Tag: The Daily Prompt

Undulate

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Undulate

My feelings for you change like an undulate

One day I hate you, the next time love

It’s a rollercoaster of emotions

I hate feeling this way

I try to avoid you but you’re everywhere

Life would be easier if things were different

You would be here and I could show what I feel

But you would never feel the way I do

Sometimes I wish I never looked at you

If you only knew how crazy I am about you

This undulate in my heart is trembling inside

I try to get you out of my mind but I fail

I want to see you as a friend but I want more

You have spoiled my life and you don’t even know it

Things can never be the same again and I blame you

I can’t even despise you completely

No one is perfect but you almost are

I don’t even know if you’re real but I know how I feel

It will go away but for now, I have to go with the undulate

Brilliant Liebster Award

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liebster award

Got nominated for this brilliant blog award, The Liebster Award. Thank you, The Dream Girl Writes. I got one of these when I started out with this blog. At the time I didn’t follow that many blogs. Most of the blogs I follow now already have this award so it won’t be easy to find that many blogs to give this award to. So I apologise if I don’t really follow all these rules.

THE RULES:

  1. Mention and acknowledge the blog that nominated you, and display the award logo.
  2. Answer the 11 questions that the blogger who nominated you gave you.
  3. Tell 11 facts about yourself.
  4. Nominate between 5-12 blogs.
  5. Also, make sure to notify these bloggers of their nomination.
  6. Finally, give them 11 questions to answer.

The Questions from The Dream Girl Writes

1. If you had a pet or want to have a pet what would it be, it’s name and why?

I always loved bunnies. They were the only animals I wasn’t afraid to touch. If I had one, finding a name would be hard. It depends on what it looked and what kind of personality they would have. Loki would be kind of fun though. I’m really into characters from movies or TV.

2. What is the dumbest way you have injured yourself?

I don’t know dumbest but I did sit with my legs crossed in 1994 and then I couldn’t straighten my left leg. I had to have my knee operated to get it back to normal. It was an injury athlete usually get and I’m not one.

3. What are your hobbies?

Cycling, writing fanfiction, photography and blogging of course

4. If you got to know you had only 48 hours to live, what would you do and why?

Cry that I’m gonna die. When I’ve done with that, I probably take all my money from the bank and travel to the mountains of Switzerland. I would talk to everyone I meet and if I meet really nice people, we would laugh a lot. Build snowmen, have snowball fights. I love snow so I would make the most of my last hours.

5. One dream of yours you wish it would come true.

Date Tom Hiddleston. But seriously. Getting a job is my current dream.

6. Favourite TV show?

Game of thrones, BBC Sherlock and British comedies

7. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?

Is it that late already?

8. What would you do if you were stranded in a island with your ex?

Who the hell are you? Get off my island. I would say.

9. What makes you happy?

Music and comedies. Watching movies I’ve seen a lot of times. Happy people.

10. What do you think when you look into the mirror?

I try to avoid mirrors. I only look in them when I do my morning routines.

11. All time favourite song?

I have so many. The world is full of awesome songs. The 80’s is the best. Especially Duran Duran who still makes great music. I hate the new stuff that is around now.

11 facts:

  1. I don’t like reading books
  2. When I was a child I pretended to have a radio show. I still have that tape somewhere
  3. I love winter
  4. I like animals but I don’t like to touch them
  5. My relatives are all money hungry so I don’t keep in touch with them
  6. I’m a Gemini and an introvert
  7. I call my mobile Hayden after the actor Hayden Christensen
  8. I have dark blue eyes
  9. I’ve been to Finnish Lapland since I was 2 months old. Haven’t been there for years though
  10. I learn best when I do things rather than reading about it
  11. I love watching sport. Especially icehockey

Nominations:

Breaking the rules here. Anyone who reads this post. Followers or not. Feel free.

My Questions:

  1. How long have you been blogging?
  2. Who’s your favourite actors/actresses?
  3. Do you sing in the shower?
  4. How many languages can you speak? Say at least one word of it and what it means.
  5. Mac or PC?
  6. What was your dream job as a child?
  7. What’s your favourite band or artist?
  8. Do you watch Marvel movies? If so which is your favourite?
  9. What’s your secret skill?
  10. Do you use sugar and milk in your coffee or tea?
  11. What smell do you hate and love?

Phew that was kind of a long post. I hope you all didn’t fall asleep. This is the end of this ‘brilliant’ post.

Forlorn away from success

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blue pearlsIt seems that everything I do or do in this life so far hasn’t given me any success. I feel forlorn and cursed. Maybe people find me uninteresting. Especially when it comes to job search. Studying doesn’t seem to help to get a job. I don’t know what I should do so someone could find the connection with me. Nothing has come easy for me. In social media, Tumblr blog, personal life etc. For example, I had to start my Tumblr blog all over again because I wanted to delete my previous one. To make a long story short. It took me at least 5 years before I even got followers there and I need a way to get them back. Should I wait another 5 years? OK, it’s not the end of the world if people don’t follow me. It didn’t take overnight to get followers on this blog either. My point is, it can feel frustrating to work so hard and yet you don’t get much back no matter what it is.

It’s mentally exhausting to have a thought you’re not qualified for anything. I might say I don’t mind if things won’t happen the way I wish. But that’s just a defence mechanism. I don’t want to be famous or anything but I don’t want to be ignored either. Maybe it’s an introvert thing or a Gemini thing but I want things but I’m not confident enough to do anything about it. Sometimes I dislike myself. I’m probably the most indecisive person I know. I really don’t practice what I preach. It’s so easy saying to other people what to do but doing them yourself is difficult. I really hope there is no one like me out there. I could not handle a person like me. I guess my weakness is putting myself down. I know I can do anything but I’m too much of a coward to do anything. When things go wrong, I usually blame myself. But like everyone else, I have a dark side.

I really had some anger issues when I was younger. I had moments when I totally lost it. I could throw things and stomp as loud as I could. All of this happened at home. I never showed that side of me in public. I didn’t hurt other people, just myself. Sometimes I could be so frustrated, I hit myself. I didn’t know why I was so angry. To this day, you don’t want to see me angry. I still got easily irritated but it’s only because the way people behave. I have my pet peeves like anyone. I get over my anger easily though. I learned there are things you can’t do anything about. If I don’t get what I want, I don’t get upset. How other people behave, it’s not my fault. I can’t make people become friends or employers to hire me. As an adult, you can’t have tantrums like some kids have in public. I really hate being angry. I become a really unpleasant person. I swear like a sailor and I might say hurtful things. That’s a side I don’t want other people to see. But people shouldn’t act like idiots either. What goes around, comes around.

Most time I’m a calm person. I have manners and take other into account. When you get to know me, you can see I can be silly too. I just hate being the one who has to take the initiative. In school, I had to start a conversation to get to know people. Never the other way around. I got the idea they didn’t want to be my friend. Even now in adult education. They say you should network with your classmates but they didn’t even ask if they could keep in touch. I guess I wasn’t that interesting to them. Oh well, people come and go. I rather am forlorn than be with the wrong people. The same with relationships. I might be picky but at least I have standards. I always want someone I can’t have anyway. For some having someone in their life is really important but for me, it’s not the end of the world. Besides, there are so many other interesting things to think about then relationships. Freedom is so much more appealing so I stick with that for the time being.