March marches on

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How the time goes by so fast. March already, and soon it’s April. I’ve been busy with career coaching, so I haven’t had the time to blog. We have 2-week on-the-job learning at the moment where you familiarize yourself with a job. I didn’t get any, so I stayed at my dad’s business. He’s a goldsmith. I tried to get to at least five places, but they couldn’t take anyone. I didn’t get any the last time I went to a career coaching. It could make me feel I’m not even qualified for free work. But I won’t take it personally. Many are still working from home. So there was no supervisor to show me the ropes. One week is left, and then the course continues for another week. The course has been on Teams, so it will be the first time we meet face to face. The March marches on in this spirit of things.

I don’t packrat educations. In every subject I’ve studied, there has always been something worthwhile. Some people might think I’m too indecisive and see it negatively. It’s better to know about many things, instead of just one. I only see it as an advantage. You should learn things that you like and not what others want you to. Learning should be fun and not something you need to do. The biggest problem is that I think I’m OK with the things I know how to do, but I don’t think I’m good enough. Maybe good enough to have something as a hobby, but not when it comes to working. Even experts have new things to learn, so you can improve in whatever you do. It doesn’t matter at what level you are. There is no such thing as perfect. As long as you like what you’re doing and be as good as possible. On the career coaching course, we concentrate on the positive things. Things that you are good at. That’s what you should do with everything in life. Some are good at this, and some are good at that. If there are things you don’t know, you should learn. Or just let someone who does know how to do them.

Here comes March and I haven’t accomplished a thing

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Here we are, in March and I haven’t accomplished a thing. The only thing I’ve done is school assignments and that interview for the internship. I thought I would have started things in January but I haven’t. I don’t know where my life is going. A stand-still is not an option. Sure it’s still a lot of 2019 left but it feels like I’m missing something. I’m a slow starter but the world seem to be in a hurry. I’m not expecting my life to be excited but it shouldn’t go around in circles either. Other people seem to have this fabulous life with great experiences but I’m like, wonder what time I’m gonna wake up tomorrow. 12 am or 2 pm? Soon I’m too stuck in my ways that I don’t even bother to do anything. It’s not like my life is boring. I do go to places like the movies. Next Thursday I’m gonna see Captain Marvel, for example. I shouldn’t compare my life with others. I just envy people who actually do things to make their dreams come true. I wish I could be braver and less lazy.

There are people who’ve done the impossible. Something someone said to them they couldn’t do. For me, it’s too hard to start anything. I’m not confident enough to do anything drastic. I’m only complaining about how boring my life is when I could actually do something about it. Maybe I should have someone who pushes me out of the door, so to speak. I never do what I plan. The motivation quotes you find on the internet doesn’t help. I agree with them but then I’m just, meh won’t be bothered. Which is totally the wrong attitude. What can you do when you’re afraid of the unknown. It’s difficult to get out of your comfort zone. You know you should get out of it once in a while but something stops you. Maybe it’s the warm and comfortable feeling in your zone. But then again why do you have to leave it? You should do things that make you most comfortable. At least I get out of my flat and that’s an accomplishment itself. I don’t always walk the same street. I go on adventures on my bike in the summer. I can do thing by myself and that’s something some people can’t do. I even travel to Helsinki by myself. So you can’t blame me for staying in my comfort zone. You don’t need to do big things to feel you achieved something.

Even if it is March already, there is still time. You can start a new chapter of your life in January or you can do it in June. It’s more important that you do at least something. Maybe someone wants to be something special in their life. We can’t all have a luxurious life you can brag about on social media. Most of us don’t even want that kind of life. And I don’t mean becoming a celebrity because that’s a totally different world. There is nothing wrong about being ordinary. Do things you like to do and not what people expect you to. I have a goal to achieve and that is getting past the graphic design education I’m on. Not having accomplished a thing this year is not entirely true. I have got through my school assignments with good grades. I’ve also written this blog even if I do other things too. If that isn’t an achievement, I don’t know what it.