Time for another blogging challenge which starts on Monday and continues through November.
Tag: writing
Sky’s the limit

There’s a lot of different subjects to write about. Sky’s the limit. But sometimes you don’t know what to say. That’s one of the reason why I haven’t posted that much on the blog. I even decided to join a cult, I mean a writing challenge called Ultimate Blog Challenge. But it wasn’t the way I expected at all. I thought you would get a subject everyday via email but it wasn’t like that at all. People who takes part in it just seem to want visitors to their blogs so they can get some money out of it. I also didn’t feel like writing everyday. The challenge didn’t help to get my motivation back either. So I skipped that challenge altogether.
It’s just not only blogging but also my fan fiction writing. I just haven’t bothered. I’ve just been lazy lately. I tried to find motivation to write but I haven’t found a cure. It’s just one of those day. One day you got a lot of ideas and the next nada, nothing. I could spend hours and hours writing. Even half a night. Ideas just keeps flooding. Then there are days like these. I could never be an author. I’m too distracted with other things. I also don’t like rushing things. If you rush things, the quality won’t be as good. I might be impatient in other things but when it comes to writing, I’m very particular about it.
Everything just seems boring to me. Not even social media interest me that much. I realised I don’t have much in common with my followers anymore. They don’t even watch the same TV shows as me. I just scroll through Twitter and Facebook because I’m not interested in what they do. Most of my followers are motor racing fans but I’m not into that the way I used to. If I stop following them, there wouldn’t be anyone left. It would just be useless to have a social media account in the first place.
I think the best cure for getting the writing mojo back, is to have a break from writing altogether. Sky’s the limit to do anything else for a change. Like I’ve written in the about me page, I only write when I have something to say and that will stick.
What am I going to do with you?

There comes a time when you feel like you’re too lazy to do anything. You feel like no one really cares what you do. You try to find the motivation but you can’t find a solution. You might even get depressed for a while. You try to concentrate on other things. But even those things are not good enough. You don’t know what you’re doing wrong since no one seems to pay attention. Deep inside you know someone does care but still it feels like there’s no point.
That’s how I feel about this blog. I don’t know what I’m going to do with it. I used to have a lot of subjects to write about but now they just sound boring. Not even I would want to read it. I’ve thought maybe I should write about personal things. But then it would be like any other blog and I don’t want to be like everybody else. Who would want to read about my boring life anyway. There’s nothing in it worth writing about. I’m an introvert and I rather not talk about private things. I’m also a Finn and we don’t make a lot of noise about ourselves.
I don’t know if people actually read my blog. The traffic seems to have calmed down. Maybe it’s because it’s summer and people are outside. But also because I haven’t written much lately either. That’s where I come to the motivation part. I don’t know where I want this blog to go. I feel like I’m alone with my thoughts. Maybe people just doesn’t like the same things I do. The same with my other blog But that’s probably because it’s kind of new and maybe people just don’t read fan fiction. It would be nice though to get some reaction from people from time to time.
The same with this blog. Compared to other blogs I mostly get likes but that’s alright. At least that’s something. When I started this blog 3 years ago I didn’t even think I would get over 200 followers. For me that’s a lot. It’s about quality, not quantity. I don’t need a lot of followers to feel special. That’s for people in their teens who still have low self-esteem and wants attention.
I still want this blog to be about things I like. But I also wish it would be more interesting to others. Now it’s just me writing and wishing if only someone would just give something back a.k.a comments or likes. I have few ideas but they always turn to bad one’s. I shouldn’t really stress about what others think. It’s my blog after all and I should still keep it up. But I need to change it for my own good. If I find my own blog boring, how would I think everybody else would feel.
