I’ve never been a person who seeks attention. I’m always in the shadows looking out. I guess it’s because I’m shy. But I’m also an introvert. We don’t like being in the spotlight. I don’t even see a reason for it. I only want to be notable by a few. When I was a child I didn’t want to join groups. My mother took me to a gym class but I didn’t join the other kids. My sister was the opposite. Her hobby was gymnastics and she loved it. I didn’t feel comfortable around others. I was quite sensitive too. Even my own parents didn’t understand why. I’m just built that way. I still prefer doing things alone because then I get things done the way I’ve planned it.

I want to keep my independence. What I fear the most is losing my freedom. It would take a really special person to tide me down and I don’t see that happening. Even then I would still want to have my independence. A lot of people want to be dependent on others. They want to find companionship because they don’t want to be alone. That’s why they desperately use dating services and such. I could be wrong though. But I have standards and very picky. I actually like being alone. Life is so much more than relationships. Everyone isn’t cut for that. Some are meant to be alone. Rather that than wasting time on the wrong person. Besides, there are so many things I haven’t done yet. Another person would just be in the way.

It seems it’s a requirement to be noticed by other people. If you’re not showing your face on every social media platform, your chances are low. It goes with job search, getting friends or even getting followers on your blogs etc. On Pinterest, there’s a lot of these tips how to get followers on social media. How to sell your brand to other people. Since when have humans become products anyway. The whole concept of branding feels so alienating to me. I can’t brand myself. I want to be a nobody. I don’t want to be notable that much. I want to be notable for my writing and the things I do. By some that are. I don’t want to be famous. If I wanted to brand a business, it would be different. But now they want you to be a brand in job search too. Soon there is no room for reserved and quiet people. In job interviews, you have to be the actor/actress but without a script. I’m acted on stage before but then I knew what to do or say. I can’t be pretentious in real life. I’m not that good. My talents lay elsewhere. I rather miss an opportunity than pretend to be someone else.

People who like being notable, they should be allowed to do so. But don’t expect everyone wanting that much attention. We’re not all the same and we don’t want to be either. Being notable by a few should be enough.