Life is full of disappointments, I once wrote on this blog. I try not to flare up when it comes to misfortunes. But sometimes you need to rant about it. I didn’t get the internship that I went for an interview. At least I don’t think so because they never did inform me. They could have at least bothered to tell me. I can’t understand why employers can’t tell the applicants about the results. A no is better than no answer at all. Since there was no reply last week I assume it’s a lost cause. Just as well. The other interns were much younger than me. It wasn’t even a paid job. But that would have been better than nothing. Well, their loss. Looking on the bright side, I can concentrate on my school assignments. It still blows I didn’t get the internship though. It seems I can’t even get free work. It feels like all the educations I’ve had is all unnecessary. I don’t know why I even bother studying anything. I should get work experience but no one gives you a chance. That’s a problem for the young and the older job seekers.
You’re either too young or too old. Even someone over 40 is old for most employers. What are they worried about? They don’t want to babysit or boss their mothers? Job search is a pain and it gets worse the longer you are unemployed. All this propaganda about how to find work doesn’t help. People can give you millions of advice but none of them will help your cause. The job search has become a competition. Is not what kind of education you have, it’s about who you know. It helps if you’re an outgoing and a-happy-go-lucky-really- social person. If you’re not, then there are troubles ahead. After so many disappointments you lose hope of finding any work. You start to think there is something wrong about you. But it isn’t. It’s the job search that is rotten. Employers are too afraid to take risks. It frustrates me when these 30 years something praise how they got a job after a job search in 6 months. That’s nothing, try 10 or more years and then praise it. It’s so easy to brag about your good luck when others struggle for years.
I’ve been to these job search and resume courses but none of them has helped to find me a job. The only thing I got was something to do and once I found an education I applied to (it was the web design education) That didn’t help either to get a job. There is no point applying for any job because I’m gonna get rejected anyway. If I can’t even get this internship without pay, then how can I get a paid one. I’m actually so fed up with this all. I know I should think positive but it’s hard since nothing ever happens. I could just go to sleep and pray for death. Not really though. In a way, I understand people who don’t even want to look for a job. Job search is hard and you get emotionally drained about the whole process. But I wouldn’t want to live all my life on social benefits. My parent taught me better than that. If I had the courage I would become an entrepreneur at this instant but that has its disadvantages too. Feeling unwanted is one of the worst feelings but you just have to continue living. At least I have other things to do. Or else this unemployment would take harder to bear.
If you didn’t know the blog title is a song with David Hasselhoff. Actually, he was my hero when I was a kid. As Michael Knight mostly in Knight Rider. I loved the car K.I.T.T. He was once in Finland when he was in the TV show. There was also the replica of the car. Everyone is looking for a freedom. Free to be whoever they want to be. Unfortunately, not everyone has the same rights. That’s totally another story that I won’t get into. In a way, I’ve been lucky my parents didn’t tell me what to do or what to become. I could be whatever I felt like. I also live in a country where you’re allowed to be yourself. There are rules of course so it’s not complete freedom. Here we have choices but it’s up to you how you handle things. No country is perfect.
Unemployment is a big issue. They say it has got better but I think that’s just propaganda. Maybe in some occupations but everyone can’t become nurses or work in construction. No employer wants to hire someone with no work experience. If you’re not young, internships are under a rock. Some say that is not even work experience. But that’s all I have so my chances are thin. Life experience doesn’t seem to mean anything in working life. A lot of people are frustrated with not getting hired no matter what they do. They can have years of experience and yet they get nowhere. That’s far from freedom. If you have a job, be happy you have one. Everyone needs a purpose in life. It’s even harder for an unemployed to find work because there are those with jobs that also wants to find a new job. It seems unemployed is a second citizen. The longer you’re out of work, fewer chances you have. That isn’t right. Do we forget how to work? Maybe some don’t even bother learning something new but there are those who have educated themselves. Unemployed are not made of the same mould as politicians seem to think. Not everyone can be entrepreneurs either.
For me, freedom is one of the most important things. Especially after I studied web design and had a few clients. The thought of not having to go and work for someone else sounded so tempting. I’m still in the should I or should I not- stage. I can’t decide. My cousin started her nail art business this year and she already got clients. She’s a bit like my dad. She didn’t hesitate to start her own. That’s what I lack. I think and think but I don’t do anything. It’s been over a year since I did anything in web design so maybe I forgot all about it. Her line of work is different from mine and she already had a job. I’ve got too many hang-ups. I think too much about what I could lose than thinking what I could gain. When I look at what’s out there in the job world, the requirements they want is someone with 2-5 years or 5-10 years of experiences. And a web developer. I just don’t have it. The competition in the design world is though too so there’s so much you need to do. I’m just too introverted for that. The easiest way would be just to accept my faith that I’ll never find a job. Or have the courage to start a business of my own. Making decisions shouldn’t be this hard. I wish I had the courage to just start things because that’s freedom and that’s what I’m looking for.
What I hate the most is people who think they know what they’re talking about. The blaming game is so vintage. Just because their life has turned into a fairytale, it doesn’t mean everyone else had got as lucky. You don’t anything about a person if you haven’t walked in their shoes. Then these people giving advice about how they have found that perfect partner or that great job. Sorry to disappoint you but just because it has happened to you, it doesn’t mean it will work for everyone.
The people who get the most blamed for their being are poor and the unemployed. It’s like it’s their fault they live on the street. Or it’s the unemployed fault no one wants to hire them. Sometimes bad things happen to good people. It’s so easy for those who have a job and lots of money to complain about the less fortunate. I would like them so struggle through life as the poor or unemployed do. The world doesn’t work that everyone who tries will get success. People who blame others for the societies problems are part of it themselves. At least here in Finland, the politicians think it’s the unemployed own fault they haven’t got a job. That’s why they make up this active model where they punish the unemployed if they don’t apply for jobs. The unemployed do that anyway but still, they can’t get hired. The attitude problems lay elsewhere.
I find it quite amusing when these unemployed are without work for a few months and then get hired again. Then they say other unemployed are lazy. Well, good for you who got a job that easily but everyone isn’t as lucky. If you have been unemployed for 10 years or more and then get a job, then come back and brag about it. Then I will be so happy for you. Before that, I’m just gonna laugh at you. Being without a job for a few months or even 2 year is nothing. Blaming others for being lazy is a bad explanation. You shouldn’t generalise. There can be some lazy unemployed who does nothing to get a job. They don’t educate themselves or anything. They want the easy way out by collecting unemployment benefits. It’s only a small part but not all unemployed have the same attitude. I admit I’m quite lazy too but I haven’t just sat around and done nothing. I don’t want to be jobless the rest of my life. But all that studying hasn’t paid off but at least I’ve learned something new. I’m not gonna sit down this time either. I have that graphic design course in 44 days. Luckily no one has said to me personally that I’m lazy or anything like that. Even if someone did, I would just say, talk to the hand.
The blaming game is so vintage. How about blaming those who assume things? People need to get their facts right before judging. Things are not always the way they seem. Remember that.