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My worst critic is me

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Have you ever thought you can’t do something no matter how hard you try? When things don’t go the way you plan it, you give up. No? Then it’s just me then. I’m my worst critic. My mother used to say I can do it but I’m haven’t been that confident. I know I can do things if I put my mind to it but I’m too critical of myself. Maybe I’m a bit of a perfectionist. You don’t see that in my daily life though. My flat is a mess. It’s more in my mind. Everything doesn’t need to be perfect. Except for paintings on the wall. A crooked picture is really disturbing.

Sometimes when I write fan fiction I feel satisfied with my work. But other people don’t give any criticism so I don’t know how to get better. I get likes and all that but I never get any real feedback. Not even any reactions. If I read my stories as another person, I would have a lot to say about the stories. People never think the same I do. I shouldn’t compare myself with other fan fiction writers but they seem to get more comments than I do. I wouldn’t even say they’re better at it. It depends on what you write about and who. I still will write and post my stories despite that. When I read my old stories, I do see I’ve got better. That’s what matters the most, that you see it yourself. Other people don’t need to tell me. Writing is probably the only thing I’m not critical of myself.

The same goes with photography. I hardly get any deep analysis online. A like or two but hardly any comments. Am I suppose to notice it myself if I got better? It makes me think if my photography is even any good or are they the same as any other. I should be satisfied with what I think about my skills and not about what other think. Once I got feedback but the person wasn’t even an expert on photography. They said they could have taken a photo like that. But it does take out the excitement out of photography when you hear a negative comment like that. I wanted to become a pro but now my thoughts have changed so I’m less critical of myself in that field. I’m torturing myself sometimes that I can’t get the photo I want. I’m the worst critic and I’m never satisfied with the outcome. If someone likes a photo, it’s only then I’m happy.

Once you get that “I can’t do it” you start to think you can’t. How would you know if you don’t try it? What I’ve learned through the years is when you fail, you try again. If that doesn’t work, try something else. Being critical of yourself helps you trying harder to get better at what you do. You’re never ready and learning new things keeps life interesting.

Tallenna

Tallenna

To memorize old blog posts

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I’ve been blogging for about 4 years nonstop now so there’s a lot of posts published. 651 posts to be exact. That’s so many that I don’t even remember what I’ve written. Trying to memorize what the subjects have been is the most difficult. Sometimes it feels like I’ve written about something before. You would think people think I’m suffering from memory loss or even worse, dementia. But then I realise people can’t remember everything either. There’s so many things you have to memorize. Our brains are not computers that can store a lot of information. In the end it doesn’t matter if things are coming up again. Good things are worth repeating. Besides new followers probably won’t even read post that are years old. What matters the most is the present.

In the beginning I didn’t really know what I wanted to write about so I wrote just about anything. But then I narrowed the subject down. I still don’t really know what my niche is. I don’t really want to be categorize in any special genre. Writing and blogging is just a hobby and my goal is not to get popular. I’ve written before somewhere that if I get at least one who can relate to my posts, then I’ve done something right. Sharing is caring like The Daily Post slogan is. I share my thoughts and experiences which has been the mainly thing on this blog. I wouldn’t call it a personal blog either since I don’t write anything too personal. I’m not good at giving advice either so there will never be subjects like how to write a successful blog post. I’m the one who asks for advice and not the other way around.

Sometimes it’s frustrating to write anything. It feels like no one is listening or that my writing is boring. But the next day that feeling is gone. It’s all about the attitude. If you think negative you will feel down and the motivation is low. I try to think positive and write anyway. Motivation should not come from other people. You shouldn’t stop doing what you like only because you think no one cares. On the internet you never know. There’s so many bloggers who wants to get attention so they try anything to get their blogs noticed. Maybe they want to make blogging as a living. Each to their own. Blogging is also for people who want to share thoughts with others. It’s less stressful having it only as a hobby. If you’re going pro, you have to think about your readers. You almost have to think about subjects all the time. I want to write when I feel like it and not when people expect me to publish something. I can also write anything I want. It would be too boring to only write about one subject. I love variability and it should be seen as a strength.

Memorizing the posts I’ve wrote in the past, my writing in English has improved. That’s been my goal all along, to get better at it. This blogging journey will continue as long as my fingers and technology works. Whoever wants to join the ride are most welcome.