Advent calendar Box 20

December 20, 2017 Mia2 Comments

Day 20 comes and I bring you good news when it comes to job search. I got a job interview! It’s in Helsinki so I need to travel for it. It could have been handled through Skype but I never used it. It’s better to meet face to face. This a great Christmas present. I don’t even mind now I didn’t get chosen to Helsinki Design School to study graphic design. A job is what I need.

I have never had a job interview in the ordinary sense. I’ve been to interviews but they’ve been for study or course. It’s easy now to be prepared but when it comes to the real thing, I might screw up. Just getting an interview is great. Even if I don’t get chosen, I can still learn from it. It’s not every day you get one. Especially if jobs in web design is limited. The job is only 7 months but that’s enough for me. Getting an interview is one thing but getting the job is another. No matter how much I prepare, it never goes the way I planned it. I might forget everything that I thought of or my answers are too short. I shouldn’t be obsessed about this. I should just go there confident. If I start to think too much, then it makes me more nervous.

Web design really is my so-called calling and I want to work with it in the future. Design in general. Getting this job interview gives me hope for 2018. This year I went through a lot but next year it really should happen something on the job front. If I won’t get it, I need another plan. But I definitely won’t give up. I’ve had enough of unemployment. When you have a job you don’t need to fight with the jobcentre and you don’t need to apply for social benefits. However, the next goal is to get through the job interview and worry about other things later.

Advent calendar Box 19

December 19, 2017 Mia2 Comments

Every introvert can relate to this question. Why are you so quiet? There are reasons why we are but why do we need to explain it? Loud people don’t question themselves why they’re loud. Introverts don’t need to explain anything. People should really keep that question to themselves. We all can’t be loud, can we? Some of us need to think. The world has too much noise anyway. If someone is an introvert, let them be. There is no need to tell us.

You might just as well ask why some people wear certain clothes. Why they listen to certain music? Why some don’t care about certain things? And so on. Why is introversion such a problem for some? Even if they don’t mean to hurt your feelings, it still feels like it’s not acceptable to be quiet. When I was younger, some thought I’m quiet at home too. Well, I’m not. I have manners in public and I don’t need to be loud to feel good about myself.

Introverts don’t think they’re quiet. At least not me. I’m as loud as I can me, in my head. When someone says how quiet I am, I don’t have time to think what to reply so I don’t say anything. I don’t get upset at the person though. I usually start to think about it much later. I have a lot of those ‘I wish I would have said that’ situations. Or like last night when I started to think about this. I have a lot of thought so if I had a conversation with someone, they couldn’t keep up. My subjects change rapidly in my head. Besides, the best conversations happen in my mind.

If someone asked me why I’m quiet, I could tell them a lot of reasons. I only talk when I have something to say. If no one asks questions I won’t say anything. Why I’m also quiet is because the subjects people talk about doesn’t interest me or I can’t relate to it. Why would I talk about something I don’t know anything about? I hate it when other people do it. If you don’t know what you’re really talking about, then you shouldn’t pretend you do. It will only make you look silly. People who really know me don’t think I’m quiet. You should really see me in my comfort zone. I’m not only an introvert but I’m also a Gemini. I’ve got two kinds of personalities. I don’t show emotion in public and when I do, it’s real.

We all should really stop categorising other people. In the end, we’re all human and we all do mistakes. You should accept introverts as much as extroverts. Not forgetting ambiverts. We should work together and not against. Why can’t we just all get along? We’re only here a short period of time and we should make the most if it, in harmony.