God, the serial killer that never gets caught (part 3)

Writing 101 has ended ages ago. But this was very difficult to write so that’s the reason I haven’t written this earlier. Since I didn’t finish this 3 part story, I decided to mix it with this weekly writing challenge. It’s was the saddest time of my life. This is quite a long post!

Last but not least, the sorrow continues. When my sister died, I don’t remember much about it. And my grandmothers were old so it was no surprise they passed away. Everybody dies one day. Losing a parent is always different. Those are the people who are most close to you.

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Material girl

Material things doesn’t make you happy but material things are useful. Like my most-prized possession.

In 2008 I bought a Canon EOS D40 SLR camera. I wanted to take better pictures. I used to have a film camera but that broke down. It was more of an amateur camera anyway. A camera you take on holidays and stuff. I wanted a camera where I could take more professional photos. Even though I’ve had that camera this long, I still don’t really know how to take photos with it. Sometimes I lose hope that I will never get any good. Maybe the camera is still too difficult to handle. I try to take picture of movement but it always seem the become blurry. It irritates me that I still can’t do it. I just lose hope I want to give up.
I was on a cruise and there were this dance show. I got quite depressed I couldn’t take any decent photos of it. I thought, I better just shoot things that stay still. I was so disappointed. I’ve got this love/hate relationship with my camera. My brain tells me, ‘you can’t do anything with your camera. Just give up’ No matter what settings I try, nothing is working. No matter how many photography courses or advice online I find, it doesn’t seem to stay in my brain. I don’t want to take amateur photos to fill my photo archive. I want to take photos I can sell. That’s one of the reasons I applied to Helsinki Design School. To learn from people who knows about photography and the business itself. Learn from the best. I hope to get more analysed feedback and to learn new things.

My other most-prized possession is my bike. I bought that with my own money. I cycled since I was 3 so I’ve had a few bikes. This one was the first that I could call my own. You find it in this photo. I love cycling. Feeling the wind in my hair. It’s my convertible. Peddling really fast and then just enjoy the ride. I never drive in the winter but when spring arrives I take a bike ride somewhere. As the summer goes by I take longer trips. Since I don’t have a driver’s license, my bike is the only transportation I have. I’ve had a few accidents with it but it has never been serious. With a bike you can go almost anywhere. It’s also much faster than with a car. It’s good exercise as well.

The 3rd is my lap top. I planned for years to buy one. I’ve occupied my parents PC so it was a relief for them that I bought a lap top. Well, it’s actually my dad that bought it. But it’s still mine. I’ve had it almost 3 years. It feels like I’ve only got it a year or so. How time flies. People usually take their lap tops with them but I don’t. I’ve only used the battery a few times. I don’t even know where I put it. I don’t want to be too attached to gadgets. Like some people do. My lap top has Photoshop where I edit my photos. I have Windows 7. That’s much better than Windows 8 that looks like a mobile solution. It’s a computer and not an iPhone for crying out loud. My lap top is also the one where I write this blog.

So my most-prized possession are material things. Not all material things are bad. It just depends what you used them for.

Model, models and more models


Writing 101 is already over but I haven’t finished the assignments yet. This should be free writing day but I’m gonna cheat a little. I won’t “free write” because I will check the spelling out. I just don’t like my spelling errors. Especially in English. I don’t want to write nonsense either.

So models is the subject. You know those models on the catwalk. I’ve watched the Fashion channel and I don’t even follow fashion. I have no intentions of writing fashion in the first place. I’m just amazed how the models can walk in a streight line without falling over. I tried to walk like that just for fun and it’s not easy at all. They also wear weird shoes with high heels. I don’t know how they do it. I don’t think it looks pretty either. The walking that is.

Most of the models are female. If you ask people if they can name any model in the world. The answer would always be a female. But where are the men models? If you ask me, I could say a lot of males that could be models but they’re not. Male models I’ve seen aren’t really gorgeous. Sure they’re tall and all that but that’s about it. I’ve seen better looking men on the streets than male models on TV. I could name a few non models but I don’t know if any of my readers know who they are. And I won’t search for any photos of them either. So I won’t name any.

OK, maybe one. Or two. For example Usain Bolt, the fastest man on earth. He’s tall and fit with a glimpse in his eyes. He could be a model. But athletes probably do PR work that contains modelling for something. Another one that could be a model is Lee Pace. He’s tall (long pause) I was saying. Yes tall. Sorry got distracted there for a moment. Let’s just say he got a lot of good qualities to be a model. But that’s all I’m saying.

You don’t see male models on Fashion TV that often but maybe because most good-looking men are not models at all. I’ve been to fashion shows but they are not the same. Shows I’ve been to have been in department stores. Fashions shows are quite boring but it would be kind of fun to see those real ones. Peace.