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New door do not open

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You know the saying, when one door closes, another opens. Well, I’ve tried to open a lot of doors but they still remain closed. I’m speaking in metaphors of course. Mostly doors about opportunities. Or lack of them that is. Sometimes it feels like I’m being lied to so I don’t take chances because of that. I have never got anything in life easy. I didn’t even get away from household chores when I was a child. My mother always said to me to clean up but she only wanted to teach me responsibility. When other kids got pocket money without having to do anything, I actually had to work for it. She also taught me to save money for a rainy day. I just wish I could earn that money instead of living on benefits. That’s where this open door thing comes in.

I opened doors to studying and thought that would open another door. But instead, it hasn’t brought me any opportunities. No matter how strong you are mentally it still bothers you what’s wrong with you that not even Lady Luck knocks on your door. You know you can do things but no one really pays you any attention. It doesn’t help in what school you attended and how many educations you have. That door just won’t open. I’ve started to think why the reason might be and I came to the conclusion it’s work experience. I have it but they’re internships. Some don’t see that has experience. Sorry but that’s all I have been given. Just because I haven’t got paid a real salary, it doesn’t mean it isn’t work experience. Should I find a time machine so I can go back in time to find a “real job”? I don’t think so. It seems some employers are idiots. OK, fine don’t give me a chance. Your loss. It shouldn’t matter if you got paid for the job or not. I don’t know what internships should be called then if not work experience. They’re done in a real working environment and not done at home. An internship is better than nothing. Some don’t even have that.

Those internships haven’t helped much. All of those places haven’t opened any doors. So when people say internships will help to get a job is just nonsense. Employers only want to exploit cheap labour. All this propaganda that unemployment has decreased are just fillers in the media. Whoever believes in that are fools. Only the people with good connections will open the next door. All those unlucky ones have to settle for what they got. Most people have dreams and goals but they don’t have a chance to make them true because they have so many other issues to handle. Everyone can’t become entrepreneurs or be at the right place at the right time.

Sometimes I want to give up and not even try to open another door. But then motivation kicks in and I’m full of hope. It doesn’t take long but at least I see it. Failing is part of life but it’s like the heatwave, it’s only temporarily. Even successful people have had it rough but they didn’t give up. If they had, they wouldn’t be here to courage people. Intentionally or unintentionally. Everyone has doubts. A lot of athletes have had injuries and they thought they wouldn’t be as good as they were before it. They believed in themselves and they made a comeback (like Novak Djokovic who won Wimbledon yesterday) Things like that lifts up my spirit. Believing in yourself when no one else seems to is the best revenge. I will try to open every door until I find the door that opens. It must out there somewhere.

Embrace yourself

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I’ve always been different. I never wanted to be the same way as everyone else. I was a tomboy who wasn’t afraid to get their hands dirty and I’m still the same. Everyone should embrace what they are. Unfortunately, there are people in society who doesn’t appreciate differences. In some countries, you can’t walk around in peace without someone stalking you or becoming violent towards you. Especially if your sexuality is not heterosexual. It’s a shame because we’re all human with wants and needs. No one should be penalised for being different. You should embrace yourself for that no matter what others might think.

My parents never questioned me about never going out like other people. Other teenagers had parties and had a lot of friends. If they would have I would I told them, would they rather see me meet the wrong crowd and get into drugs. I don’t think so. They should have been glad I wasn’t like everyone else. Luckily, I was lucky with parents. They never tried to change me. They wouldn’t have succeeded anyway because I was always strong-willed. I embrace myself for being me. Seeing how other people behave I’m glad I’m not like them.
For example, today I saw this young guy being so drunk, he couldn’t even stand. His friends had to carry him. I would be so embarrassed to have a friend like that who can’t control his drinking. I never understood how someone can drink alcohol so much they can’t even walk straight.

I’m also not like other women. That sounds in my head like the video ‘Thriller’ by Michael Jackson. The character he plays tells his girl he’s not like the other guys and then he turns into a werewolf. It’s not like that. Except if you upset me, I don’t know what I’ll do to you 😉 Seriously though. I prefer wearing jeans and sneakers to skirts and high heels. Some women stress about not finding Mr Right but I don’t. I don’t care about drama and I rather be alone than trying to please another person. I don’t need a man to be happy. Besides, I don’t like just anybody. I have standards. Anyway, all this women should do this and do that, is so demeaning. Like the reason for women to be here is to please the opposite sex. For some having a family is the main goal in life but not for everyone. The meaning of life to me is doing stuff you like without having to depend on someone else. Maybe I would have a different look on life if I had men in a queue behind me. But since I don’t, my priorities lay elsewhere. This quote says it all.

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I’m also a sports fan. I don’t watch it because of the way some athletes look. I don’t care about the glamour side of sport. Some women think sport is boring but I think it’s exciting. Especially when Finland plays. Nothing beats the feeling of seeing people giving it all. Sport brings people together. When I meet other women, I can never talk about sport to them. I can do girl talk but most of it doesn’t interest me. I just can’t relate to any of what women talk about. That’s why I feel more comfortable being around men. Sometimes it feels safer to be around other women though. The myth about women not liking their men watching sport doesn’t apply to me. If you don’t like sport then don’t watch it. Do something else that interests you. No matter what marital status the man is, they should be allowed to watch sport without having to hear nagging from a women.

Embrace yourself for who you are. Be happy to be alive. Things could be worse. We usually think of negative things about ourselves and forget all the good things. I wouldn’t want to be a person who can’t think for themselves. Common sense is a lost art. If you do stupid things, there are consequences. If you’re not careful, your life will be short and that’s not the meaning of life. I rather do things carefully than taking a big risk and lose it all. I’m planning to be on this planet for a very long time. I want to be different and not trying to be something I’m not. Other people just need to deal with it.