or money to have a pet though.

Tom Hiddleston or Channing Tatum

This is a no-brainer. Tom obviously. I’ve never understood the Channing fascination. I never found him attractive in any way. I don’t know much about his acting skills since he makes movies I don’t care much about. He had a small part in the Johnny Depp and Christian Bale movie ‘Public Enemies’ but that’s all.
Tom on the other hand, wow. I could talk about him all day. I tell you a secret. He’s (and Lee Pace) the inspiration for my poems on this blog. I never thought I would like him this much as I do now. That’s what you get when you stare too long. Acting skills and appearance etc.

Summer or Winter

Winter because of snow. When we get it that is. Some people think it’s too cold or too dark but it suits me much better. Summer is too hot and too light. Summer is good if the weather is mild and it gets darker later. I still prefer winter though.

Lastly but not least.

Walking or Running

Walking. I hate running. It feels like my legs are falling off. It’s sweaty too. I have sensitive skin so it begins to itch and I get a rash. It’s very unpleasant. I also hate being in a hurry. Walking is much nicer. My walk is usually fast-paced but sometimes I walk slowly too.

So that’s what I prefer. Feel free to comment or ask something if you need some clearance of what I wrote. Maybe some of you like the same things or maybe you have something to add. If not, I hope you enjoyed this blog post.

 

Tallenna