Today British actor Tom Hiddleston turns the big 40. It feels a bit weird that someone you don’t know personally is in the same age as you. Well, I’m still older, though. I turn 44 in June. When I turned 40, I thought, wasn’t I just 35. At 40, you realise how fast the time has gone. You have a history behind you, but also a future in front of you. My 40s is different from he’s 40. For one, he’s male and a famous actor. Actually, anyone else in their 40s has more experience than me. In everything in life. So age doesn’t really matter. It’s just that when a woman is 40, they’re old. But when a man is 40, it’s no big deal. You hear men get better with age. But you never hear that about women. It’s better to be a woman though because, well, you get to like men like Tom. Someone like me will never get someone like him though. Life is like high school where the popular person wouldn’t look at the shy and ‘ugly’ one that way.
Getting older is not always a good thing. Especially when you’re a woman, and you’re single without a job. Other people probably wonder why. Maybe there is something wrong with you. Well, no one is perfect. Even those who you think are, but everyone does have flaws. If you’re famous or just an ordinary person. When you’re young, you don’t think about age. Not until you become older. Age seems to be a problem for some people. You’re either too young or too old. The older you get, the less you care what others think. Answering the question, maybe there is something wrong with you. Yes, there is. I don’t have enough job experience, and I have never been popular among boys/men. But I don’t really see that as a problem. There are a lot of things I missed, but you can’t go back. You can’t miss something you never had. There is just so much more in life than trying to impress other people. Some people have goals to have a family one day, but it’s not my life. Other people’s personal lives are no concern of mine. Even famous ones. I have other things to think about. If I kept thinking about other things than my own life, I wouldn’t have time to do anything else. I don’t like drama. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I can’t even say to a person when they act wrongly without shaking inside.
That was enough about me.
Welcome Tom Hiddleston to the 40s club. I still love you no matter what age 😉 Have some cake 🙂
So here we are again. At my birthday. It’s also a birthday of Prison Break star, Wentworth Miller and actor Zachary Quinto, my birthday twin. I don’t mind having a birthday, it’s the getting older bit that is not so much fun. It means more problems. But I’m not that old though. Age is a number that doesn’t tell you the whole truth. Someone at their 20’s can be as wise as a 40-year-old. Or it can also be the other way around. Young and stupid. It really depends what you’ve been through in your life. If I hadn’t experienced the things I have, I don’t think I would be the way I am today. There are things I haven’t experienced. Like rowing a boat but I fear deep water so I wouldn’t even try it. I haven’t met the people I wanted to meet. To make things short, there is a lot I haven’t done.
Life doesn’t always go as you plan so I stopped planning because it fails anyway. If I have ideas they turn out to be bad. I take the days as they come. I don’t know what I do in 5 years since I don’t even know what I do next week. I have wishes and hopes but I don’t have enough of courage to do them. At least nothing big. Sometimes I hate being so indecisive but I don’t want to think about one thing at a time. I get bored easily so I need stimulation. I wish I was brave enough to get out of the box so to speak. Like trying entrepreneurship. If I don’t do something risky at least once in my life, I will regret it. I don’t want to rush things because then things won’t get rightly done.
So it’s my birthday today. I have never been into parties. Birthdays for me are just that. One year older. This year I baked a cake and going on a cruise with my dad. Daughter and father quality time thing, you know. That’s all the celebration I will have and then go back to normal again. And of course, eat cake. There is no birthday without it.
This Weekly Writing Challenge really is a challenge. I don’t want to reveal too much about myself. I’m still sticking to the “no personal stuff” policy on this blog. So I won’t get into much detail.
Age is a thing I’ve never had any problems with. But it’s the society that seems to have. People expect you to have a family at the age of 30 and a decent job. If you don’t, there must be something wrong with you. I’ve never had a real job (only part-time ones with no real pay), no real relationship nor bought a flat. But it still doesn’t make me a sad person. Sometimes it feels like I’m the only person on earth that doesn’t have enough of experience with anything. It feels like I’m still a teen even if I haven’t been that in years. I’m still young and have a lot of time ahead of me but somehow the society doesn’t see it that way. With society I mean, work places and such.
I still don’t think I have missed anything. I never needed to rebel. I hated parties and people drinking too much. I always thought I was more mature than other people at my age. I don’t envy those with relationship problems or people with kids. I would rather choose freedom than responsibility. That way I’m still a kid at heart.
I never knew what I wanted to be, career wise. Everything seemed to be boring. It took years and years. I’ve tried a lot of things and studied different things but still I have no career. My life seems so boring. What really upsets me it that, when I finally know what I want to do, the society punch me in the face. There is no job and if there is, you need a driver’s license. Or you have to be a student. Of course young people always seems to get internships or part-time jobs. Someone with no job experienced. When I was at that age, I didn’t get that much help. Now there’s all kinds of youth programs that gives young people opportunities to get job experiences. Where were those then?!
If I could turn back time, I would do things differently. But since I can’t, I just have to accept the way things are. All you can do is look forward. In my case, to tomorrow. I wouldn’t want to live forever. There’s enough to tolerate at the present anyway.