My short-lived excitement

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When I feel the excitement of something it’s usually short-lived. I don’t know why. Maybe because my mind is all over the place. I’m never doing things with a passion. I have so many things I like so it’s difficult to choose just one to concentrate on. I get excited about one thing and then I realise it’s not what I want so it dries out. In some things, I get the excitement back after a break. One of them is reading. I got excited about getting a library card and read books. But now my excitement for book reading has calmed down. I have one book to read but I haven’t finished it yet even though there’s not much left. It’s the English version of ‘The Hobbit’ I have the Finnish version of it and I read it in about 3 days and I have already read it twice. I don’t why this one takes so long to read. I already renewed it once. I read one chapter yesterday. I guess I’m just a slow book reader and I get distracted a lot.

Having a short-live excitement is the worse when it comes to deciding what job to do. Photography was on my agenda for a long time. Until I studied it in 2014-2015 and realised I didn’t want to do it as a living. I got excited for web design and then graphic design but now it feels like I’m indifferent about that too. Even becoming an entrepreneur entered my mind but now the excitement isn’t the same. It’s still a backup plan though. I applied for a job that isn’t in my field but it seems that won’t happen either. It seems destiny is denying me to become anything. It gives and takes it away straight away.

One proof of my excitement being short-lived is writing this blog post. When I started writing it about 2 hours ago, I had full of ideas but now I don’t know what to write. All of that excitement is gone and it will stop right here.

At the libary for once

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The entry to the library in my town. It was founded in the 1860s

I haven’t been to the library in recent years. I’ve been there but I haven’t got a library card for ages. Not until last week that is. I don’t read books that much but these days you can borrow almost anything from a library. You don’t even need to look for the books in person. You can do that online and let others find them for you. All you need is to pick them up. Of course, when you find it yourself you get the touch and see the book. Or whatever you borrow. When I was a kid I used to go to the library more often. Today I’m just lazy to go. We’ll see how things will go now when I have a library card again.

I do read books from time to time but it’s books about real life rather than fiction. I prefer borrowing books more than buying them. I would never even have time to read all those books. I haven’t even watched some of my DVD’s or Blu-rays. I could soon almost own my own library at home with all the CDs and other discs I have. I wouldn’t have a library with books. It would be about movies, TV shows and music. They say reading books is good for you but my patience is too short. I’ve tried to read ‘Lord of the rings’ a couple of times and I still haven’t finished it. It’s so much easier to watch the movie. I really admire people who read books because I’m bad at it. I’m easily distracted. The last book I read was ‘The Hobbit” I’ve already read it twice. Short books like that are easier to read. I don’t really know why I’m not into fiction books because I used to read them when I was younger. I’ve read biographies or books about photography. That kind of books keeps my interests up. Other times I do something else besides reading books.

I’m more into writing than reading. You can still develop your imagination without reading books. You read all the time. If it’s the news or insights of other people. I’ve seen a lot of movies and I also studied screenplay writing so that way I’ve also practised my imagination. I don’t understand some people complaining about movie adaptions. Like when Lord of the rings movies was out. “It’s not in the books. It’s not in the books” complains. Of course not. The movie is the imagination of the writers and the director. You can’t put everything in a movie. If it’s straight from a book, the movies will take forever. Any books. Making movies also cost money and it take times to do them as well. When you read a book, it’s from your imagination. But when it’s made into a movie, it’s someone else imagination. Of course, you can’t please everyone. If you prefer reading books to watching movies then it’s your choice.

Next time when I go to the library I will try to find a novel that I’m actually gonna finish. I’m not into books with a small font because that’s something I know I’ll never read to the end. It doesn’t matter how good it might be. Books with a small print stay in the library. What’s the point with a library card if you don’t use it, heh? So I will try to make a habit of it.

Balm for the wounds

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Back online on the computer. You get a lot of things undone when you don’t have internet connection on your computer. When you get it back it’s a balm for the wounds. There are so many things you need to do online so you can’t really do much when it doesn’t work. Like paying bills or sending important documents and that kind of stuff. Internet is not only for fun, you know. When you can’t get online, spam gathers in your email inbox as well.

Another balm to your wounds is watching movies and especially when there’s a lot of extra footage. That’s what The Hobbit DVD’s has. I’ve already seen them but watching them again it feels like I haven’t really seen them. I know I have but it still feels like a new thing. Actually, there is only one I haven’t seen and that was about Thranduil. The reason is Lee Pace. That man is so gorgeous and especially that smile of his. Um, I was saying. Watching those behind the scenes footages I taught me a lot about movie making. I have some experience of that from school but that was nothing compared to the movie-making business. Movies, in general, is a great balm for the wounds. One of the reasons why I buy DVD’s and Blu-rays are for the extra footage in them. You don’t get that from Netflix or any other place like that. Unless someone had downloaded them on Youtube.

Probably the strongest balm to your wounds is music. It has helped me get through happy and tough times. When my mother died, listening to music was the cure. Especially Duran Duran. Without them, grieving would have been much harder. I can even concentrate better when there’s music is in the background. If there would be silent I would be listening to the smallest sounds and nothing would get done. Everyone should have a balm that makes them feel better. If reading a book is your thing, you should do that. Any balm to your soul and inner peace is good. As long as it’s healthy so smoking and drinking is not an option.