Privacy is my right and so is yours

whatever-is-private-will-remain-privateEveryone has the right to privacy, even people in the public eye. It’s your choice what you want to tell people. You don’t need to tell anything about yourself if you don’t want to. People think just because someone is famous, they have the right to know everything about them. You don’t need to know everything. If someone elses life is that important, then your own life must be miserable. They should really get help because following someone elses life too closely is not healthy. Those who spread rumours around must just be jealous of the person. People have the urge to speculate about which celebrity is dating who. That’s no one elses business but their own. There are more important things than someone’s dating history.

I try to keep my life private. That’s because I’ve had people in my life that I lost my trust in. I’m careful what I tell about myself to new people. You could say I have trusting issues. I’m trustworthy myself. If someone tells me a secret I never tell anyone but I can’t trust another to keep my secret. Even if the person says I can trust them, I still don’t believe them. I really need to know the person very well before I can confide in them.
Even if I say it myself, I could date someone in the public eye because I would never tell anyone. Who would I tell anyway, I don’t have any close friends. If I had I would still keep it to myself no matter how happy I would be. I’ll never meet one anyway and if I did, you would never see me in parties or premieres. Those things freak me out. I don’t really like the word, celebrity. It sounds and looks like they are people from another planet. In a way they are but in the end they’re only human who just happens to be famous.

On social media like Facebook I have my privacy restricted so only my followers can read it. Some things you just don’t want everyone to see. But on Twitter it’s all public because if it was restricted, there wouldn’t be a point for me to use it. I wouldn’t get enough of reaction if only my followers would see what I tweet about. Sometimes I get likes and retweets from who doesn’t follow me but there wouldn’t be much if I had it in private. On Twitter I don’t post so-called sensitive issues. Except this blog post. I still won’t post too private things to this blog and even less on social media. Privacy is my right and so is everybody elses. It only depends how you use it online. Tell it all or keep it to yourself. It’s your life and you can do what you like with it.

I feel so exposed

Stockholm in the mist

I joined PayPal the end of last year because I needed the Adobe Creative Cloud programs for my web design education. I had to add my debit card so they could charge me for the rights to use them. I’ve always doubted the security to use a debit or credit cards online. I thought long and hard before I signed in. Things went like it should. But I noticed something on my bank account. Something called GOOGLE *LINE Corp had charged me a lot of times with small sums of euros in one day on Monday (Jan 16). This is exactly what I was worried about that some weird money loss will happen. I feel so exposed and I don’t what I’m gonna do. It’s the weekend and the bank is closed. I tried to find a solution online but I didn’t find a straight answers. There’s nothing in Finnish either. I didn’t have anything of this until I joined PayPal. I don’t even know if that’s the problem and I don’t even know if this thing will keep charging me. It’s not the real Google and I have never bought anything else online with a card than Adobe CC.

I don’t want to be one of those people who looses all of their money because of some scam. Is this even one of those? I’m not gonna wait until that. I don’t even know if I get that money back and how much I lost. It’s such burden to handle problems like this. I don’t want to delete my PayPal account because I really want these Adobe programs for my education. That’s not the problem though. PayPal is supposed to be save. A lot of people are using it for their business. I really hope this GOOGLE *LINE Corp won’t cause anymore problems. You never think you’re the person who need to worry about fraud and things like that. The strange thing about these charges is that they were all done in one day. I don’t know where they got my account number and why it happened in the first place. I never put any account numbers anywhere online. Not even phone numbers. Security is very important to me when it comes to internet. I never expose anything personal like that and no one can fool me to do so.
All I can do is hope because I can’t do anything about this until next week when the bank is open again. That’s the only solution I have to get this thing sorted out. Internet is no help at all. You think you find everything on Google but that’s no entirely true. At least not in this case.

An advice to you all. Never post anything security related online. No passwords or social security numbers. If someone asks your password, never tell. Banks never asked their clients that. There are people who have fallen for scams because they trust other people too much. Anyone can fall for that if they’re not careful.
You should never send money to someone you barely know. They’re called con-artists and there’s a lot of those online. The victims are usually female who fall for someone’s charm. Only a fool would trust a stranger. So don’t be one. Like Kim Wilde once sang ‘Never trust a stranger‘ Being careful is never a bad thing. So stay safe.

Tallenna

Someday that did not happen

big treeWhen I was younger, I used to have dreams about things. Someday I would move abroad. Someday I would become something. Someday I would find someone to love. Someday I would find a career I’m comfortable with. Someday I’ll become a Formula 1 photographer. But that someday never came. Things never turned the way I wanted them to be. I learned to accept the way things were. Now I wouldn’t have the same goals as I did then. My priorities changed as I got older. I began to take the days as they came and I still do. I don’t plan far ahead because I know they won’t become true. No matter what others say, it won’t happen to me. If it would, it would have happened ages ago. I’ll never meet people I want. I never get satisfaction in anything I do. I’m pleased with things but I never feel 100% sure. I live in a world where everything is good. I don’t want to the worlds problems on my shoulders. There are things I care about but I wouldn’t spend my time by following them for very long. Things will never be fine in the world. I can feel empathy but it doesn’t make me lose my sleep over it. I’ve got enough of my own problems to solve. I would be a very bad psychologist because I found other people’s problems uninteresting. Even if I’m interested in human behaviour, I still wouldn’t care less. It might have sounded bad about what I just wrote but other people’s problems are no concern of mine. I don’t expect others to care about mine either.

I might be pessimistic here but I don’t believe in someday. There won’t be a cure for cancer someday. There won’t be peace in the world someday. We can only hope there is a cure but it doesn’t mean it will come true. There’s always been bad things in the world. Things can get better but it will never be over. You can’t get rid of hate and you can’t spread love to everyone. Idiots of the world has always been and always will be around. You can make the world a better place by spreading love but it won’t have any affect on certain people. It’s no use to think someday a miracle would happen when that someday will never come no matter how much you wish for it. Still it doesn’t mean you have to give up on the someday. Maybe it will come or it might not.

That someday only happen to other people than yourself. Someday someone wins the lottery but that won’t be me. Someday a little child hugs you for no reason at all but that ain’t gonna be me. Someone else will meet a famous person they look up to someday but not me. I’ll never be that lucky. I will not find love someday because I’m not even looking. If I did, he’s probably taken or wouldn’t even care. I did think someday I would change the subjects on this blog to more personal but that never happened. Someday is not really my friend. On the contrary, it’s a pain in the behind. The only certainty that someday will happen is death. It comes to all of us one way or another.

 

Tallenna

Tallenna