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I wish I had said something

Mia3 Comments

I take you back to 5th grade. The year is beside the point. I was in this class the 2nd year. I had to take 4th grade twice so I had to leave my old class. The 1st year in this new class went OK. It was the 5th that turn into hell. There was this girl who seem to have issues with me. I wasn’t bullied the way some people are. But she somehow turned the other girls against me. It was whispering behind my back and leaving me outside the group. That is one kind of bullying I guess. I could feel they didn’t want me to be around them. I was all alone. School didn’t taste good so I was rather not there. I played hooky quite a lot because of that.

Group work was the worst. I really disliked that in the future. P.E. wasn’t fun either. I don’t know why the teacher let the pupils choose which ones should be in their team. I was good at sport and yet no one wanted me in theirs. This girl was awful at it. In general she was kind of stuck up. She was one of those that never got any spots. Miss Perfect herself (that’s what I think now) She wasn’t perfect at all. She wasn’t good in Math either.
Years later, I saw her in another school. I don’t know if she recognised me or not. It doesn’t matter. She didn’t seem to be that childish anymore anyway. I didn’t go to that school that long (for a different reason). I only saw her there once. I didn’t want anything to do with her. People like her are a waste of my time. I found out years later that she had cut a school at some point and worked somewhere. She didn’t become anything special which is a bit like, ha ha, in your face.

I wish I had said something to her in 5th grade. I would have told her where to get off. The worse thing was that she couldn’t say it to my face. Instead she said something to her friend and that friend told me (that friend used to my friend. Bloody backstabber :P) She didn’t want to sit by the same table in the diner because I had spots on my face. The friend suggested I should use some cream to make them disappear. Another thing was that I had some line on my nose that she didn’t like. It was just silly reasons. I didn’t say anything but if it was happening today, I would have said something to her. I think it was more than just some imperfect feature. I’ve thought about the time and came to the conclusion, she was just jealous. Maybe because I was good at sport or good at something else. Like I wrote, it doesn’t matter. I got rid of her and I don’t care anymore.

One thing I’ve learned through that experience. I will never let anyone treat me like that again. I’m a much stronger person now that I was then. It hasn’t put me down. Maybe that experience has had some effect on me. I’m careful with whom I confide in. I’m a private person and I don’t trust people. That’s the reason I don’t blog about personal things that often. If life would only be like blogging. Edit when you haven’t said something you wish you had.

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Too good to be true

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The most absurd thing I’ve been through in my life (beside my mother’s death, which was more of a shock really) was the day I got accepted to study photography. Which starts in 8 days btw. I didn’t even think of applying when I saw the ad in the local newspaper. I was just interested about the course, so I checked it out on the internet. It was only after a few days of thinking, I decided to go for it.

The application was made online. They wanted to know the basics, what you’ve studied etc. That was easy. The most difficult was the Search Criteria. Basically you had to write why you should be the one to study there. I read carefully about what the criteria was on the school’s website. I even emailed them to ask what exactly they were looking for. Glad I did. I really wanted to get accepted. I didn’t know what else to do otherwise.

I don’t remember exactly what I wrote on the application. It’s was something about being motivated and dreams. You never know what other people are looking for. I was satisfied about what I wrote. I didn’t really believe it was good enough but I hoped. Then the wait started.

I read on a blog entry about someone who had applied to the school and after a week had already got an answer. So I waited but it didn’t take a week. I just decided to forget about it. Less you wait, less worried you get. I started to think I wouldn’t get accepted. Maybe a bit desperate even. Deep inside I had a good feeling though.

About 2 weeks later, something absurd happened. In my case it is absurd. Bad luck seems to follow me anywhere. I got accepted! I couldn’t believe it. I was so happy. I didn’t even think to apply and then that happened. It was too good to be true. When things are like that, somewhere in your mind, bells start to ring. Did I really or is it a dream? But it is real. Not everything is a hoax. If things are too good to be true, it probably is, doesn’t apply here.

It became real when they sent me the bill. It will become even more real when it starts next Thursday. I wish my mother was there to see it. She probably would think the school is too expensive but still she would be happy I get something to do. I really hope it will be useful to the future. Here’s to new possibilities