None will survive

cementary

There’s been so much death lately. Our 9th president Mauno Koivisto passed away May 12 and the funeral was broadcast on television today. Even though he was already over 90, his passing is still sad. Watching the funerals brought me sadness in my heart. Death is part of life and none of us will survive. Having experienced it in my personal life makes me understand how it feels to lose someone. Seeing the sadness in people’s eyes makes me sad too. You can still feel grief even if you don’t know the person. But it’s a different kind. When the situation is over, you move on. If it’s something personal, then grieving takes time. Some have longer lives than others. Sir Roger Moore had a long life even if the sickness took him. He was a good man and he did well for the world. He wasn’t just the actor who played James Bond but he was also an ambassador for UNICEF. It was a bit of a shock to hear about his passing but when you got to go you got to go.
When children die at a young age, it’s even harder. Their lives have been taken away too early and that isn’t fair. But life is hard no matter what.

Surviving has a lot to do with luck. Someone can work in motorsport and drive as fast as they can but no major accident happen. But then they can crash with a car while cycling on the road and their life is over. That’s what happened to the professional motorcyclist Nicky Hayden. He was cycling on a road in Italy with his friends and then got hit by a car. Unfortunately, he didn’t survive and he passed away this Monday. He was only 35 years old and well liked. Death doesn’t only come naturally and it doesn’t see age either. He was an organ donor so in a way, he will live on. People say motorsport is dangerous and it should be banned but it’s been proved many times that there’s a bigger chance to die on a public road than on a racing track. Some can live to a 100 and some can die before birth. Our lives are controlled by destiny. You can be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Death can come when you least expect it. Making the decision of who lives or dies shouldn’t be given to terrorists. What happened in Manchester where the bomb went off after the Ariana Grande concert, is a good example. Parents who picked their kids up loses their lives. Young and innocent people who haven’t done anything bad. All these terrorists who think they can spread horror across the world without consequences. Using religion as a weapon to their pathetic lives. They have no respect for human life. They have such low self-esteem, they try to take everybody down with them. They’re the bullies from hell. We shouldn’t let these animals spoil our moods. Some things you can’t control but you can control your emotions. Instead of spreading hate, it should be love. That’s the only way to keep the fear away. We all gonna die someday but let us live a safe life first. Good people deserves to have a life they can enjoy. There’s always someone with problems and they won’t let go easily. That doesn’t mean other people should suffer from their issues.

All life is precious and even if problems occur, we should still survive from them. There have always been bad people in the world and always will be. But if we give in, all will be lost. The good people who are still on this earth will keep the evilness away. Life is not always a bed of roses but we shouldn’t forget what’s good about it. It’s all about attitude and how you survive to stay alive as long as you can.

“There is some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers

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An ordinary childhood turned to tears

two girls from the back
Pixabay

I had an ordinary childhood. We were a 4 member family who lived in an apartment building. We went on trips, had birthday parties, had friends, spent time with grandmothers, had disagreements and so on. We didn’t have any pets since my sister was allergic. It was a good childhood for me. But things wouldn’t stay the same. We as a family had to go through a tough period which is something not everyone has to go through. One part of my childhood ended in tears. My sister got sick and she was only 10 years old. Life wasn’t the same after that. My mother took care of her. We spent a lot of times in the hospital which is the reason I don’t like them to this day. I was only 6 years old so I don’t remember much. I remember bits of it. Some of the hospital visits and when she was home. Also something about her last days or so. One memory of it was that she couldn’t swallow food anymore so she had to be fed through a tube. I can imagine how my parents felt for losing their child like that. Seeing a loved one fade away is the hardest thing. No one should go through it.
We went to Europe after she passed away to recover. We were somewhere in Austria when the head of my doll fell off and I cried like it had been a real person. I think that was my way of mourning even if I didn’t know it at the time. I remember it like it was yesterday. The head of the doll was put back on so that wasn’t a serious “injury”

When you go through this kind of things in your childhood, it affects the rest of your life. When other have problems with their siblings, I think, at least they got one. They don’t know how it feels like to grow up without one. I’m sure I would have been a totally different person if my sister was still alive. On the other hand, if I wouldn’t have gone through it, I couldn’t sympathise with someone who’s lost a loved one the same way I do now. You learn that life is not always they way you want it to be. Nothing shouldn’t be taken granted. All you can do is grow as a human and enjoy all the small things life gives you.

I’m glad I had a childhood. There are children who have it worse. Today they have to grow up faster and that causes problems. Kids should have the right to play outside without having to carry their smartphones with them. It seems modern technology has made people lazy and it’s infecting the kids too. I played outside a lot when I was a kid. Today parents are worried something will happen to their children so they don’t let them go anywhere alone. But it is understandable because the world is not as safe as it was when I was a kid. I wouldn’t want to be one now. My childhood was safe. The first time I went to the store by myself, I was only 3 years old. I could only carry one milk carton though 😀 You couldn’t let someone that young go anywhere alone today. Even though my childhood turned to tears, it was still a happy time. I’m still here and I survived. That’s what matters the most.

Life has its ups and downs. Like in ‘Rollercoaster‘ by Bon Jovi. Life is a rollercoaster and not a merry-go-round. I like the latter better because drama makes life stressful when there’s a lot of that. Would be nice to have something good once in a while but you have to deal with the cards you get. It’s all the small things that make life worth living and that’s something everyone deserves to know.

Accept me for what I am

elephant toy at a window
Nori watching the rain

Being a teenager is not easy. You get easily sensitive about your appearance and other people’s opinions. You have so many different issues about everything in your life, it feels overwhelming. What’s even harder is trying to get acceptance from others. Some people wants you to be like them and you try hard to impress them. There’s stress about what you want to do for a living. These days it’s more difficult since there’s so much to choose from. Then you read magazines or blogs where they tell you what’s you should do. All kinds of tips about how to lose weight or what to wear. If you’re not acting the same way as everybody else, you lose confidence and try to fit it. In the end, it doesn’t matter what others think. You should accept who you are. You know yourself best and who are others to judge.

I’ve been there. I’ve been worried what others think of me. I didn’t like people looking at me because I thought they thought something negative about me. I wouldn’t want to go back to my teens. I prefer being older and wiser. People should accept me for what I am because I won’t become someone else. Pretentious people are the worse. They pretend to be nice and friendly but they’re actually trying to make a fool of you. Those popular people kids in school who got a lot of friends and dated a lot of people. They never had a bad skin or got heavy. They always looked perfect. It was all a shell with no personality. You still see teens dress the same way and listen to the same kind of music. Nothing has changed and probably never will. Now they have the internet where they can bully people all day without getting caught. I’m glad there weren’t social media when I was a teen. I had a childhood and teenhood without extra pressure.

I’ve always had an own mind. You can call it stubborn. I never do things with force. If you tell me to do something, I won’t do it to please you. I do it with my own time. It’s different if it’s an important job to do. The person I am in my free time is different from the working one. I’m a Gemini which has a lot to do with it I guess. I don’t understand why someone says I’m quiet. I’m not. I just don’t talk nonsense. Some people talk too much so I don’t get a word in. Then they wonder why I don’t say much. That’s weird. But they can say what they want. I am what I am and I accept myself the way I am. I’ve come this far in life and won my so- called demons. I don’t care about what others think of me and I won’t get upset if someone tries to hurt my feelings. It’s better to be alone than be with someone who can’t accept me. You’re supposed to wear whatever others are wearing and act like any other but I don’t want to be like anyone. That’s the problem with the world. You should be yourself and yet you shouldn’t show it to others. Where’s the logic in that?

When I read about job searching and how to get hired. It always says, in 5 minutes you have to impress the employer. I’m sorry but you don’t know anything about how I am after such a short time. I really dislike the first impression thing. I’m not good at it at all. I don’t talk to people I don’t know and I won’t try to be something I’m not. They probably think they have an impression of me as soon as I enter the room. No matter how I prepare for social gatherings, I still get tongue-tied. It’s like my mind become empty and all my courage is gone. And I still get called quiet. If I was, I wouldn’t talk in a week. I don’t love my voice that much that I want to talk all the time. Talking too much is stressful and your throat gets dry. Wasting your energy on boring subjects is time-consuming and I rather be doing something more productive. That’s one of the reasons why I would be a good employee, I don’t waste time on gossiping.

Everyone have the right to be what they want to be and with anyone they want. It’s up to the person to learn that there’s always gonna be people who have negative thoughts. People fear things they can’t understand. You don’t have to change for anyone. Don’t take things personally. It’s not you, it’s the other person who has issues. You get more confidence when you get older. Things happen for a reason. If I hadn’t gone through what I have been through, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Bad people shouldn’t control our lives. Keep your chin up and try to ignore whatever is thrown at you. Accept yourself for who you are and nothing will be in the way of your happiness.

(grammar checked with Grammarly)

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