You infected me with Hiddlestoner

proud hiddlestoner textBefore everything was fine. There were no distractions. At least not this kind. Then I got infected with Hiddlestoner. Fandom of British actor, Tom Hiddleston. Every person in a fandom is different. A different perspective. For some, it can just be someone they admire or look up to. Then there are those who want to marry them. Of course, that’s just a fantasy. It won’t come true. Besides that kind of thoughts disappear as soon as they meet a person in real life. Being a fan is not only for teenagers. On Urban Dictionary there is kind of funny description of what a Hiddlestoner is. Some people can take it a bit too far but as long as it’s only harmless fun no harm done.

I wouldn’t really feel comfortable calling myself a real Hiddlestoner. I don’t go searching for info or photos of him. They just happen to appear somewhere. Mostly on Pinterest these days. Somethings I don’t want to know.  Like his personal life because that’s not my business. It feels a bit weird being called a fan because he’s so much more than an actor to me. Sometimes I wish he could just be someone you meet in a normal situation. Then again if he was just a so-called ordinary person, I wouldn’t know about him. Let’s face it, you won’t find a person like him on the street. Especially in my country. He wouldn’t even notice me, actor or not. So it wouldn’t really matter what the situation would be. How does anyone really know what he’s really like? Maybe it’s just good branding. Be nice and charming and the admires will come. I’m not saying it’s all an act. I did fall for that same “marketing strategy” A lot later but still.

I see a lot of these “oh he’s so perfect” Sorry but he’s not. No one is. In interviews, he only tells you what he wants you to know. Anyone have their flaws so he’s no different from the rest of us. Famous people, in general, are put up on a pedestal and people see them as “perfect” But they’re still human but a lot of money to spend. A lot of these fangirls of Tom probably think everything he does or says is perfect. Not even his acting is perfect. That’s a part you can improve in though. He might look perfect but still not totally flawless. I do admit it was his appearance I noticed first. I actually didn’t even know how he looked like until I saw the video on Youtube with the Sesame Street’s Cookie Monster. I knew about Loki but I hadn’t cared about Marvel movies at all. After I saw ‘The Night Manager’ I knew there was no turn back. So thank you, Tom, for destroying another life.

 

Abrupt for a moment

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On Facebook there is a section called ‘Did you know’ There are random questions you can answer. You can also add questions yourself. So if I could abrupt you for a moment. I’ve collected 20 question below. It’s quite long so be prepared. So here we go, as The Joker says in ‘The Dark Knight’

1. The person I’d love to invite to my birthday party is…
Quite convenient because my birthday is in a month. I wouldn’t have a party. Maybe a party for two and that would definitely be with Tom Hiddleston 😉 And/Or Lee Pace.

2. Beard or no beard?
It really depends on the man. I prefer stubble the most though.

3. If I could be famous for anything, it would be…
A web designer or photographer.

4. I’ve never been able to correctly say the word…
Photographer. It always sounds quite awful when I say it out loud. Failure is also a difficult word to pronounce.

5. A dream trip of mine is…
New Zealand. Since I saw Lord of the rings. It’s quite expensive so it might never happen.

6. My favourite sport(s) to watch…
Ice hockey and tennis. I haven’t watched the latter lately though. I’ve seen ice hockey live a lot of times. The atmosphere is amazing.

7. If you want to make me happy, just give me…
Chocolate. Dark mostly would be good. It can be Toblerone or Finnish chocolate from Fazer.

8. I’d love to be an expert in…
I’m not really an expert in anything so it would be nice to be great at something. Probably in web design or something else creative.

9. When I can’t sleep, I think about…
A lot of things which is the reason I can’t sleep

10. I’m a huge fan of…
Music, movies, crime shows, British comedy.

11. I feel faint when…
When I see Tom Hiddleston and Lee Pace. It’s not just their appearance but also their personalities.

12. I deserve the award for…
My tolerance for idiots. They seem to be everywhere.

13. For me, there’s no better therapy than…
Writing. Fiction and blogging. Music is also helpful.

14. My first scare was…
I saw a real moose when I was 2 years old.

15. If I could bring anyone back to life, I would bring back…
My mother and my sister. Things would be different if they had been around a bit longer.

16. Thanks to the Internet, I have been able to…
Meet people from different parts of the world. That’s cheaper than travelling.

17. My hidden talent is…
I can make different sounds and talk in accents. Or some kind of accent that is. It might not sound real but still.

18. The subject that I was bad at in secondary school was…
Math and I still do. I had remedial teaching but that didn’t help much. I have a mild dyscalculia so numbers can be confusing. Especially when it comes to counting. I have to think really hard so I rather not do Math at all because it just stresses me out.

19. If I found myself on a desert island, I would like to be with…
Shall I say it again? OK, Tom Hiddleston and/or Lee Pace.

20. A good excuse for eating ice cream is…
Every excuse is good. I eat ice cream all year around. But of course in the summer when it’s hot, it’s the best reason.

In the shelter of my heart

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Blog title from ‘Shelter’ by Duran Duran

I get weak but I never faint. Even when I fell off my bike and fractured my elbow some years ago, I didn’t faint. I could have but luckily I didn’t. It would have been a bit embarrassing if I had. I was out in public at the time. There are people who can be so nervous so they faint. I had a classmate who did that when we rehearsed for a performance in 3rd grade. I don’t know if he was nervous though. When you faint it’s because of lack of oxygen in the brain. Sometimes I do feel like I could faint but that’s only because of certain people who I find desirable.

Yesterday when I was at the movies watching Thor: Ragnarok, I could have fainted of all the beauty on the screen. Well, Loki. I laughed so hard too, I could have fainted. Luckily I was sitting down. Actually, everything Tom Hiddleston does makes me want to faint.

Some people faint when they see blood. Even if needles scare me, I never feel weak when I see one. Uncomfortable, yes but that’s about it. Since I have never fainted, I don’t know how it feels. I hope I never experience it either.