I am what I am.Don’t try and change me.

When I’ll post this, it will already be 2015 (I started this post on December 30, 2014). But it will not mean I’m gonna change. I’m not gonna become a different person just because the year changes. I’m just gonna be another year older.

Some say I should be more social. Even the newspaper I was as an intern in as a photographer, mentioned it in the after report. I don’t know how social they wanted me to be. I was only there for 2 weeks. I can’t become social over night. And I did talk to my co-workers which was an achievement for an introvert like me. This word “social” bugs me. What is it anyway? You can be social without having to talk nonsense. I guess you can’t be a photographer if you’re not social. BS I say. I’m an introvert, not mute. I’m not gonna become something else just because someone tells me to.

You can’t tell a person what kind of personality they should have. If you’re an introvert, you are. It’s like saying to an extrovert to become more introvert. We all have H20 but the difference is, we all have different personalities. And being an introvert is a personality, not a decease. Extroverts should take examples from introverts. Only talk when you’ve something important to say. If you don’t have any important to say, don’t say it at all. If I had a motto, that would be it.

I don’t do New Year’s resolutions but one thing’s for sure, I will continue to be what I am. If people won’t respect that, then too bad.

 

If I could turn back time

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Some things you can’t control. Like a death in the family. No one should go through that. Especially if you’re still a child. A childhood should be happy without sorrow. Mine was happy until that day when my sister died. I was only 6 years old and death is something you don’t think about. I don’t remember much about it. In a way it was good I was so young. I didn’t have to go through the same thing as my parents. All those hospital visits and coping with the illness. I don’t really know what she had but it was something to do with her immune system. It was rare at the time. Her death did affect my life in many ways.

I’ve thought a lot of times how my life would have been if she wouldn’t have gotten sick. We were quite close. I don’t think our relationship would have changed much. She would have been my rock. If I had problems I could talk to her. She would be a great comfort. Especially now when mother have passed away. If I had lived my life with my sister in it, I would probably be more outgoing and have more confidence.

If I could turn back time and live my childhood all over again, I would wish my sister would be healthy and see adulthood. The holidays would be much better if she would still be around.
I don’t know how it is to have siblings nor being the only child. I’ve experienced both. When I hear or read how people complain about having a sibling, I just think “at least they have someone” They can be a pain but that’s a small prize to pay. Living alone without one is not that much fun either.

Losing a sister at a young age has helped me understand other people who have lost a loved one. I don’t see death as a scary thing. I don’t even cry at the movies because it’s all fake anyway. For some death is something they don’t want to think about. They don’t know how to take other people’s sorrow. Only people who have gone through the same thing can understand.

It’s not only what you go through in your childhood that molds you. It’s what you experience through life. If I hadn’t gone through what I have been through I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I am what I am and nobody can tell me to be something I’m not. That’s something everybody should remember.

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Life is too short to

Hate. Why not spend your time with something you like? Life is too short to hate. The reason there are wars, are because of the hate. Some have issues with the past and they keep on hating. It continues from generation to generation. Why all the hate when there’s so much to love to give? We only live once. We should use our energy to more important things. Things won’t get better if people keep hating. It just gets worse. Like those terrorists that wants revenge because someone has killed their families. Of course it’s awful to lose your family but taking your anger on someone else is not right. By killing others won’t get their families back. You just have to accept what you have lost.

Then there’s hate against homosexuals or the color of a person’s skin. That’s something you can’t change and yet there are people who hate them. Hating someone because they’re different, is just not acceptable. If you don’t like somebody then just go back to your dream world where everyone feels and looks the same. Everybody should be allowed to walk on the streets without feeling fear. There’s no point becoming violent against other person. If you hate another human being, then you must hate yourself. No matter how much racists and homophones whine, the world will always have different people in it. There’s nothing no one can do about that.

Then there’s milder hate. Hate towards a band, celeb or any other subject. There used to be (maybe still is) a  trend where people had anti web pages. Doesn’t these people have something they love? Why waste your time having a hate page anyway? If you don’t like it then don’t. No one has forced anyone to like everything.
There are things I don’t like but I rather concentrate on things I like. Life too short to hate.

Extended VersionLike The Beatles sang “All you need is love” Which leads to what I love. That love I picked up from the post office today. The Hobbit: The Desolations of Smaug. The Extended Edition. I absolutely love those. The same with Lord of the rings. Great interviews, behind the scenes and of course the most important thing, deleted scenes. There hasn’t been any actor commentators like the Lord of the rings had. Maybe there’s a reason for that. That’s a shame since those were fun.

I usually don’t take part in The Daily Prompt but today’s subject was something I knew what to write about. Writing is the other thing I love. It’s much more fun to love than hate. Don’t you think?