study – In my world

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Staying sharp when you have a lot of things to think about can be a little stressful. So many things must be done, so you must have a scheduling plan. I don’t write them down, though. I keep them in my head. I don’t have that many things to do, so I don’t need to. I don’t like to hurry because then things won’t be good. I do things when I feel like it. If I have something important to do, like school assignments, I might plan to do them the next day, but then I don’t. I get them done; that’s what matters.

Despite waking up early a few times a month, I’m still quite sharp in school. But then I get tired as well. I’m not a morning person, but I can wake up early if necessary. When there is school, I wake up at 4.30 am because I have to get to the train, but I wouldn’t want to do it often. When you study something interesting, you don’t get tired. For not being a morning person, I’m pretty sharp and excited in the morning. I wish I could be that when I’m at home too.

The time when I’m not sharp is when it’s something I don’t care about. Who would do something they don’t like anyway? You can’t force yourself. It must come from you and not from someone else. Some people do what others are doing. For example, they study the same thing their best friend does even if they don’t want to learn the subject. You shouldn’t be afraid to follow your own path. You’ll be happier to do so, and it keeps you sharp too.

You keep hearing and reading how important it is to study. Up to a point, it is but it doesn’t guarantee anything. In Finland, there’s a lot of different ways to study but in some occupations, there are too many educated people. Some people even have studied 3 different qualifications and still, it hasn’t helped to find a job. You study because you want a job. Education is too overrated. Where you learn best is in a job. There are things that aren’t learned in school. All the efforts of studying are wasted if you can’t find a job.

I’ve written about my former studies before in this blog. To make it short to those who are new here. I’ve studied screenplay writing, journalism, photography, graphic design and web design. I’ve studied a lot because I haven’t found the occupation that I feel comfortable with. Call me picky but I have my standards. I’ve never been driven my money. I want to do a job I like and not because it pays well. Photography was the main thing, so being a pro was in my mind for a long time. But after I studied it in Helsinki Design School, I realised I didn’t want to do it after all. I wanted more than that. I don’t know what happened to the people who studied in the same course as me. In a way, it was a disappointing education. I think most of the students there haven’t got a job because they went to that school. It’s not as highly regarded as the school themselves think. Yes, you have these pros as teachers but finding a job has a lot to do with luck.

Luck hasn’t found me when it comes to job search. You would think a healthy and skilled person would have no problems finding a job but that’s not the case. You can study all your life to become something but there must be a limit somewhere. Honestly, I’m up to here with studying. I’m not so keen to study somewhere because I know it won’t help. The latest one was web design and I thought that would open some doors but it hasn’t happened yet. I also don’t want to go to these job search courses. I’ve already been to a few. Besides, there is a lot of tips online so I don’t need courses. The problem lays where to find a suitable job. They say you should apply for any job but I can’t do that. Everybody wants to have a job in the field they’ve studied. Some people can do any job but if you got allergies, for example, your options are limited. I don’t want to study something new again. I’ve already started from the beginning several times and rather not do it again. I’m getting too old for this shit (Lethal Weapon) is becoming real each year.