Day 24. Sometimes I remember my dreams, but they disappear from the mind after a while. I usually dream about places I’ve been to and people I used to know. Before we buried my mother, she used to appear in them. After we did, they disappeared. But I still see her in my dreams. My dreams are also quite strange from time to time. They are in two parts. First, they’re in one place, and suddenly the scenes change. Sometimes they don’t make sense. I own a book about dreams and their meanings. Sometimes I look at it, but that’s only for fun. My dreams have no special meaning. Sometimes when I sleep, I don’t see any dreams. At least not what I remember.
Some people might hear talking in their dreams, but it’s only visual for me. Before I got a driver’s license, I used to have dreams where I drove a car, but I couldn’t find the breaks. The car went really fast. It was quite an awful dream. I don’t have premonition dreams, but this one came true. Last November, I drove on the highway. Suddenly, the gas pedal got stuck to the floor. My heart was beating fast, and it was so scary. Fortunately, there wasn’t any traffic. I carefully put on the break, and it slowed down. My dad was with me, so at least I wasn’t alone. The pedal got stuck in traffic once too. At least I didn’t crash into anyone. The mat on the floor had got under the gas pedal, which was why it got stuck.
I’m usually the spectator in my dreams, and no one sees me. It’s alright if it’s only an ordinary dream. But if it’s a dream about someone I like, I’m a little disappointed. But once, I had a dream where the person did see me, and we even spoke. It was about actor Tom Hiddleston.
I was in some public bathroom brushing my teeth with toothpaste, and he was there too. I said to him “I really hate toothpaste” (which I do in real life) He said something to me, but I don’t what. He was really nice to me.
It was a weird dream, but I was so happy he saw me. I wish I remembered what he said, though. That would have been even better. I have seen a dream about him later too, but it was from afar. Having a good dream after a night sleep makes you feel good the rest of the day. Having a bad dream makes you feel the opposite. Hopefully, I don’t see them very often. It would be nice if you could save your dreams somewhere, but that’s an impossible dream.
Today British actor Tom Hiddleston turns the big 40. It feels a bit weird that someone you don’t know personally is in the same age as you. Well, I’m still older, though. I turn 44 in June. When I turned 40, I thought, wasn’t I just 35. At 40, you realise how fast the time has gone. You have a history behind you, but also a future in front of you. My 40s is different from he’s 40. For one, he’s male and a famous actor. Actually, anyone else in their 40s has more experience than me. In everything in life. So age doesn’t really matter. It’s just that when a woman is 40, they’re old. But when a man is 40, it’s no big deal. You hear men get better with age. But you never hear that about women. It’s better to be a woman though because, well, you get to like men like Tom. Someone like me will never get someone like him though. Life is like high school where the popular person wouldn’t look at the shy and ‘ugly’ one that way.
Getting older is not always a good thing. Especially when you’re a woman, and you’re single without a job. Other people probably wonder why. Maybe there is something wrong with you. Well, no one is perfect. Even those who you think are, but everyone does have flaws. If you’re famous or just an ordinary person. When you’re young, you don’t think about age. Not until you become older. Age seems to be a problem for some people. You’re either too young or too old. The older you get, the less you care what others think. Answering the question, maybe there is something wrong with you. Yes, there is. I don’t have enough job experience, and I have never been popular among boys/men. But I don’t really see that as a problem. There are a lot of things I missed, but you can’t go back. You can’t miss something you never had. There is just so much more in life than trying to impress other people. Some people have goals to have a family one day, but it’s not my life. Other people’s personal lives are no concern of mine. Even famous ones. I have other things to think about. If I kept thinking about other things than my own life, I wouldn’t have time to do anything else. I don’t like drama. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I can’t even say to a person when they act wrongly without shaking inside.
That was enough about me.
Welcome Tom Hiddleston to the 40s club. I still love you no matter what age 😉 Have some cake 🙂
Next Tuesday (June 2) I turn 43. But age is nothing but a number. For some people birthdays can be embarrassing or they rather not make a big number of their age. Then there are these age crisis things. I didn’t have a 30 years crisis and not 40 years either. I had it at 25. I didn’t do anything special. I only felt I was useless and felt I hadn’t done anything I wanted to. Now I don’t care. You’re only as old as you feel. Other people’s opinions about your age don’t matter. I wouldn’t want to be in any other age because now I have the knowledge I didn’t have when I was younger. Instead of being outdoors in the warm and sunny weather, I made this list.
To ‘celebrate’ my birthday, here are various questions I found online. Trying to find 43 questions wasn’t easy. Most of the questions are from this site. It’s quite a long read so don’t rush it.
Some boring questions first
What is your full name? Mia Eva-Stina Salminen
What is your height? 5’7″ last time I checked
What is your favourite colour? Blue and purple
Sexual orientation? Straight but why label it? You are what you are. I respect all sexualities because, in the end, we’re all human.
What colour are your eyes and hair? Dark blue eyes. The hair colour depends if it’s clean or not. It also gets darker with age. When I was a child it was blonde. Maybe it’s more light brown these days.
This is where it gets more interesting
What TV shows are you into? I’m mostly into old TV shows and especially comedies. A lot of TV shows have ended and I haven’t found anything new to watch. I’m a fan of Game of Thrones and Prison break. I also like game shows like ‘Who wants to be a millionaire?’ I hate most of the reality shows. Or cheating shows as I call them.
Where would you rather be from? If I wasn’t from Finland it would either be Sweden or the UK. But I love Finland the best so I wouldn’t want to change it.
What movies do you like? As in TV shows, I love comedies. Jim Carrey is one of my favourites. I also love Lord of the rings trilogy and no matter what others might think, The Hobbit trilogy. There are a lot of movies I’ve seen several times so I don’t have an absolute favourite.
What job would you be terrible at? Anything that has to do with Math. I’m not very good with numbers. I also would be a terrible teacher. You need patience in that and I would just get upset at the student.
What skill would you like to master? I wish I could be better at making websites but I hate coding. There are of course ready themes but apparently, you shouldn’t use them. I also wish I was better at graphic design.
What takes up too much of your time? Being online. Also sleeping too long. I never have time to do anything because I sleep late.
What mystery do you wish you knew the answer to? Why certain people have to urge to act stupid. Especially young people. I also wonder why some people believe in stereotypes. I also can’t believe there is still racism around.
What do you consider to be your best find? The best find is that I finally know what I want to do for a living. It’s just that I don’t know if I ever be good enough.
What fictional character do you really wish would exist? If I said Loki, would you hold him against me? In a way, he already does. Not with that name but there already are divas who wanted attention because they didn’t get it at home the way they wished.
What popular TV show or movie do you refuse to watch? I refuse to watch reality shows like Love Island or Big Brother. I don’t care about other people problems. A movie I refuse to watch is ‘American Psycho’ with Christian Bale. Even though he’s one of my favourite actors. That movie is so creepy so no thank you.
What is the most impressive thing you know how to do? I don’t if it’s impressive but I can make up tunes with the recorder by just listening.
What game or movie universe would you most like to live in? Lord of the rings without all that war. I would live in Rivendell. It one beautiful places in that universe.
If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time? What I do now. Blogging, writing fiction, cycling, watch movies, eat candy/sweets etc.
What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives? Live in solitude somewhere where there are no other people around and only the birds singing.
What’s something you’ve been meaning to try but just haven’t gotten around to it? Entrepreneurship but the work to find paying clients is the reason why I don’t start. The other thing is not being confident enough about my skills.
If you were dictator of a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do? Not crazy but healthy. All smokers are not allowed and no drunk people either. Or too noisy people.
What is something that a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don’t get the point of? Fashion in general and people using toe sandals. Especially men, such a turn-off. The same with Crocs. Yuck.
What irrational fear do you have? Hating needles. That’s one reason why I don’t donate blood. Some might not think it’s nothing to be afraid of but just the thought of a needle is distressing.
Have you ever given to any charities? No, I don’t have that kind of money. I’ve been to two charity football matches though so in a way I have.
What’s the last adventure you went on? When I studied graphic design in Helsinki last year. I travelled there alone twice a month. That is an adventure in my eyes. Also walking or cycling outside is an adventure in itself.
What is something you will NEVER do again? Eat sushi. I tasted it once but I didn’t like it. I don’t know how somebody can. But we all have different tastes.
What do you hope your last words will be? “I wish I could have seen him” OK, that’s a quote from Lord of the rings. Maybe my last words would be “I have a million euros in a deposit box and the code is….” Then I die. There isn’t any money though 😆
What’s the best thing you got from your parents? To be myself and have respect for others.
What’s the best and worst thing about getting older? The best thing is that you’re wiser and the worst people think you’re getting too old.
What is something you are certain you’ll never experience? A personal thing. I’ll never get to experience passionate love. Someone who likes you the way you are and don’t expect for you to be like everyone else. Someone who can’t stay away from you. I know I’ll never have that and especially with certain men. That’s all I’m saying about that.
What is something that your friends wouldn’t believe was true about you? I have a dirty mind. Even if I don’t have personal experiences about a certain thing, I can still imagine it.
If you could make one rule that everyone had to follow, what rule would you make? Be nice to others and don’t judge before you get to know a person.
If you could have a video of anyone in your life, what event would you choose? My mother, my sister and both of my grandmothers when they were all alive. Especially Christmas.
If you had a clock that would countdown to any one event of your choosing, what event would you want it to countdown to? I already have. A countdown to Elton John’s concert in September. But we’ll see if it will happen.
Have you had any pets and what’s your favourite pets? Never had any pets because my sister was allergic. I’ve always liked bunnies. It was the only animal I wasn’t afraid of.
What are you addicted to? Certain male voices. And music.
Have you met any celebrities? Finnish one’s only. I never meet any foreign celebrities. Ski jumper Janne Ahonen. I got his autograph. And TV presenter Roope Salminen. He’s a big star in Finland and so down-to-earth.
Have you ever been to the hospital? Visited and been a patient. My big sister was ill a lot so I never liked hospitals. Luckily I’ve only been twice as a patient.
Last but not least
If you were a super-hero, what powers would you have? Mind control or moving around unseen. Maybe both.
What’s the tallest building you’ve been to the top in? Ski jumping tower in Lahti, Finland.
Who is your hero? It varies. It’s more about actions than a person. There are people I admire, like actors but also normal people. My parents can be heroes. The went through a lot and still managed. They were married for at least 40 years before my mother died.
What song always gets you out on the dance floor? I don’t like dancing. Not the song by that band I can’t remember the name of right now. I just don’t like dancing. I rather watch others dance.
What’s your guilty pleasure? Like Tom Hiddleston once said. Something like. My guilty pleasure is not having a guilty pleasure. I would say I do have pleasures but I don’t feel guilty about them. I don’t pretend to like something I don’t like.
If you got this far then bravo. You deserve a big hug. Thank you for reading.