It’s sabotage to get told what to do

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Do this and you get that. If you don’t do what you are told you will get into trouble or don’t get anything. It’s sabotage to get told what to do with your own life. Not just your life but other things you do. Or don’t do. I don’t really have a point in this post. All I know is what sabotage is when you want to be yourself but is not allowed to. People should have the right to be whatever sexuality they are without having to announce it to the world. But some people have the urge to know everything about everyone. I don’t get this “getting out of the closet” when someone announces they are gay or any other sexuality. Straight people never have to announce they’re straight. What’s up with that? Isn’t it because it’s “normal”? And why are gay people living in a closet? I guess there is so much prejudice so people are embarrassed to be different when it shouldn’t be. Some people have attitude problems towards certain people. I don’t know how people like that can live with themselves. I welcome everyone no matter who they are. As long as they’re nice people. Negative and disrespectful people don’t have a place in my life.

Some things feel like sabotage. Like job search. I did get again a message “Thanks for replying but you’re not chosen” for that packaging thing I mentioned in this post. When then, I wonder. They probably chose someone in their 20s. Well, I didn’t want it that bad anyway. That thought makes me feel less worthless. Not that I feel worthless. Some people are embarrassed they’re unemployed so they don’t tell many people. I’m not that fussy. If people think I’m lazy, let them. I’m in my 40s and I should find a job much easier than someone in their 50s. Easier, not easy. But I guess my resume isn’t “sexy” enough. They said you should apply for jobs outside your own field. I did but I didn’t get anywhere. So there goes that theory. At least I can tell the jobcentre I did apply for a job. I don’t know if I should tell them about the graphic design education in Helsinki Design School though. It’s been a while since that ended so maybe not. Why does job searching make me feel so old? I have a lot of energy left but there are too many gaps in my resume. Educations are worth nothing.

Sometimes it feels like sabotage in social media. It’s like someone have said, “don’t like or post anything to that person” Which is just paranoia. I’m no one famous and not many know me on social media. I don’t know why I don’t get that many likes and such. Even on this blog, I don’t get as many likes I used to. Are my blog posts uninterested? Have I told everything and my posts are repeating themselves? Questions like that entered my mind. It really depends on what I write about. On Twitter, I get likes when TV programs are on. Or if it’s tweeting about Formula One. But if I share a blog post or tweet about something else, then I don’t get any. I will never get thousands of likes anywhere but I’m not expecting that either. Some people do anything to get likes to their posts and then they get on the news. ‘This person got 500 00 likes in an hour’ And then the photo they’ve posted isn’t even anything special. People just like weird things. If I posted something like that, it probably wouldn’t even get noticed. Then again I’m just assuming. My motives for social media is different from others. I don’t seek big audiences. It’s the quality that matters.

You can also sabotage your own future by doing crimes. Or even post drunk photos on social media. I don’t know why people do that in the first place. Who wants to see that kind of photos anyway. Know one wants to hire a boozer or even be friends with one. Drunk people are boring as well. Some people think if you don’t smoke and drink you don’t know how to have fun. Well, you can sabotage your own health and your future as much as you want. But I don’t want to live my life that. It’s just isn’t my kind of fun and it has never been. I find parties boring and a waste of energy. I rather stay home alone and do something by myself. If that sounds boring then so be it. Sabotage my solitude then you can think again. Just saying.

Not fishing for compliments

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Social media is a big part of our lives. People are always fishing for compliments. If it’s likes to a photo on Instagram or a video on Youtube. Just a mention a few. But not all of us are ‘victims’ of this popularity contest. Of course, it’s always nice that you get noticed by other people but that’s not the reason you post of social media or in blogging. Having the freedom to post your ideas or showing something to others, if it gets likes or not, is good enough. Social media is for everyone and not only for those who want attention.

Personally, social media hasn’t given me what I hoped for. It’s just been a tool and that’s what it really is. You read about people finding work via social media. Or at least how to get noticed by employers. But I guess it’s just luck and I have none. I mostly use Twitter and Facebook. I don’t really care about other social media platforms. I only use Instagram occasionally because I only have a tablet and isn’t any good. I watch other peoples post but hardly post myself. I tried to post via a computer but I didn’t get any likes so I wonder if anyone even saw it. When I post there I do get some likes but nothing newsworthy.

I prefer blogging over all those social media platforms. Most of them are superficial. In blogging, you can go deeper into your thoughts. My blog isn’t media sexy but it’s not supposed to either. I’ve written about it before but I say it again. I always wanted to have a different blog from the others out there. There is already enough of these food, fashion and lifestyle blogs. I leave those for people who actually know something about it. All kinds of blogs are needed because their written by different people and have different views on the matters. This is my 6th year of blogging. The first year in 2013 was short so I don’t count that. A lot has happened then. Not bad for someone with a “boring life”. I’ve been in WordPress over 10 years which I wrote about the 10 anniversary here. I’ve learned a lot since I started. Went from free to personal plan, is one change. And of course, people have found this blog, so thank you. So blogging has given me so much more than any social media ever have. I don’t need to fish for compliments, I let my writing do the talking.