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Life is a smorgasbord

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small chocolate cakes

Smorgasbord (a.k.a. buffet) is not only something we eat on Stockholm cruises everytime we go. It’s also life. It’s all about choices. There is a lot of them and sometimes we don’t like the choices we make. Or we don’t know what to take because everything looks tempting. The other is to have enough courage to try something new.

I wish I could be like how Anthony Bourdain was (RIP) He was never afraid to eat what he was offered. He always tried something new. I could never do it. I’m very picky about food and I’m always reserved for trying something new. Once I was brave enough to try sushi which I would never have done when I was younger. I didn’t like the food but at least I tried. I’m not only picky when it comes to food. I would want to be brave like Bourdain but with career choices. I’m probably the most indecisive person there is. I just think and think but I’m too much of coward to do anything about it.

I’ve had a lot of ideas about what I wanted to do. I was at the smorgasbord of career choices but there were just too many things I wanted. Or too many boring choices. I was too concentrated on what I wanted to do so other people have gone past me on the life train. Age is nothing but a number and it doesn’t mean experience. Some 20 years old can have more experience than me. I might have more life experience but it doesn’t mean I’ve tasted life more. In some things, I can be more experienced but not when it comes to jobs. There’s a big gap in my work history. The employers would probably think what I’ve done all my life if I hadn’t studied something. Now I still don’t have a job so some people would probably think something is wrong with me. Well, so what? No one is perfect. There’s is no time machine so I can’t go back and change my past.

There is a choice on the smorgasbord of career choices and that’s entrepreneurship. I’ve been to the course and found information of it by myself. I even have a business plan. So what am I waiting for? Mostly courage I think. It’s so hard to start anything when you have so much else to do. Maybe it’s because it’s summer and holiday season so I just wait for Autumn. The only thing I know I’ll do is the graphic design course. For now, I just want to explore the smorgasbord of freedom. I think about those other things later.

Built a bastion around me

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bastion
Fortress in Kajaani, Finland 2010

Built a bastion around me

I built myself a bastion around me

Past experiences have made me careful

I built a bastion around me so I would get less hurt

Get out of your shell but it just makes me want to build it higher

It takes a special person to break down my walls

I built a bastion to keep people away

Once you lost a trust it hard to get it back

Don’t treat people like dirt or they build a bastion of their own

Ragabash – The wolf

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howling wolf front of moon

Looking through the internet for the word ragabash I found out it’s a roleplaying game but also someone has drawn a picture of a wolf that looks like a character in a horror movie. Now wolfs are a bit of a scary thing for Finns. Some think wolfs attack humans for no reason. As soon as people see one they want to shoot it. I’ve never seen a wolf in nature, only in a zoo. No wild animal attack humans without a reason. It’s just a myth. When there were no TV people made up stories. It’s an urban myth that wolfs are dangerous to humans. Only if their provoked or the animals is sick. It’s more dangerous to walk across the street than get killed by a wolf. Any wild animal for that matter. Even big dogs that run free can attack you.

People build their homes in a middle of nowhere and they complain wild animals are taking over their territory. The wild animals were there first. If you’re scared of wild animals, you shouldn’t move to a place like that in the first place. People don’t seem to know how to put themselves in the animals place. If someone tried to threaten you, would you just stand there or offend yourself? Humans are like animals. We all want to protect our loved ones from harm or ourselves. As soon as you see a wolf or any other wild animal, you should let it be. If a wild animal enters humans territory it’s only because people have come too close. And if you leave food close by it will attract unwanted company. It seems people have lost all contact with nature so they don’t know how to behave.

It’s quite often Finns are warned of wolfs coming too close to where humans live. There’s a lot of unnecessary hysteria which is a bit too much. People are teaching their kids to be scared and that’s not the way. Wild animals are always dangerous and they should never be taken for granted. They won’t become pets because they will always have that wild instinct in them. I find wolfs fascinating and they’re really underrated. If I saw one in nature I wouldn’t be afraid because I wouldn’t disturb them. I’m more afraid of dogs than of wolfs. Like any other wild animals, they hunt for food. A shame people believe more in myths than in facts. If a wolf is attacking a human or a pet, shooting a wolf is self-defence. But if you only see one, shooting is wrong. If that the only reason, then it’s just a stupid reason. I find that so ridiculous. There’s no need for hysteria. Too much is always too much.