Today, it’s 11 years since my mother died. It was 2013. I started this blog in January of the following year because I wanted to write down my thoughts. Some people meditate; I write. Writing has always been my way of expression. Before, it was a diary; now, it’s a blog. I couldn’t meditate, trying to empty my head from thoughts. I’m an introvert, and my mind won’t stop thinking even during the night. Sometimes, it feels like no one cares what I write, but I still do it. It’s a bonus if someone likes what I write. Blogging should be fun, and what else to do than write about the things you like to do or things you want to share. Since my parents have passed away, who else should I tell my thoughts to, if not through blogging?
Next year, I have to remember my dad’s death day, too. Time goes fast when you think about it. Life must continue, but never stop remembering the good things that were. My parents taught me many things that are still useful to me, and I’m grateful for that.
The journey to the end of the year 2024 is going on. The year wasn’t the way I thought it would. My dad died, and that’s something I didn’t think would happen so soon. I hoped he would have lived as long as possible, but you don’t always get what you want. I didn’t think my mother would have passed away at 68 years of age. On Sunday, it’s been 11 years. You don’t think about the day your parents die when you’re younger. You only live your life, and you don’t think about it. I had classmates who lost one of their parents when they were in school, but I never thought I would lose mine as early as I did. It doesn’t matter what age you are; losing a loved one is never easy. You might as well be 5 years old. Except when you’re older, you know what it means. When I lost my big sister in 1983, I was only 6 years old, and luckily, I didn’t remember much about it. My dad used to say that I was smiling more before her death. It does change your whole life when you’re at the start of it. It’s tough, especially for the parents, to lose a child. We took a trip to Europe to get past the sorrow. We went to Germany, the Italy-Austrian Alps, Denmark and Switzerland. It was cheaper because I travelled for free. It was possible in the 1980s, and I don’t think you can do that anymore. Getting away was one way to handle grief. You get other things to think about.
I have to make my journey on Earth without them. I still have good memories of them and can always return to photos and videos. I believe things happen for a reason. When you experience life challenges, you get mentally stronger. You need to because life goes on, and you make the most of it. The loved ones want you to move on because life is for the living. There is a time and place for everything. My next journey is the Christmas cruise to Tallinn, which I’m looking forward to. It will be different without Dad. At least I don’t need to ask anyone else where to go.
What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
Daily Writing Prompt
Day 7
After my Dad died on February 8 this year, I had at least one positive event to feel optimistic about. I went to see Bryan Adams in concert in Tampere, Finland, on July 5. I bought the ticket before my Dad died, but I never got a chance to tell him. I always said where I was going, whether for education or an event. It probably didn’t matter since my Dad knew little about foreign music anyway. He didn’t mind what was playing on the radio. I got my love for music from my mother, I suppose. When she was young, The Beatles and Elvis was a big thing. My Dad always asked when I went to events or saw a movie what I would see or how it was. Now, I don’t have anyone to tell, and not even on social media people seem to have enough time or care to react. It wouldn’t be the same anyway.
I will see Bryan Adams next year because it was so much fun. He does not only play music but also interacts with the audience. This time, the concert will be in Helsinki, closer to Autumn. Next year, I’ll go to four different concerts. You only live once, so why not fill the vessel of concerts with many events in one year? The first concert is only 85 days away. If this question were asked next year, I would be able to give more positive events than today. One positive event is better than nothing at all, right?
Music is not the only positive event that I’ve attended. I’ve also been to several ice hockey games. They were fun, even if my team lost some of them. The atmosphere is always great, and you see your favourite team play. The latest positive event I attended was in Helsinki, where the photography course I’ve taken had a VIP day on November 25. Even if I’m not an entrepreneur yet, I met many of them. It was nice to see other people for a change. I’ve got a lot of new information about marketing your business: lights and wireless microphones. It was a great day.
As I wrote, the vessel to positive events will continue next year. Who knows what else will happen.
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