Distance does not affect me

mountains in the distance
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For some distance is a big problem during these times. Some might get depressed they can’t meet their friends or family. We are all different. But for me, there is no problem. I’m not overwhelmed at all. Maybe I’m missing my workmates but it’s not the end of my world. I can’t understand people who are addicted to other people. I’ve survived without human contacts for years so why complain about it now? I actually like it when people keep a distance. I’m such a lazy person so I don’t feel like going out. I don’t know what’s so bad about being home anyway that people want to leave it. Besides this thing that is happening in the world right now won’t last forever. If people would only keep away from other people but I guess it’s too hard for some. Distance is the word right now and people should respect that because then things will never get better.

If I find something overwhelming I don’t do them. In school, Math was something I was really overwhelmed by because I thought it was hard. I hated the whole subject. Then you just had to go through it but now you don’t need to. I think all you need to know how to add up and all those basic things. You don’t even need those because there are calculators so you don’t need to count in your head. You don’t even need to buy things with money. You have a card for that. If I pay with money I pay with a banknote. Which is the reason why I have so many coins in my wallet. I dislike counting money at the checkout so I rather not do it. I do it before that. But mostly I pay with a debit card because it’s the easiest way. My card has a contactless payment so I don’t even need to touch anything. Some people pay with their phones but I don’t really trust that system. I can’t probably download any of that on my phone anyway. I rather use a card.

Another thing that I find overwhelming is how to describe myself to others. Or just to get to know people. So I keep my distance because I don’t want to disturb others or giving the wrong impression of me. At least I did in the past. It really depends if I feel confident that day or what kind of people they are. Surprisingly, I didn’t feel uncomfortable at all at my current job when I first got there. When I keep my distance some people might think I’m shy or that I don’t like people. I could say the same about them. Why don’t they contact me? Why must I be the first one? I get the picture they don’t even want to get to know me. Maybe I’m boring in their eyes. They’re the ones who have an attitude and not me. As you get older you don’t care what others think. As long as you know yourself is all that matters. Distance doesn’t affect me. Actually, I welcome it. The worst thing is people who are too clingy and can’t stay away from other people. They’re the ones you should be worried about.

Marvels only happen to other people

clouds in the sky
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It seems only other people get to experience marvels in their lives. Life-changing things. Good things. You on the other hand only experience bad things. If it’s poverty, losing a loved one or any other negative experience. Not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouth. There was a Finnish article about rich people and how they see things. One was that most of the unemployed are lazy and poor people should only blame themselves. It’s so easy to claim about those things when they have inherited their parents or other relatives. Some wealthy people think anyone can become rich but that’s only a dream. A lot of people don’t even want to be rich. They just want enough so they don’t need to struggle financially. It also seems people with a lot of money become greedy and their reality becomes blurry. They would change their tunes if bad luck would strike them.

You’re either lucky or not. Sometimes in between. I haven’t experienced anything marvel so I don’t expect it to happen in the future either. If it did I wouldn’t mind it. One example is of nothing happened was when I studied in Helsinki Design School. It was photography. Now I read stories about students who studied there and how they’ve managed to get a job after their education. Or they started their own business. Not just photography but other fields of study as well. I have had no use of this education from this school. I didn’t even get an internship. I doubt I get any from the graphic design education either. The only thing I did get from this school was something to do.  I might have learned something but I probably will forget it soon. I did learn I didn’t want to do photography for a living after all. Maybe you need to be young and pretty with an outgoing personality to get anything. Or maybe I’m just too crap to get hired. Marvels only happen to other people. I can only read about other people’s success stories with envy. The web design education wasn’t much better.

It’s not a marvel but I have got into educations I’ve applied to. Some of them were just past times but others were something that could be useful. You would think a healthy and educated person would have a job by now. But no you need experience to get anything. I don’t have any relatives who could give me a job. I’m never in the right place at the right time. It’s like my destiny is to have an uninteresting life. I try to be positive about what I have but there are times I wish I had something else. The grass isn’t always greener on the other side though. People might look happy in the Instagram photos but most of the photos there are fake. Other people’s life might look marvellous on the outside but it’s not always so. In a way, I’m glad I’m not living the way certain people are. I don’t like drama and I rather live in my own little bubble than be a puppet of society. Everyone doesn’t need to experience anything marvel to be happy. You should enjoy the small things in life. Mine is at the moment to finish this blog post and I have succeeded at last. It only took me 4 hours so cheers.