Class reunion- to go or not to go

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Sheldon, Big Bang Theory

Class reunions, you either love them or loathe them. It depends on how much you liked school and if you had any friends. I’ve never been to one even if I did say I would come. This was the class where I didn’t enjoy my time at all. I was just glad I didn’t have to see those people again. But when it was time for the reunion I thought, I’ll show them I’m a different person. At the time I thought I would have something to brag about. In the end it didn’t matter. Why do I have to impressive these people anyway. I don’t care about them. They didn’t care about me. They’re the past and that has nothing to do with the future. So I decided I would not go and I have never regretting it.

Now it’s time for a reunion but this time it’s with my class mates from Helsinki Design School. Even though I enjoyed the time there, I didn’t find that “connection” with any of them. It would be nice to see them again though despite that but it’s in Helsinki and I’m not really into travelling there just for a few hours. The restaurant they chose is quite expensive too. The meeting day is also on a Friday and that’s when all the weirdos are outside. Then there’s the money issues. There probably will be another reunion one day. If I decide to go, what would I do there. Just sit and listen? I have nothing to say. They never asked me anything when the photography course was on so why would they ask me anything now? These kind of gatherings are a pain for an introvert even if it’s with people you know. I don’t even know them. They’re just ships passing by. I don’t even remember their names. Then again it’s never too late to get to know them. At least those people that can make it. It’s also quite interesting to know what they’ve been up to even if I don’t have anything to tell. But is it really worth going that far just to sit and listen. I don’t really care if they want me there or not. If I decide to go I’ll do it out of curiosity.

Then there’s the bus or train schedules. Will I found a suitable time, is also the question. I don’t know how long I want to be there. It’s less expensive to buy the tickets online in advance. But what if I don’t like it there. Then of course I can leave earlier. But if I like it there, it would be a shame to leave just because I have to catch a train or bus. The restaurant is open until 2 am but I’m not gonna stay that long. There will be another reunion so if I don’t go this time, there’s always next time.

Decisions has never been my strongest side. Should I stay or should I go, that’s always been a problem for me. I’m still thinking if I should go to this reunion. It’s at least 3 weeks until it happens so there’s still time to think about it.

 

 

“I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?”

HDSFirst meeting in Helsinki Design School is over. Even travelling back and forth for 3 days, is exhausting. But that’s the only way. Especially when you don’t know anyone that lives in Helsinki. Hotels are expensive too. Rest of the photography course will only be for 2 days so it will be easier. First I thought, maybe I could sleep over at a class mates house but after meeting them, I rather sleep at home. I don’t think I will get that close to anyone. Since I don’t travel much anyway, a few days a month doesn’t hurt.

Finding the school wasn’t that difficult. Using Google Maps helped. I found the place almost immediately. I wasn’t nervous when I got there. When I was younger I was much more nervous going to a new place. Now I was cool as a cucumber. The class rooms had see-through glass so you could watch what other classes were doing. In the hall there were fashion students working. In the class room there were 5 and a half rows of long tables with chairs. All white. People had already arrived and it was quiet. Only a few were talking so maybe they knew each other. Everyone had a file folder and 2 pencils for jotting. When the class started, the Director of Education talked to us about the school and about assignments. Just the basic. We were about 40 student so photography is very popular. There’s only 3 guys and the rest is girls. There were more applicants that they could take. Good I was the lucky one.

The most nervous thing was the introduction about yourself. A total hell for an introvert. I totally screwed that up. I was so nervous I didn’t even know if they understood what I said. Hearing what fellow student told about themselves made me feel like a loser. Most of them were younger than me and they already experienced a lot. Some had been living abroad and some had an own company. Most of them also live in Helsinki area. There’s was one who was from my city but had lived in Helsinki for some time. I felt like an outsider at that point.

As the time processed to Saturday, we already had a team work under our belt. That didn’t go too badly. I usually fear team work. Bad experiences I guess. On Saturday we had another teacher so we had to introduce ourselves again but this time it went better. I was still nervous but at least I got to say something reasonable. We had another team work. Twice. Won’t go into detail. Something about making your own Brad Pitt. OK, that was just my group 😀 That was much more fun.

I’ve always been bad with names but I do remember faces. Being in a big class like this, it’s natural you won’t get to know all of them. I hope I didn’t give a bad first impression. I might be drawn and keep to myself (liking eating alone) but it doesn’t mean I want to be like that all the time. I don’t really talk to anyone. Just when it comes to school work. I don’t really look for a friend. We don’t meet that often and they live in another city. It’s still early days so you never know. We already have a group on FB so that’s a start. It’s about assignment and school things mainly.

Next meeting is October 24. Before that doing assigments. 2 of them. I just hope my printer have color. They are suppose to be printed on a paper which is a shame since my photos look best on screen. Oh well the teachers better accept the quality they become.