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IBQ Writing Prompt: Confidence

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Confidence word destruction

In this week’s IBQ Writing Prompt, it’s about confidence.

If you’re asking me then I won’t have much confidence to tell you. I thinks that has always been my problem. If I had more confidence, I would have achieved at least something to brag about. I know I can do things but it feels like others doesn’t want to give me a chance.
In school, class mates did never really pay much attention to my skills. Maybe they just didn’t care that much. I think it was only once that I heard a compliment from someone. The teachers of course gave good grades. Especially about writing.
I was never popular. I only had one or two friends. I was never very confident about my looks. When I was a child, some thought I was a boy. That’s one of the reasons why I haven’t had short hair for years.

I get temporarily confidence. When I pick up the courage to talk to strangers, I feel confident. When I studied graphic design I got support from the teachers and class mates. That made me confident. But only for a while. I think, if I had a job, I would get more confidence. My mother used to say that the reason why I don’t have enough of courage, is because I haven’t been around people enough. And she was right. She used to be introvert when she was younger but she became more extrovert when she got older. She had a lot of different jobs and met a lot of different people. So being around other people helps to get more confidence.

I just need someone to push me forward. Someone else beside my father. Writing a blog is one way to get support and confidence. But it doesn’t have the same effect as having someone in the flesh so to speak.

If I had 3 wishes, confidence would be one of them.

The 100th Post

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That’s an achievement I thought I never would get. I just wish I wouldn’t give up so easily in real life. I didn’t even think I would write this blog that much. But thanks to different motivations, I’ve decided to keep it up.

The biggest thanks goes to all of You followers. Without you, I would have given this blog up ages ago. So thank you so much and I hope you’ll stick around. If WordPress was a human, I would give it a big hug.

 

 

Weekly Writing Challenge: Time Machine

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“Step back in time”
“Turn back the clock”
“If I could turn back time”

These are a few songs that is about turning back the time. At this weeks writing challenge it’s back in time again.

Especially today when it’s one those day when sadness takes over. This challenge really is a challenge for me. I could write this tomorrow but nothing is better than the present. Besides it’s better to write it down instead of keeping it all inside.
Sometimes everybody wishes they could turn back time. Some might think things were better then. For me it really is. I wish I could go back to my childhood. It was when things were good. We went every year to Lapland for a week to ski (that’s downhill skiing mostly) We means me, my sister and my parents. We shared a cabin with 3 other families. We always went there by car. It was a long ride. About 1000 km from southern of Finland. Me and my big sister slept, side by side in the backseat. At the time seatbelts weren’t a big thing. Of course we had breaks once in a while. We sang songs or listened to cassettes to make the time go faster. The best thing about the trip was just being together as a family. The week was so fun, it was a shame to leave.
It wasn’t just the holidays in Lapland. It was also birthdays and Christmases. Both grandmother’s were still around (never knew my grandfathers) Those were the days I wish I could go back to.

Then later my sister died (she was only 10) and things were never the same again. But death is something you can’t control. The same with time. When the time is up, the time is up.