To be more vivid everyday

two vivid parrots
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What do you wish you could do more every day?

Daily Prompt

I have a vivid imagination when it comes to thinking about things. But if I have to write it down, it’s more complicated. It’s easier to live in your head than in real life. I wish I could be more vivid in everyday life. I wish I could get up earlier in the morning. My late mother used to say you have time to do much more during the day if you get up earlier. The problem is that I get to bed late at night. I only get up early twice a month when I travel to Helsinki for the filmmaking course. If I had a job and a reason to get up early, that would be different.

I wish I could be more excited to do made-up design projects to fill my portfolio. But my mind isn’t that vivid for that kind of stuff. It’s challenging to get ideas on your own. No one is there to tell you what you should do. There are websites where you can find made-up projects, but who has the time. I still wouldn’t have any good ideas. I try to practise Adobe programs every day. Especially Illustrator, but I wish I could stick to it too. Other things distract me, though.

Between optimist and pessimist

optimist pessimist made up arrow on road
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After a month, I’m back doing the Rag Tag Daily Prompt. I did Bloganuary, so I concentrated on those subjects. I’m an optimist that you have read this blog during that time. If you found this blog through Bloganuary, then welcome.

If someone asked what I am the most, an optimist or a pessimist. I would answer it depends on the day and what it’s about. I don’t know if there is a word describing how I think about things. I make decisions through my feelings, and if it doesn’t feel right, I don’t do it. I probably think with my gut and my head, but also what I feel in my heart. I’m a dreamer but also realistic. Some days I feel optimistic, but then there are days I feel hopeless. I try to think positively, but then negative thoughts enter my mind. I have never wanted to be like everyone else. I believe in myself. My mother said I can do anything I put my mind to. I was lucky when it came to my parents. They let me make my own decisions. They didn’t expect me to get A’s in school exams. I did my best; if I failed, it wasn’t the end of the world. In the end, grades don’t get you a job. No one will remember how much you got on that final exam or any other test.

What I’m not very optimistic about is getting a job. My mother was always worried I wouldn’t find any. She knew how it was to be unemployed, but I’m in a different situation than she was. I don’t have a family to support, for example. I also have other options if I don’t get any. I’m optimistic about finding something one day. I haven’t given up hope. Right now, I want to concentrate on my filmmaking studies. Maybe I will find something else to do besides that.

Bloganuary: My favourite kind of cake

birthday cake
My birthday cake I made myself.

I’m a sweet tooth, so I love cake. Sometimes I bake it myself, like in the photo above. Cream cakes are the best. When I was a kid, my mother baked a cake for my birthday. It had two layers and in between, there were raspberry jam and banana slices as a filling. When I’m lazy, I buy a cake from the store. But the best cream cake is something you bake yourself. It’s much work, but really tasty. Thinking about cream cakes makes my mouth water.

Last year, I didn’t have a birthday cake because I was at a Duran Duran concert. But maybe this year, I bake one again. If I have the time. I still have 4 months to think about it. I only bake cakes for special occasions. Eating vanilla ice cream and a raspberry Swiss roll is almost the same thing. Nothing beats a cake with whipped cream and canned peaches or pineapple rings on it, though. My perfect birthday cake isn’t perfect. It’s good enough for me.