Perspicacity is out of focus

Perspicacity is out of focus

There are a time and place for everything. It’s time to play and there is time to work. But I don’t do any of that. OK, maybe play but not work. I’m not gonna write about that thing that is out there right now. I don’t know how to use the word perspicacity in a sentence. But life is a learning curve and maybe someone with English as their first language can correct me at some point. This post has no perspective whatsoever. I don’t know why I even write anything. But I got a lot of time on my hands because my workplace is still closed. I wouldn’t be there now anyway because it’s only part-time. Grin emoji here. My Easter holiday would be starting today but now it’s at least one more month. Maybe even longer. My job contract will be very short but no can do.

I use blocks now on WordPress because it’s quite handy. I especially like how much easier it is to put links to open to a new tab. Before I had to click here and then there which was time-consuming. I won’t go into more detail because this is not a tutorial. I hope you understand what I mean. If you’re used blocks that is. Or you may not. I don’t know how other people handle things. I still use the Classic Editor though. When I don’t need anything fancy. The block editor is useful when you want to have, well blocks. I’m also getting the hang of how the blocks work. Maybe because we use that at work so I need to learn it. Speaking of getting the hang of it.

I also start to get hang of using Mac. I’ve used it before but not as much as I did with Windows. It’s a bummer that the Office programs are not on this Mac so I have to use it on my other laptop. It’s a shame you have to download it from the internet and pay for it yet again. It was easier when you got it on a CD. It’s not even called Office anymore. The first time I used Mac it was called Macintosh and it was when I was on 7th or 8th grade. It looked much different then. Next time I used a Mac was in 2011 when I was on the job learning in my local newspaper. Mac and PC look different in graphics. Like the time can be seen up on the screen on Mac when in PC it was down on the right. At first, I kept looking down on the time when it was actually up on the right. I got a Mac because I wanted a change and I’m not a big fan of Windows 10. I haven’t regretted the change one bit. Except for that damn Word that isn’t there so I can’t write my fiction on this laptop.

Are you still up? Continuing with the perspicacity or the lack of it. There are so many different things on this blog post so it’s not interesting to everyone. You could say this is free writing but that’s not the curve I’m looking for. If it was it would be even more out of focus than it is now. I don’t know about you but sometimes I get fiction ideas during my night sleep. Which is the reason why it takes longer for me to fall asleep. Some people have trouble sleeping because they worry but for me, it’s the stories in my head. I sleep but I’m still awake. Well, my brain is. When I finally fall into a deep sleep it’s early morning and then I sleep until noon or longer. The next night can be the same. It’s a price to pay when you’re a writer. You can’t choose the time when inspiration comes. Coming up with a story is one thing and the other are names and titles. Internet is a good place to find answers to this. I don’t want to use the same character names in my stories. I mostly use first names only but somethings last names too. Maybe titles are the most difficult things to come up with. I have this story but I don’t know what to call it and it’s frustrating. But it will come up when I start writing on it. Now the story is only in my head. Maybe I only write it for myself and if I continue or think it’s worth posting online I will do so. Like I mentioned earlier in this post. I’ve got a lot of time on my hands so I have time to think it over.

So this curve and perspicacity has not ended on this blog post so thank you for reading (or just looking at the photo above 😁)

Ten years of nothing

blurry and dark nothing
Made in Canva

I don’t memorise years so I don’t know what happened when. All I know is that in 10 years I haven’t accomplished nothing to brag about. When others have had career moves, families and other things they’re proud of, I’ve just hung on. But I’ve learned to enjoy the small things because big things only disappoint. If I went to a school reunion I would feel like a failure because I haven’t done anything. I wouldn’t even go. Some people think they need to do something special so they can call them living life. I have never needed to go to some other place to find myself. Whatever finding yourself means. Anyway, the point with this post is going down the memory lane. I got this idea from a post on Instagram.

2010
I studied graphic design in a 2-year education. This was the 2nd year. That’s all of that year.

2011
I graduated from the graphic design education. This was the last year we went to Lapland to ski. I didn’t know it would be the last.

2012
My mother was diagnosed with cancer which was a big chocker. She got treatment and went through operations. There were still hope she would win the decease. The year was a lot of that so I don’t remember anything else. Oh, besides I got an internship in a local newspaper for two weeks as a photographer. Even if my mother was sick she was still concerned about me finding a job.

2013
This year was the most difficult time for me and my family. Mother told us her cancer couldn’t be cured. The doctor had done everything but nothing helped. Soon she got worse and maybe two weeks (or a week) at the hospice she was gone. That Christmas was the worse.

2014
This year I started this blog. I did write occasionally in 2013 but 2014 was the year I really started it. I also studied photography at Helsinki Design School.

2015
I finished photography education. I realised I didn’t want to do photography like a pro after all so it was time to think about something else once again.

2016
I found a web design education that lasted a year. I applied and got in. I wrote a blog about my education which is called ‘My Web Design Haven’. I don’t write it anymore but here it is. The education included on-the-job learning where you should find clients by yourself. Luckily I found at least one. That was hard because coding is not my favourite thing but luckily the client was very understanding. I got good feedback from the client as well.

2017
There was another on the job learning and this time we had to have at least 3 clients. I found them but only two of them was serious.  This was the time I really started to think about entrepreneurship. I really liked the thought of not having to go anywhere and I could choose my own time. To pass the education we had to have a presentation of our client work in front of 3 valuators. It was really nerve-wracking. In the end, I passed and graduated. I only had one job interview but that’s something I don’t want to remember. I went to my first ever live concert that summer and that was Robbie Williams. I wasn’t sure I would go but I’m glad I did.

2018
At the beginning of that year, I got accepted to a course about entrepreneurship. It was mostly done online but we had some meetings too. The hardest part was writing a business plan. After that course, I decided to apply to Helsinki Design School again. This time in graphic design. I applied to it twice and the 2nd time I got in. My plan was to add graphic design to my services if I would become an entrepreneur.

2019

I was on a plane for the first time in my life. I and dad went to the Canarian Islands. I got through the graphic design education. This is where I began to rethink about entrepreneurship and I’m still doubting. I applied for a job in something else but the interview was just that and nothing else. I hate it when I have to assume I didn’t get the job. Again they didn’t give me an answer. But I didn’t want the job anyway.

2020
Then there’s this year. I’m getting a new laptop because my old one has Windows 7 and they won’t update that anymore. I’m changing brands as well. It’s a Mac which I’ve used before so it’s nothing new. Then there’s the concert by Elton John at the end of summer. That’s all I know so far.

So there you have it. Ten years of nothing is not entirely true. I did do things so it’s not all boring. Both happy and sad things but nothing to brag about on social media and such. Where I will be ten years later is a question I don’t want to reply to. I don’t even know what I’m doing at the weekend. No one really knows what will happen in 10 years. It’s only wishful thinking.