Before I began studying web design, coding was all a blur to me and still is but not as much as it was before.
Tag: web design
My great expectations
I’m my worst critic. I’ve never completely satisfied with the things I do. You don’t see it on the outside. It’s a constant struggle. I’m too modest and I expect too much. That’s one of the reasons why I’ve studied different things. I get excited of one thing and when I see it wasn’t what I expected, I move on to the next one. Sometimes I wish I was more adventurous so I could stick to one subject for a longer time. I’m like a kid lost in the supermarket. There’s so many things I like but I can’t find what I’m really looking for. Everything looks good but then my great expectations kicks in and I get lost again. It’s easy to know what you don’t want.
There are a lot of different advice how to find your niche online. But it’s easier said than done. At least for me. If it’s finding a career you want to have or what you’re blog is gonna be about. It has taken a lot of time for me to find it. A lot of other people in my age already have a career and a family. I’ve been stuck in a rut and it doesn’t help I’m getting older each year. The closer I get to be something, I fail. The consolations are that there are a lot of people who had found their niche in an older age. You don’t need to be 30 and have everything figured out. You should also never compare your life to others. We all walk different paths. Our views change too. The people I knew when I was in school, probably doesn’t have anything in common with me anymore. I wouldn’t even want to find out what they do these days. Their not part of me anymore, if they never did. I don’t expect them to care either. I rather meet new people than stay in touch with the old ones.
I know in what kind of environment I want to work in and with what kind of people. If I could I would rather be by myself without having to go anywhere. But then again I want to have people around from time to time. It’s a bit of this and bit of that. Being indecisive is no picnic. I really envy those who know what they want. I’m no go getter, I’m the one who prefer being in the background. I’m too lazy to work hard.
That’s what I’ve noticed while studying. There are a lot of work to be done before this education is over and I haven’t even started yet. It feels to overwhelming and it shouldn’t be so difficult. Quite a few of other students in my class have quit for whatever reason. But I’ve come this far and I’m not about to give up. I should really get a grip of myself, like my mother used to say. I should find a client for the next on the job learning but I haven’t even thought about it. I thought I had so much time but it’s getting closer. Actually I thought there was much more time to do any of the assignment we got. I’ve just been to busy doing other things. One thing I’ve at least done, was getting an own domain and a web hosting service where I can make my portfolio website. At least I’ve done something.
Maybe I finally find my niche in web design. At least I don’t feel mentally bored. I actually quite enjoyed what I’ve learned and working with a client (even if it was through email) It wasn’t easy because of the coding stuff and I got a fed up but I managed to make the client satisfied. I don’t know if web design will become my job but I know I don’t want to be unemployed when I graduate. Web design is not only designing websites, you also get to do other creative stuff. I get to exploit my past education so it hasn’t all been in vain. I hope this is not one of my great expectations because I don’t want to be disappointed in myself again. I really need to jump off the spinning wheel. The sooner, the better.
A simple life?Yeah right
Why are things made so difficult? Why can’t this life be a simple one? Even on WordPress, you need to click several times to get to the dashboard. It was so much better before. I like simple things. What I learned in the web design education, a visitor shouldn’t need to click and search for things on a web site and that’s what WP is doing. Going to the Reader should be under one click like it was before. Now you need to click twice to get somewhere. But you get used to things but yet it should be done as simply. When I make web sites I do them as simple as possible. You can still have a great web site even if it looks simple.
If you apply for a job, you have to convince others that you’re good enough to be chosen. But that’s not good enough. You need all these diplomas and degrees to show that you can do something. It’s not enough that you tell and show them what you’re good at. Of course there are others who apply for the job too. A person who does have all these degrees probably can’t do the job but yet they get it. It shouldn’t be so difficult. You’re good at something and boom you’re hired. But they want to do things the hardest way. I could do a lot of different jobs but I still can’t find anything. Before you could just walk in to a company to ask for a job but now you have to send applications. That’s another difficult thing to do. Why can’t it be anything simple instead?
Nothing is free. You have to work to get somewhere in life. You live and learn. The older you get, more difficult it is. Learning new things at 16 and learning at 40 something is totally different. It take much longer but you can still learn. If things were simple, anyone could do it. I used to hate to going the unemployment center and other places like that. I was always so nervous so I kept going through my head what could go wrong. I wish it would have been easier for me but I made it much worse than it was. Now you don’t have to go anywhere and I wish there was internet when I was younger. Everything is online but it’s not simple there either. You need to sign in and remember passwords. You can’t have simple words because of security reasons.
Why is it so hard to write a blog post? I had ideas to write this but when I started writing, all the ideas disappeared. I want a simple mind but instead I get distracted by something else. Sometimes I wish I had a one-dimensional brain so I could stick one road of thoughts. Some have a train of thought. I have a road. It goes straight but sometimes I get sidetracked. I can listen to a person and then I start to think about something else during a conversation. I’ve worked on that for years. It got better as I got older but I still notice I lose interest after a while. My life has never been simple and I think the reason is that I made it difficult. Life is what you make it and something simple can feel harder than it is. At least I manage to do simple things some people can’t.
In my world 