I wish I had said something

I take you back to 5th grade. The year is beside the point. I was in this class the 2nd year. I had to take 4th grade twice so I had to leave my old class. The 1st year in this new class went OK. It was the 5th that turn into hell. There was this girl who seem to have issues with me. I wasn’t bullied the way some people are. But she somehow turned the other girls against me. It was whispering behind my back and leaving me outside the group. That is one kind of bullying I guess. I could feel they didn’t want me to be around them. I was all alone. School didn’t taste good so I was rather not there. I played hooky quite a lot because of that.

Group work was the worst. I really disliked that in the future. P.E. wasn’t fun either. I don’t know why the teacher let the pupils choose which ones should be in their team. I was good at sport and yet no one wanted me in theirs. This girl was awful at it. In general she was kind of stuck up. She was one of those that never got any spots. Miss Perfect herself (that’s what I think now) She wasn’t perfect at all. She wasn’t good in Math either.
Years later, I saw her in another school. I don’t know if she recognised me or not. It doesn’t matter. She didn’t seem to be that childish anymore anyway. I didn’t go to that school that long (for a different reason). I only saw her there once. I didn’t want anything to do with her. People like her are a waste of my time. I found out years later that she had cut a school at some point and worked somewhere. She didn’t become anything special which is a bit like, ha ha, in your face.

I wish I had said something to her in 5th grade. I would have told her where to get off. The worse thing was that she couldn’t say it to my face. Instead she said something to her friend and that friend told me (that friend used to my friend. Bloody backstabber :P) She didn’t want to sit by the same table in the diner because I had spots on my face. The friend suggested I should use some cream to make them disappear. Another thing was that I had some line on my nose that she didn’t like. It was just silly reasons. I didn’t say anything but if it was happening today, I would have said something to her. I think it was more than just some imperfect feature. I’ve thought about the time and came to the conclusion, she was just jealous. Maybe because I was good at sport or good at something else. Like I wrote, it doesn’t matter. I got rid of her and I don’t care anymore.

One thing I’ve learned through that experience. I will never let anyone treat me like that again. I’m a much stronger person now that I was then. It hasn’t put me down. Maybe that experience has had some effect on me. I’m careful with whom I confide in. I’m a private person and I don’t trust people. That’s the reason I don’t blog about personal things that often. If life would only be like blogging. Edit when you haven’t said something you wish you had.


My year in blogging (part 2)

This is the 2nd part of the countdown.

Writing 101 started and so did my new feature One Line Sunday. One sentence only. It hasn’t really catched fire yet. But Halt and catch fire did. For a while. I learned what flash fiction is and how to write lyrics. Also that you can write something reasonable with 50 words only. Writing challenges really are useful.
24 posts

This month I got confused. To see Guardians of the Galaxy or not. One thing was for sure, I would go and see Monty Python’s last show at the movies. Not only that was fun. Also tennis player Novak Djokovic winning in Wimbledon made my day.
15 posts

It wasn’t much of a shock that I would see Guardians of the Galaxy after all. But it was a shock to hear Robin Williams had died. He was such a wonderful person. Unlike those smelly cats, smokers.
15 posts

It was a slow month. All I managed to do was watching 2 new TV shows, True Detective and Legends. Much more excited than Halt and catch fire. Sorry fans and Lee Pace. What was even more exciting was the first meeting in Helsinki Design School. Will maybe write a “report” how the studying is going. If I have time.
11 posts

I made my 200th post. I also went to see Into the storm and no it didn’t have Lee Pace in it even thought I wrote about him. Something terrible did happen. The F1 driver Jules Bianchi crashed heavily and there still no sign for recovery. That’s an awful blow to a sport that is supposed to be safe and no one shouldn’t get hurt. Forza Jules.
14 posts

The long waited 4th season of Game of Thrones arrives. Online though. It wasn’t as painful as going to the dentist which was a pain to get an appointment to. But that’s Finnish health care for you. I reached 200 follows which is a record for me. Thanks for that. It isn’t the last goodbye. Expect for the 3rd film of The Hobbit: The battle of five armies. This month also the first signs of winter arrived to Finland which ended as quickly as it came.
16 posts

And here we are, last month of the year. Still a movie to see and a school meeting to go. No one knows what else it will bring.

My year in blogging (part 1)

Year 2014 is soon coming to an end. It’s time to recap. I went through every post and boy were there many. I had a few post in 2013 but it was only this year I started to write more. I had a few spelling errors but they were minor so nobody noticed. Here is my countdown in short.

It started on January 1. I wanted a fresh start after my mother died. Blogging was one of them. Zero to Hero challenge was a good start. That helped a lot and taught me about blogging. It got my blog “out there” I also got a OMG moment. I never knew my family would share a birthday with so many actors. Especially with Lee Pace. So proud of that 😀
I took part in Weekly Writing challenge (still do) I wrote “In the mind of a dolphin killer” Inspired by the dolphin and small whale slaughtering in Taiji which still goes on.
45 posts

It was the Winter Olympics month. Finland won bronze in ice hockey. The ladies got silver in cross-country skiing and men won gold. After the Zero and Hero challenge was over, it felt like blogging wouldn’t be so much fun. But I still kept going. I wrote about Sherlock and the actors who’s played him. Then Finland went crazy because Benedict Cumberbatch was seen in the country.
20 posts

I wrote about introversion. Wrote my first fanfiction based on movie/book character. The Oscars were a farce. Some movie called Gravity won most of it and American Hustle won none. Good thing was that I got more followers. I also wrote what I found humorous.
18 posts

Blogging 201 and IBQ Writing Prompt but the latter wasn’t very long. I did write the 100th post on my blog. But still I didn’t get that many comments. I bought The Hobbit book to read it the 2nd time. Nothing beats a DVD of The Desolation of Smaugh though.
29 posts

It was my first Mother’s Day without mother. The series 24: Live another day finally arrived on Finnish TV so that was a great comfort. Finland also won silver in Men’s Ice hockey world championship. I also got accepted to the photography school I applied to.
15 posts

Stay tunes for part 2.