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What am I going to do with you?

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Source: http://www.getorganizedwizard.com/blog/2013/11/easy-ways-change-life/

There comes a time when you feel like you’re too lazy to do anything. You feel like no one really cares what you do. You try to find the motivation but you can’t find a solution. You might even get depressed for a while. You try to concentrate on other things. But even those things are not good enough. You don’t know what you’re doing wrong since no one seems to pay attention. Deep inside you know someone does care but still it feels like there’s no point.

That’s how I feel about this blog. I don’t know what I’m going to do with it. I used to have a lot of subjects to write about but now they just sound boring. Not even I would want to read it. I’ve thought maybe I should write about personal things. But then it would be like any other blog and I don’t want to be like everybody else. Who would want to read about my boring life anyway. There’s nothing in it worth writing about. I’m an introvert and I rather not talk about private things. I’m also a Finn and we don’t make a lot of noise about ourselves.

I don’t know if people actually read my blog. The traffic seems to have calmed down. Maybe it’s because it’s summer and people are outside. But also because I haven’t written much lately either. That’s where I come to the motivation part. I don’t know where I want this blog to go. I feel like I’m alone with my thoughts. Maybe people just doesn’t like the same things I do. The same with my other blog But that’s probably because it’s kind of new and maybe people just don’t read fan fiction. It would be nice though to get some reaction from people from time to time.

The same with this blog. Compared to other blogs I mostly get likes but that’s alright. At least that’s something. When I started this blog 3 years ago I didn’t even think I would get over 200 followers. For me that’s a lot. It’s about quality, not quantity. I don’t need a lot of followers to feel special. That’s for people in their teens who still have low self-esteem and wants attention.
I still want this blog to be about things I like. But I also wish it would be more interesting to others. Now it’s just me writing and wishing if only someone would just give something back a.k.a comments or likes. I have few ideas but they always turn to bad one’s. I shouldn’t really stress about what others think. It’s my blog after all and I should still keep it up. But I need to change it for my own good. If I find my own blog boring, how would I think everybody else would feel.

“What a bunch of A-holes”

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Ever felt that whatever you do or say, you get no response? You work hard but you get no encouragement or a pat on the back. You feel everything you do gets ignored. You just don’t want to waste your time doing anything. It makes you want to yell “What a bunch of A-holes” you are, in their faces. Scream at the top of your lungs like there’s no tomorrow.

That’s what I feel about blogging and writing in general sometimes. I can write whatever but still it feels useless. Maybe I’m not that good. It’s difficult to get better when you never get feedback. What I hate most is asking for it. Can’t people think by themselves? Do I have to ask separately every time? I understand the common reader doesn’t have the ability to analyse things. But I’m not expecting that anyway. My blog is probably not interesting enough. People seem to care more about personal lives or world issues. But I’m not gonna go down that road. I did give out some personal issues but those were important. But I won’t make a habit of it. Even if I ask questions or ask feedback, I never get any anyway.

What frustrates me even more than this blog writing, is fiction writing. I’ve had a few online (about Formula One drivers mainly) I got likes and some comments but I never got any feedback that could improve my writing. That’s one of the reasons I stopped posting them. It felt all that hard work went to waste. I put my heart and soul in them. Then I got nothing in return. I didn’t even bother writing new ones. My fiction enthusiasm disappeared. I just didn’t bother because I felt no one would read them anyway.

I wrote that 6 month ago. And it’s happening again. In both blogging and a fan fiction I wrote. Sometimes I wonder why I bother. I know I should write even if no one would read them (some do though) but it just gets annoying sometimes. I’m sure most writers do get frustrated but they still seem to keep on writing. Me on the other hand don’t. I just stop because I feel like I’m wasting my time. I rather do something else than write. If I do write, I just keep it to myself. Maybe I shouldn’t post online at all. Fiction nor blogging. No caring, no sharing. People just don’t deserve reading anything I write. Or maybe I’m just too demanding. Internet is a big place so its obvious writings gets lost in the internet space. Whether its Facebook or Twitter.

Promoting your stuff online is a pain in the neck. It takes time, they say. But how long does it take? I’m not that patient. I’ve had this blog over a year ( or maybe it’s 2) and still it feels like I’m writing to myself. Well I am but I also want to share. What’s the point of having a blog otherwise?

I’ve come to the conclusion that if people don’t find or read my blogs, it’s their loss. I’m pleased about what I write and I will continue no matter what. With or without anybodies help.

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I’m not ignoring you, it’s just that

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I have had so much to do so blogging has taken a step back. The school assignments had taken more time than usual. I’ve only finished them today. Then I’m writing a new fan fiction so my mind has been on that. I don’t think many have paid much attention to my absence anyway. Then there’s a school meeting on Friday and Saturday so the blogging won’t change. I have no motivation to blog either. So that’s an update from a personal side.

Oh yeah, movies. So I saw Exodus and Seventh Son. I planned to see Paddington but then I saw the original version wasn’t showed as much as the dubbed version. Damn. It’s looked like I won’t be seeing it in the theater after all. Stupid ticket prices. No way I want to see the dubbed one.
There’s been some propaganda about Exodus. When I saw it myself, I thought it was a great movie and Christian Bale even better. Some people just don’t understand movies. It’s entertainment, not a history lesson.
Then Seventh Son. It’s a shame it hasn’t had better success. When I went, there were just a bunch of people. It hadn’t even been in the theater that long. I thought it was an entertaining and exciting movie. Ben Barnes were great and also Jeff Bridges. One thing that was disappointed was lack of Kit Harington. I thought he would have a bigger role but he wasn’t in it very long. It would have been great to see him in another role than Jon Snow. But his day will come. And so will Ben Barnes. There’s something about him that makes me stare at him when he’s on-screen. The same with Bale. Maybe because they’re that good. And easy on the eye too.

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